Poems by Shianne

The truth you tell me hurts more than your lie
Once I learned it, I started to cry
Every time I thought of you
I remembered what I thought was true
I try to cover it as I mend my heart
It's no use, I'm broken apart
Into a million pieces I've been shattered
Not that you cared, not that it mattered
The truth hurts more than I thought
Reality showing what I forgot
My smile returns to a fake
There's nothing else for you to take
You took my heart when I learned the lie
Inside I'm dying as I try
To mend myself as best as I can
Hoping that this won't happen again
I'll try to leave this behind
As I start to find
Myself looking at you during the day
And try to find something to say
That won't bring back this painful memory
That won't remind me of what couldn't be
As I start to learn it's still true
I still find myself loving you

The beat of rain upon the land
Broken teardrop in my hand
Shattered remains upon the ground
My beating heart the only sound

A twisted tale chiseled in stone
Stories forgotten as the voices drone
Heart of ice, frozen in time
Far away, bells start to chime

The wind whispers through the trees
Voices carried on each breeze
Cries and sobs drown each bell
Secrets kept that no one shall tell

A tear cast aside that came to you
Reflecting anger and lies turned true
A tear that fell, yet went unshed
An unseen symbol filled with dread

Lonesome night to wash away
Heart wrenching pain of another day
The shattered pieces of a broken heart
Sewn together yet fallen apart

Broken tear the remains of a love
That burst to flames sent above
Heart of ice turned to stone
These silent voices start to drone

They tell these tales as though the end
Was at their side until they send
Each tale to lay before these lies
Glittering shards of diamond eyes

This heart of ice is the only link
Chained in black bound by ink
Surviving each day by only a drop
Lest its beating was ever to stop

As each day slowly wears on
The last shreds of hope are long gone
In the fields of glass, of diamond lies
Unseen by all except dreaming eyes

The spirits lie, awaiting the sacrifice
That is to be this heart of ice.

Broken window shows each dream
Shattered lie you can't redeem
A wish upon a twisted heart
Diamond lie that ripped apart
Shards of truth a pane of glass
A broken dream that came to pass
A teardrop fallen in the rain
An unseen symbol of your pain
A silver thread upon the ground
Of lost hopes that couldn't be found
A web of lies and deceit
Twisted from each defeat
Bound by hatred from a flame
Burning bright, turning the blame
Blood red tears that fall right through
Showing all that wasn't true
A dream twisted to the end
A lie to truth from which you bend
A cold hatred from above
Back to silence shattered by love
A dreaming wish fallen from a heart
As each lie rips it apart
A teardrop falls from each eye
A wish that came in the form of a lie
Hopes that shattered upon the floor
Lies that were hidden behind a door
A dreaming eye that went unseen
Reliving everything had it been
A wish each year to have it sell
Your secrets that you cannot tell
Hidden by all yet free to see
Each truth, lie, dream and wish as they be
To turn them back, a nightmare made
Losing battles, memories fade
And hopes and dreams are sold away
A lie born into a day
A reality turned back on you
From a truth they never knew
Careful all, for you will see
That secrets and dreams aren't safe to be
They take your dream, twist it around
Shatter the memories upon the ground
Whisked away by just one scream
They give you back your twisted dream
But when they do, this I tell
Your dream in exchange for a nightmare is what you sell

You don't mean what you say and don't mean what you do
You don't mean anything because it's not true
You broke my fall and stole my heart
And already damaged, you let it fall apart
The tears I cry now fall with my misery
Once covered up, now for the world to see
Who I really am inside
For all to see rules to which I don't abide
The circumstances in which reality shall fade
The unwanted feelings your lies have made
The shame when I realized you gained my trust
The truth fading as the dust
Slips through my fingers grain by grain
My heart's not only torn but slain
As shards of glass fall from the sky
Tears of blood fall from my eye
Your words crawled across my skin
And I forget what I don't believe in
My heart pounds as I lift my head
Dare to enter where no one has tread
And I looked deep into your eyes
Found the source of all your lies
And even though I know they'll never be true
With all my heart, I'll continue loving you

The hurt in my eyes is all that has to be said
Sometimes I know I'm better off dead
The pain is the only thing I can feel
Knowing it's the one thing that's real
Behind all the games and lies
An emptiness haunts my eyes
A person who I used to be
Worse even though it wasn't me
Sorrow consuming every thought
Slowly losing everything I've got
Darkness closing in all around
Still I don't make a single sound
Evil fills the void inside
This life's not one I'll confide
However deeper someone tries to look
Whatever happens the ground has shook
The dread and hate leaves me in a daze
All around me demons' fires blaze
Living isn't worthwhile if it's torture
Yet it's that to which I'm not sure
Don't try to understand the words written here
For I'm not the one to fear