Where can I go?
How can I begin?
At 20, I'm still depressed,
I tried taking my life at ten.
I began hurting so long ago,
I thought I'd be numb by now,
But it gets worse. It feels
Like salted wounds on the inside.
I cry out to no one!
My family isn't there for me,
And neither are any friends.
I cry out, "Oh God!" yet the silence never ends.
Why? What have I done?
"Oh Lord, I take it back starting from day one."
Why can't I be loved? Why can't I be touched?
Am I jinxed? Am I vexed? Am I cursed?
I long to die, but they say it's wrong,
I'll go to hell!! So I bleed.
I bleed hate, I bleed confusion,
I bleed eternal despair.
I have been abandoned and used.
I have been hated and abused.
No father, no friends, no one to depend.
I hated my childhood because I was always alone.
I was shown little affection, even now that I'm grown.
I want things to change, I don't know how,
I'll die if something doesn't happen now.
Where is my hero?
I need saving from this isolation.
Will it happen, or will I be eternally alone?
I tried killing myself at your age. A month later I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. It's been two years, and I had gotten better, but then I fell again. I really hope you get...
Published by Family Friend Poems September 2008 with permission of the author.
Where can I go?
I tried killing myself at your age. A month later I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. It's been two years, and I had gotten better, but then I fell again. I really hope you get better. Just please, never hurt yourself. Whatever you do, do not hurt yourself. Do anything else, anything, just not that. Please. Have a nice day.