Lonely Poem

Why Don't You Love Me?

My boyfriend and I have been together for 9 years. Two years in he became abusive he would throw me down and hold me on ground and lock me in the bathroom, and then we talked about that and things kind of slowed down so over the last year or so it has turned into more a verbal thing. He is a heavy drinker and when we met I had no idea, but as the years went on it got worse and now EVERY NIGHT I am listening to him talk to me like crap. I deserve better, but now I've fallen in love with him and can't get away.

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When I read this, I thought I wrote it myself. I have been with my husband going on 6 years. He would drink and come home mad. Sometimes I thought, "This man that I fell in love with is no...

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Published: January 2012

Why do you tear me down
When all I do is build you up?
Why do you hate me so much?
Why do you deny my touch?

Is drinking that important
and family so expendable?
You call me names
and tell me I'm the one to blame.

It's all my fault.
I deserve a verbal assault.
Not a bruise on my body,
only scars on my soul.

I am alone.
I am scared.
I'd be better on my own.
What happened to the love we shared?

I am fat, a slut, a whore, a liar,
when all I am is a crier.
You say I'm not faithful,
but it's our relationship that's not stable.

I don't deserve this.
I am a good person.
Let's try a kiss
to release my burden.

When will you stop?
Stop the drunken arguments that mean nothing.
I am tired, I am wore out, I can't go on
knowing I am not on top.

I want to mean more than a liquid you pour down your throat,
the one that drives people away from you.
Does it mean that much to you
that you have to see all you can lose before something means more?

I love you with all my heart and soul,
But I am tired -
tired of being put last
when you are so wired.

You have to know my every move,
but what do you do for me?
I don't ask much,
just asking for you to improve.

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  • Linda Kehoe by Linda Kehoe
  • 3 months ago

When I read this, I thought I wrote it myself. I have been with my husband going on 6 years. He would drink and come home mad. Sometimes I thought, "This man that I fell in love with is no longer here." I did not know this person being so mean and hatefully saying things to me that no one person should ever hear. When I would cry, he would get even angrier. Then he would pull my hair and throw things at me. Well today he is in prison.

  • Roxie  Deleon by Roxie Deleon
  • 5 months ago

I'm with an alcoholic boyfriend right now, and I love him so much. It's been 2 years. When he loves me and holds me, I believe him, but then alcohol comes and all the name calling and the women he flirts with, and he makes me believe it's my fault all the money I spend on him paying his bills just to feel loved for a short moment. It's 2 years, and I still cannot stop loving or looking for him. How can I love this person? Why can't I just stop loving him?

  • Jackie by Jackie
  • 4 years ago

This is so true because I've been through this and am still going through this..... Life can give you a lot of opportunities so don't feel lonely.......I felt so lonely after me and my boyfriend broke up,he broke up with me for another girl that was just using him......But I cant believe I'm the one feeling the pain instead of him. Who is supposed to suffer me or him???That's something i would want to know.

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