In this life
I once felt hope.
I sometimes still believe in this,
but each moment a little less.
I feel abandoned in my despair,
and it's difficult to repair.
I get broken each day some more,
keeping these emotions in my core.
I find myself hiding behind this smile,
the one that shows my denial.
I have thoughts of lonesomeness,
which no person should possess.
I camouflage this so well;
it feels like I'm in hell.
I hurt on the inside,
trying to push these demons aside.
I want something better,
to not feel all this terror.
I know it can be manageable;
there are things that make life tolerable.
I just cannot find the thrill,
like when I was a child with a one dollar bill.
I remember when dreams were imaginable,
now it feels like I'm undoubtedly fallible.
I wish to find myself soon.
This feels as if I'm trapped in a cocoon.
I would like to hatch,
not be so detached.
I need to end this coldness,
before death leaves me soulless.
Feeling Lost In This World
I feel the same way, and I think I understand how you feel. I'm only eleven and have lost my mom to drugs. I went to live with my dad and step-mom. I am not allowed to see my real mother or...
Searching For My Soul
Published by Family Friend Poems January 2017 with permission of the author.
In this life
We all go through crap. Sometimes it feels as if our life is only the crap, in a messed up, brutal and breaking way. Nobody deserves to feel unwanted and unloved. I honestly feel completely unloved myself, but one day you will find your place in the world.