21. My Fight With Meth
I wanted to give up so badly today and let my addiction win,
but my heart is too strong to let my body give in.
I've been down that road too many times before,
a life and a struggle, that I don't want anymore.
I wanted to give up so badly today and let my addiction win,
but my heart is too strong to let my body give in.
I've been down that road too many times before,
a life and a struggle, that I don't want anymore.
It's sad that I let myself go to my addiction because I lost everything. My wife, children, and close friends. Several times I tried to stop, but I've discovered that I was powerless over it....
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Again and again, going through withdrawals
My eyes flutter, my skin crawls
Like many times before, I nod off again
This feeling I used to look forward to because I thought my life was much worse then the pain that high gave me. Through out all this pain I was just looking for to be numb but it would...
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Sucked like a vacuum, I held my fear,
built up anger you want to hold near.
Shaking and trembling is what I feel,
I recently stumbled across this poem as I was looking for a literature analysis topic. I searched and read hundreds of poems, and this one pulled me in. Every time I read it, it grabs me in a...
The power of addiction is a horrible disease.
You make think it relieves pressure,
Or bring pain to ease.
In the twilight's deceptive embrace,
A spark ignites, a dangerous chase.
Promised highs in a crystalline shard,
An escape from sorrow, though my journey is hard.
Lost within the maze of my own mind,
Swimming in circles, trying to leave it all behind,
A mask in disguise trying to mask my demise.
Within the truth there are no lies.
So many emotions, it's out of control.
What have I done? Have I sold my soul?
The price is steep, and there's nothing to gain.
I cut my wrist today, but not because I wanted to die. Of course, people won't ask. They will just assume that's why.
I needed to know that I could still feel something, other than the pain I felt inside. I watched it for a while until finally the bleeding started to subside.
Lisa,
I am so very sorry for your loss.
I know this has to be such a terrible burden.
Please call to get help and support for what you are going through- either good Christian...
This is my drowning,
my teeth sinking
into sour apples
and I’m not hiding
It sits on the razor's edge,
A tear, crimson within itself.
I sit there, constantly reminded of you.
This was our thing,
I wake up in the morning, see you're not there.
By 10am I feel sick, I need you my dear.
Why can't I have you all the time.
I need you. It hurts me it makes me cry.
I have the same problem. Every time I wake, all I think about is nicotine.
You think it's cool when you get high.
You don't even see the things that go by.
Time flies when you're having fun.
But one day your body can't handle
ADDICT AND WIFE. I'm a meth addict for 13 years now. My wife and I have been married for 15 years and been together for 17 years. Until just this past year I've hidden my addiction from her...
King Cocaine has come out smoking,
I've taken hit after hit.
It's plain to see he's not joking,
And it's obvious I should to quit.
I am an addict living one day at a time. I do not say I'm in recovery, cuz I don't want to jinx myself. When all my using, craving dreams and thoughts leave me forever, then I will say I'm...