I Need Your Support
This is my drowning,
my teeth sinking
into sour apples
and I’m not hiding
Addiction can turn a perfectly healthy individual into a complete mess. There are many things that one can become addicted to. The common denominator is that it can ruin your life. Whether it be gambling, drugs, or some other kind of substance abuse, your life can quickly spin out of control if you aren't careful. There are some people that are born with an addictive personality. They may try a drug one time and it can ruin their lives forever. Others experiment with all sorts of lifestyle choices and nothing seems to stick to them. When it comes to addiction, there is nothing fair about it.
This is my drowning,
my teeth sinking
into sour apples
and I’m not hiding
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I'm all alone and feel I'm smothering.
It's because of the addiction I've been covering.
Why does the chaos never cease?
All I need is just a little peace!
A cloud is looming overhead,
Weighted I feel as I rise from bed.
A need for something, whatever the fix.
Its voice is talking, playing tricks.
It touched my heart. The gist of this poem is the reality of my life too. Only those who have faced this nasty phase can understand the pain of the poem and how the evil inside starts...
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It sits on the razor's edge,
A tear, crimson within itself.
I sit there, constantly reminded of you.
This was our thing,
So many emotions, it's out of control.
What have I done? Have I sold my soul?
The price is steep, and there's nothing to gain.
Trapped in a repetitive cycle of wants and needs
Slowly unraveling inside of me.
There are many things,
An entrapment of feelings.
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We are the dry wind,
but broken shadows of our former selves,
Left with nothing
but our own carnal pleasures
Lost within the maze of my own mind,
Swimming in circles, trying to leave it all behind,
A mask in disguise trying to mask my demise.
Within the truth there are no lies.
When I close my eyes
Shut out the pain outside
My soul turns inwards
And I feel the shame inside...
Call someone. Someone who is clean and you can trust. Take it only one hour or even one minute at a time. It is a lie that you love heroine. What you love is not feeling the pain of life. But...
If you booze you lose, or so they say
I didn't believe that back in the day
When I was young it seemed so funny
Clubbing together, so we had enough money...