Addiction Poem

I've been on a long and hard road recovering from meth. I know first hand the struggle we all face in our recovery. I lost my daughters, my family, and was homeless for six months. Three times I checked myself into a rehab before I could take control of this disease. It was a lot of hard work and a lot of pain to deal with before I could love myself enough to stay clean. Keep your head up, it is possible!!

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Megan, please take this for what it's worth! We look for anything to hold onto to kick the habit. This I know too well as whatever works to keep us sober is a blessing! I'm from a religious...

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My Fight With Meth

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Published: May 2011

I wanted to give up so badly today, and let my addiction win,
but my heart is too strong, to let my body give in.
I've been down that road too many times before,
a life and a struggle, that I don't want anymore.
I will keep fighting, and I will move on,
until all the side effects of my addiction are gone.
Taking a lifetime to recover from this,
but all the pain and suffering I do not miss.
I'll never forget the person I left in my past,
so beaten and broken, from living life too fast.
The pain and the memories, I swore I'd never let go,
the tears and the heart break I finally let show.
I had to face myself, to learn who I was inside,
running for so long, I knew I could no longer hide.
I wanted out, I wanted to break free of this,
but I have to admit the pills and the dope I still miss.

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  • Megan Danielle by Megan Danielle
  • 3 years ago

I was first introduced to Meth at 17 from a boyfriend and I loved the feeling of it. I struggled with addiction for 2 1/2 years off and on. Recently 5 months ago I got to where I was doing it every day and I wasn't eating or sleeping at all. I went psychotic on it which I hadn't done before but I thought everyone was after me and was talking about me. I thought at any moment the cops were going to come busting in I was that paranoid in my own mind. I left my mom uneasy and sleepless at night because she didn't know what had happened to me. My mom finally came and rescued me and the first night home was HELL and she had to give me sleeping pills to help me sleep. I regret putting my mom through all that and she's my hero. I'm 3 months sober as of December 2nd and I've asked Jesus Christ to be my savior. I got baptized on October 18th and I got involved in church, it was the best thing I could've done. I still have cravings from time to time but I like the new me today. God is my hero!

  • Michael Smith by Michael Smith, Fort Worth, TX
  • 1 year ago

Megan, please take this for what it's worth! We look for anything to hold onto to kick the habit. This I know too well as whatever works to keep us sober is a blessing! I'm from a religious background as my father was my pastor... Just please keep things in perspective and don't trade your meth addiction for another addiction. People like us tend to trade our meth for some other thing that we can hold on to! I've struggled with addiction for most of my life from the age of about 11 or 12. It's NOT an easy road as we just have to wake up each morning with the thoughts and hopes of I'm not going to use! I started out in minutes and then to half hours and then on to hours! Not a moment goes by that I don't think about using. I just try to find OTHER things to occupy my time and my thoughts! I came from a very privileged family and had everything handed to me, and you would think that my life would have been perfect! Addiction hits every income status!

  • Samantha by Samantha
  • 3 years ago

Hi, Megan!
I recently got taken off my pain pills I've been on since I was 11 (now 22). Feels like hell. I did try Meth, but if I do it again I'll be kicked out of my house. My mental health, sadly, is declining, and I have been getting really bad migraines. I volunteer with church, but can't right now until I get healthy (worked with preschool through music with my guitar). I am a Christian, just went down a wrong path. Do you have any advice? So happy you met Jesus as your Lord and Savior.
Thank you!
God bless

  • Allie by Allie, OKC
  • 5 years ago

My name is Allie. I am 18 years old. I started dope when I was 16! My dad was on it and I'd been around it my whole life. I did it one time and I was hooked. I loved the feeling of being spun and twisted. But I have a daughter to think about. I checked myself into rehab in June and got out in August. I have done it once since then and now I'm clean and have my baby girl back!!! People it is possible to get help and be clean. I did it and I'm only a teen!

  • Sarah by Sarah, NZ
  • 6 years ago

I know what it's like to be there, and I know what it's like to have that constant thought of your "old friends" lingering in the back of your mind, always reminding you of who you were and where you've been, always offering, trying to pull you back when your feeling blue and you're at your most vulnerable. Tempting you to use the same escape route, but I also know what kind of strength addicts possess and if you're strong enough to do anything for a high - you're strong enough to stop. If I could stop all 4 of mine, even if 2 flicker back on regularly, you can too .. ANYONE can beat an addiction, you just need FAITH

  • Amber Jones by Amber Jones Poet
  • 8 years ago

For all those out there that think recovery is too hard. Will take too long, or seems impossible..... Don't give up EVER!!! It has been almost a year since I wrote this poem and almost a year and a half since I got clean!!! Although at first the future seems grim, keep up the good fight!! Blessings and rewards will follow, not to mention a wonderful NEW LIFE!!! Leave your past in your past and start living for today!!! And remember.... You are ALWAYS right where you are supposed to be in life, to learn and grow and to become what the Lord intends for you. Sincerely Your Friend And Cheerleader- Amber Jones 06/02/2011

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