Lisa Scott

All I had ever wanted,
What I prayed for every night.
And now that it's here,
Not a single hope in sight.

I get up every morning,
And take a big deep breath.
Is this nightmare really over,
Will all our fights be layed to rest?

I tried to focus on all the good times,
Those days we were in love.
But all the good times now are gone,
And replaced of all what was.

This house is full of memories,
All the pictures on these walls.
A time before remembered,
Before you threw away it all.

I know I said I forgave you,
And at the time, I thought I had.
But that day is stuck on repeat,
Was she worth the life you had?

A shattered heart and a painful memory,
Is now what you've given me.
A far cry from our marriage vows,
To love, honor, and cherish thee.

Every fight leads us back in time,
About the garbage you left me for.
You could never understand my dear,
I fell apart and hit the floor.

I really tried to start all over,
But a past I would recall.
Dear God, this pain that I still carry,
Heartbreak echoes through these walls.

It may appear that my life is full,
But I'm still very much alone.
Do you notice I'm not really here,
And now my love for you is gone?

Now we lay you down to sleep.
Our baby boy's soul to keep.
We pray you feel how much you're loved.
So many hearts you've surely touched.

You've had our hearts from day one.
A blessing above to be given a son.
I'd hoped to cradle you and rock you fast asleep,
Holding you so close feeling every single heartbeat.

To hear your first sweet words or watch that first step,
Playing peek-a-boo with you, our hearts would surely melt.
For this is not goodbye; God has promised this to me.
You will always be our baby, and in our hearts you'll always be.

For our sweet baby boy, today you've gained your wings.
As we hand you back to God, we can hear those angels sing.
Heaven will be waiting for you, and until that day you greet us,
Our baby you'll always be; letting go unto the arms of Jesus.

Every part of me knew
Or so that I thought
The day I chose to stay
Hard times would be to start

It couldn't be any worse
Than not having him to hold
So I will pray every night to Jesus
And this is what I told

I love him with all my heart
My life will never be the same
The day that that he left me
My life would surely change

I cry every night and day
I'm empty and afraid
The love he once had for me
Has slowly faded away

How quickly humble I become
To know and surely learn
How fast a love like this is lost
With every single twist and turn

God must've heard my prayers
Because now my family is back together
I know now that it takes two
And a marriage has many layers

I woke up every morning
And took a big deep breath
Telling myself it's over
This nite mare laid to rest

The years have now passed by
Not always easy as it seems
Going through divorce
Was harder than to breathe

I still remember all those nights
That I was on my knees
Asking God to bring him home
Always ending with a please!

That man will never understand
The pain I suffered those days
It haunts me like a ghost
The day he through me away

But let me tell you one thing
I'd do it all over again
He's the love of my life
So now our fresh start begins

Never take someone for granted
Nothing's set in stone
Faith, love, and trust
Apologize when you're wrong

I'll love him til' the day I die
But I still take it day by day
The pain that I still carry
From the day I chose to stay