Abuse Poem

Poem To My Father Who Abused Me

A poem I wrote about my father after I had helped put him to prison for abusing me from the age of 8 to 18. It is also about how I feel now that he is out.

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I really broke down and cried when I read your poem. It is like you reached in my head and pulled out the feelings I have felt for so many years and put them on paper. You are a very...

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Published: November 2008

Why did you choose to ruin your life?
I'm sure I will never know
You turned into a nasty man
And let your evil grow
You took away my childhood
And made me all mixed up
Why could you not have been my dad?
Instead of f*ing up
You were the handy helpful man
That was known to one and all
It was me who knew the real one
Who made my skin crawl
I wanted to be normal
I wanted it to end
I would have told somebody
But I didn't trust a friend
You finally did get put away
For all your hateful crimes
It turned out I wasn't the only one
To suffer at your hands
The guilt I felt was terrible
I felt somehow to blame
For you were locked up in a cell
But I could feel the pain
Now you are old and lonely
With no friends to come your way
But I'm the one who visits you
When I have the free odd day
I don't know why I do this
I guess I'm just too soft
I don't have much I want to say
I just sit and let you talk
You're not that powerful man anymore
That dictates my every move
I'm the one that is in charge now
And I feel really sorry for you
I don't feel threatened when I kiss your cheek
When I leave you at the door
You don't have other intentions
Like you used to have before
You mumble thanks for popping in
As your eyes fill up with tears
Because you are so grateful
After all of these years
To have some form of contact
To the life that you once knew
But you can never have that back
Of this I am quite sure
You often try to let me know
That you are happy for my visit
By buying me some daft wee thing
But it doesn't matter "does it"?
I come to see you for myself
To stop the guilty feelings
That you are all alone somewhere
Just staring at the ceiling
I don't know why I worry still
That you might be in danger
Instead of what I'm expected to feel
And all that can be is ANGER
Now I have the task of burying you
When that day it finally comes
Cause no one else will do it
Because of absent chums
Everyone will surely say
"Good riddance to that man"
But I know I will feel different
Because I have forgiven DAD at last

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  • Jennell by Jennell, Oregon
  • 9 years ago

I really broke down and cried when I read your poem. It is like you reached in my head and pulled out the feelings I have felt for so many years and put them on paper. You are a very courageous woman to be able to visit your dad when he did this to you. I understand how hard it is.

  • cassy by cassy
  • 10 years ago

this poem made me cry because my dad sexually abused me and I forgave him sadly he couldn't forgive himself. he killed himself last year after everything he had done to me I shouldn't of cared but I cried for weeks and I still cry for him he will always be my dad. I think it was very brave of you to go see your dad in prison it must of been hard especially when he's out of prison

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