Abuse

• by Brenda Ellison
• 6 months ago

I'm 55, and I've only known this kind of life. Every man I've been with has abused me in every way from the time I was able to date. I can't understand why I pick these kinds of men. I don't remember my childhood. They say my dad was mentally abusive to my mom, but I don't remember that. I think now that is why I pick the men I do. I'm in one now. I've done thing that I'm not proud of. When my dad died and my son died I didn't care anymore, so I couldn't handle my husband abusing me so I started doing drugs and writing checks but couldn't pay. I ended up going to prison and now I'm doing the same thing over again. Only been out a year and I'm looking of doing time again. My mom has cancer, and my sister's husband died and my other sister's husband left her and I see myself doing it all over again. I won't ever let my family go without nor will I let them hurt, so I hide mine once again. The abuse I go threw daily is so bad I'm doing drugs.

• by Forget About Me Not
• 10 months ago

Hey, I haven't been through it, but for years I watched my mother going through that, and it drove me to a point that I feel it’s my fault and I want to hurt my father for treating her like that. I am 16 years old, and I have a boyfriend. He never once laid his hand on me for the past 2 years we’ve been together. I’m grateful he is like that. My mother has gone through so much. It makes me want to work hard so I can give her a home of her own and show my father that he is not needed.

• by LilMamas18, United States
• 2 years ago

Oh my! Reading this poem literally touched my heart. I'm in tears because that is exactly how I feel, and I can relate so much. This is a wonderful poem!

• by Jamesanna Robles, Ohio
• 3 years ago

I just left a relationship with my husband and I'm hunted by nothing but his nightmare, of that last time he put his hands on me and my head into a wall. I'm scared, I'm hurt, and half the time I blame myself. I've tried so much to move on but I feel like I've changed.

• by Natasha, NYC
• 5 years ago

This poem touched my hurt and gave me goose bumps because it reminds me of my ex ...

• by Julie, UK
• 5 years ago

This says it all. The hopelessness and resignation. Beautifully and succinctly put, thank you for sharing your poem. I totally related to your experiences. I hope you got out. It's confusing to be free. It took me 3 years to breathe again.

• by Df, Ny
• 5 years ago

My daughter's live-in boyfriend abused her for over eleven years. He was 17 years older than her. They had two beautiful girls, 2 and 3, together. He would threaten with taking the girls and telling her that she would never raise them. Unfortunately his wish came true by causing an "accident" which resulted in her death at the age of 30. No charges were filed as he knew someone inside.

• by Jessica
• 5 years ago

My husband use to beat me like that. I finally got away. But he changed my life forever. I will never be the same. It's hard to have a relationship now with anyone..

• by Angie Shepard, Flint
• 6 years ago

I was in an domestic violence relationship for 13 years, had 2 wonderful children from him and thought we would never get out of it alive. I experienced physical, emotional, mental, verbal and economic abuse everyday. We were together for 6 months and I became pregnant with my son and then about 6 months after he was born is when the physical abuse started. He had gotten in my head so bad that I was scared to leave so I stuck it out and 4 years later I gave birth to my beautiful daughter. When she was a year old he started physically abusing my/our son and threatened to kill me and them if I intervened at all. Finally in 2008 the dear lord put this wonderful man I now call my husband in our lives. He gave me the strength to leave and 6 years later I am married, my children call my husband dad and we all are the happiest we have EVER been. I encourage anyone in an abusive relationship PLEASE know that you are strong and a survivor.

• by Ash, MI
• 6 years ago

You guys do not deserve that. I was in an abusive relationship and somehow I got out of it. I felt so free. But then I thought it was the end in my life with domestic violence I was wrong. My two cousins, aunt, and uncle were killed by my cousins husband on 7-7-11, she did not get any help we had no idea it was that far. She thought that she could handle it on her own. No one can do it alone but there are places that will get you away from it.

• by Tt, NY
• 8 years ago

I'm in a relationship like that now. My husband beats me and told people it was me. He tell me he will take my kids away. To make me stay. I was seeing a counselor and was making a safety plan. He found out and took my kids and now I facing jail time even after they know he choked and beats on me. I can't believe that he can get away with it, but he did. Telling me I have to beg to get back my kids and house... so thanks for telling your story

• by babygirl
• 10 years ago

my daddy did this to my mommy...not as bad but he hurt her...I was very young. but it is always there and you will never be able to forget it