I sit awake at night
I don't want to get that call.
I know that I'm selfish, but God only knows how much I still need you here!
I'm not ready to let go.
I'm so sad, yet so angry at you!
Why weren't you there!?
Why didn't you make more of an effort!?
How could you let so much time go by!?
I sit here now,
Thinking of you.
You're supposed to watch me grow older...
You're supposed to walk me down the aisle!
What am I supposed to do?
I'm so alone.
I know that I have made a lot of mistakes, and that I to let so much time go.
I'm sorry that I wasn't there.
I'm sorry that it took me this long to see.
I'm sorry that I can't get over the past.
I'm sorry that I'm just not realizing how much you really mean to me.
I love you, Dad.
I just want a second chance.
And I want to say that everything is going to be okay, that everything is going to be fine... You will come home and get better, and we will go horseback riding again, or play yatzee, or order a pizza and watch a movie together!
But I know that it's not okay.
I know that what I want isn't going to happen.
I just wish I could save you.
I wish that I could go back and be there.
And now I have to live with myself for the things that have happened.
I just want you to know before, that I always loved you, and will continue to...
No matter the outcome, I want you to know that I'm here for you!
I love you Dad.
Don't forget about me.
Spend Time With Those You Love
This poem is very strong. I am loosing my father as I write this. He is in the ICU unable to breath on his own and its just a matter of time till I loose him. And I am not ready. I am only 18...
I'm Sorry Dad
Published: July 2008