Mumma, I love you so very much!! I just can't imagine my life without you. You died on May 26, 2018, leaving me shattered. By losing you, I have realized that I have lost the most important person of my life. I realized I loved you the most in my entire family. You don't even know how much I have been affected by your absence. Every day I wake up being shocked how it could happen to me, how you could leave me. Mom, I know you didn't want to die. I want you to come back to me. I want to sleep in your lap. I want to feel your touch. I am unable to live without you, Mumma. Please come back. I'm crying daily for you, Mom. Please don't leave me. At least show some sign that you are around me. I feel suicidal without you. My life is nothing without you. My first words were Mumma. Where are you? I am sorry for all the harsh words, and I'm sorry I could not take care of you nicely, Mom. I could not even tell you, Mumma, how much I actually love you. Please come back, Mumma!
My best friend is a boy. He has always been there for me when I needed someone. He treats me differently than others. Everyone says that we’re just like a couple. I feel guilty if he gets mad because of that title people gave us, but he doesn’t care what people want to say because he says I’m his best friend, so he wants me to be by his side. When my friends say to him that I’m his wife, he looks like he’s blushing. I don’t know why, but he makes me confused. Is he falling in love with me? I feel scared that I’ll love him but he won’t.
My only daughter was 24 when she died and just 10 days out of a court ordered substance abuse program. Although she dabbled in drugs, it was mental illness that needed to be treated but never was. We lost her on 12/31/16. She left behind 4 children, which my husband and I have. Although I cry less, the pain is just as heavy if not more. The children really miss her and are suffering greatly. Even the four-year-old still asks when she's coming back. I have so much to tell her, but she's not here. I wouldn't wish this pain on a soul. GOD is with us, and that helps. Bless you all!
I am raising four grandchildren, and I wish more than anything that they could avoid this pain. I will always be here to wipe the tears and remind them how much they are loved. My greatest hope is that I can be enough. I got to be a part of my 6-year-old riding a bike with no training wheels recently, and I hope she carries that memory as I will.
This poem really touched me. I found it a very courageous piece of work. Every emotion and struggle was shared and felt by the reader. What a journey and what an amazing outcome based on strength and resilience. I loved this poem.
Mommy misses you so much; it's been almost 13 years since you've been gone. I know you're in heaven watching over us. Your little sister looks at your pictures and asked me why God took you. Mommy really didn't know what to say or how to answer her. She's only 3. What do you say? How do I answer her? It hurt me so bad. I just wanted to start crying my eyes out.
I went behind my best friend's back and talked to his crush. He was mad. I hated myself and I cried. He said stop crying. I'm just upset. He said let's not talk for a few days. I miss him already, but he is my crush.
I cannot read your words without so many tears. I pray for you to find peace and comfort in one day knowing that there was nothing at all you could have done differently. I pray for you to find faith of Christ, the Savior, grasping your precious daughter at the instance of her passing and breathing eternal life in to her heavenly soul. I also pray for you in knowing that there is but one way to heaven and that is through Christ. And In heaven we are all reborn and there your daughter will be awaiting you and yours. When I read your story I could not stop thinking of you and praying for you. I know I am not the only one. May God bless you.
I think getting old really is that scary for you to pen this down, but dear, it is the best thing in life. Embrace it because you are blessed.
My dad was never around. He was too busy doing drugs.
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