I'm slipping back into that hole
And my hopes are wearing thin.
I try to take a different path
Still, I hear it beckoning.
I'm traveling on a rocky road.
I trip and fall on jagged stones.
I keep wandering in circles.
I can't find my way alone.
I could call out to the wilderness
And flaunt my tears and pain.
But my voice in all that silence
Makes me feel far too ashamed.
I could return to that familiar place
And jump inside that hole
And let it swallow me again
Body, heart and soul.
Deep inside that darkness
I can finally find some peace
And immersed in all that blackness
Perhaps I'll get some sleep.
There's no one there to judge me.
I feel safer by myself.
No pretentious words of cold advice
Of how I need to get some help.
Inside that cool obscurity
All that pressure fades away.
I escape the captious carping
Hidden in the words they say.
They may think it's all self-pity
Feeling shunned and on my own.
But they know nothing of my journey
And those battles fought alone.
And now that I've grown older
My sense of loss is more extreme.
I'm running out of precious time
To see the dawn of all my dreams.
But one thing that I wish the most
That now I fear will never be
Is to look into my mirror
And truly love the me I see.
So, it's best I linger in that hole
Where no one else can see.
The remains of all those battles lost
And what is left of me.
Deep Depression
Now What's Left Of Me
Published by Family Friend Poems May 26, 2025 with permission of the Author.
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Started writing at an early age and kept journals over the years. After retiring in 2016, wrote primarily poetry every day. This site is the best of all and I am still so grateful to have found it. There are some immensely talented writers on here.
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