by Mary, Ohio
Thanks, Deborah, for sharing your poem. And thanks to everyone for sharing their stories. It helps, somehow, to feel less alone in my pain. I lost my only child, my son, when he was 29. It was almost 3 years ago, but I suspect it will never stop feeling like yesterday. And the truth is, as much as it hurts, I don't want it to stop feeling like yesterday. I don't want it to ever feel like years and years and years since I have seen my son.
It is so impossible to really explain it to others - the soul-crushing, overwhelming pain of this. I know everyone thinks I am doing very well, because on the surface, I am functioning fairly normally and well these days. But in truth, I am never, ever, OK, and always feel a split second away from screaming.
by Janelle, Hurstbridge
It has been 3 months since my son Ashley left us, to go to heaven, he was just 23 yrs old. We miss him so much and love him, think of him every day. My heart goes out to everyone who has lost a child, the most unbearable pain. Our lives go on, forever changed! The hardest thing to bear, to know we can never hug them or see them, be comforted in the fact there beautiful spirit is all around. His spirit free, forever loved and missed by those who knew him. In my heart forever <3
by Val, Carletonville
Love the poem! One of our twin sons aged 34, was shot dead in a hijacking in SA on 3rd February 2012. He had just arrived back from Cape Town after a very successful week. They took his car, abandoned it 3 Kilos down the road and fled. Being in South Africa very little is being done by the police to track down these murdering criminals. How do we get closure when this scum is out there???
by Marti, Havre De Grace Md
I lost my only son, Mikey on February 23, 2012. Mikey was 15 he left behind his dad, me and his sister. I miss him more and more everyday. So far we only know that it is suspicious death. His biological father and step mother found him in their home. I just do not know what to do with out him.
by Chris Friesen, Boise
I lost my only son on June 5,2011. Andy was 34 years old. He committed suicide by using a gun and blew his head off. He had texted me earlier in the day asking me to forgive him for any and all pain he ever caused me. I'm so lost without him. He was a veteran of the Iraq war and was in treatment with our local V.A. They had no clue he was about to do this. He leaves behind a 8 year old little girl. I feel as if I've lost my mind, I cry all the time, and I write him all the time. And I constantly ask God why him? But then I realize that is a question I can have the answer for. Your Poem says it all, Thank you so much.
by Tanya Jones, Oxon Hill
This is a beautiful poem. I lost the Joy of my life, my only child Marcel who was 22 years old on November 24, 2008 because someone wanted to try out their new gun. Reading this poem was as if I wrote it myself. My son's picture is the first face I see when I wake up and the last before I go to sleep. I also kiss his picture everyday. I do not know how it truly feels to lose a child, from the time I was told I went numb and have been that way ever since. I cannot cry and really miss him very much.
by Jasmine, USA
I want to say how sorry I am for your loss. I lost my only son almost 7 weeks ago he was 22. It was sudden and I still have no answers. This pain is just unbearable :( I am sad to see so many others are enduring this heart wrenching pain. My love and prayers go out to all of you.
by Pam Macvittie, North Tonawanda
I lost my only son Frankie on April 23,1988 he was 24 years old engaged to be married .He had a massive brain aneurysm. I had just talked to him that afternoon I had no idea those would be the last words I would ever hear. I miss him every day.
by Ron, Santa Rosa Ca
On April 4th 2012 I lost my son Bret at the young age of 23 from an accidental prescription drug overdose. Bret was a wonderful son and friend. He recently graduated from college and started a new job. I miss him every minute and am struggling day to day. Thankfully I have a wonderful daughter and wife to be here for. Your poem touched me! I am sorry for your loss.
by Linda, Dumbarton UK
I lost my beloved son Patrick Daniel 17 months ago and I just cannot get over it. Patrick had so much love in him, and was so popular his friends set up a R.I.P page on Facebook that I take great comfort in reading, but still I hurt so much I put on a brave face but deep down I do not want to be here I just want to see Patrick again. My father passed away after a very short illness 7 months ago and I take comfort that he is away to look after Patrick who was only 27 years old. I miss them both very much but feel guilty that I don't think of my father as much as I should. Patrick I cannot get him out my head he is so sadly missed and I love him so so much.
by Valmy, Denver Colorado
I just read this beautiful poem and immediately felt your pain. On 04/20/2012 it was 18 years ago that I lost my son who was only 2 1/2 years old and would have been 3 on 07/07/1994. He died from an accidental gunshot wound, and it was easily the most horrible day in my life. I too spoke to people who said time would heal, and I didn't believe time would ever heal me. Today I feel my son all around me and I am so thankful that I know he is with God. He has blessed me many times during all of these years and has let me know that he is with me always. I use to believe that death was so bad, but I learned after reading "Heaven is for Real: A Little Boy's Astounding Story of His Trip to Heaven and Back" that it is a most joyous and comforting place to be with God. Please read this book and I hope it leaves you crying with joy and imagining our loved ones peace and happiness, we will be with then one day. Thank you for sharing your poem and everyone for sharing your stories. Be Blessed
by Debbie, South Wales Uk
I lost my only son on the 12/02/2002 in a road traffic accident four days before his birthday he was 23 yrs old. The grief I'm feeling is unbearable it's like a physical pain that doesn't go away. I find it so hard to understand why he was taken so young. He had a beautiful son who was only 3 months old with his girlfriend who he will never see growing up. I know I have to keep going for the rest of my family especially my daughter and grandson but all I can think of is being with him. The thought of spending the rest of my life without him near me and never hearing the sound of his voice again is breaking my heart.
by Naina
I lost my only son Nikesh, 31 years of age with my daughter in law Parul, who was only 25 years old. They were travelling together in a car to Mombasa with their little baby girl Jeeya, who was only 13 months then. This all happened on 7th January 2011.
Both of them left me with Jeeya. Life hasn't been same ever since. I have to live for Jeeya, though from inside I want to go away to my son. The pain of missing them is getting worse day by day. I wait for them everyday, I talk to their pictures. Why did they leave me so early, I cant even ask god BUT I MISS THEM TOO MUCH IT IS VERY PAINFUL.
by Cynthia, Ca
Thank you so much for this poem, I lost my son 15 days ago and my heart is in pieces, but your poem did put a smile on my face and explained exactly how I feel about my son, wish I had your talent Thank you
by Susan, Texas
I pray for God's grace for all these tragedies and those yet to be posted. I have read each story with much burden for each family member. I have only one son, 31 and I am blessed that he is still with me. I read and write this because I have friends who have lost their son, one only few weeks ago. I read her grief and am at a loss to help her cope. I do not know the loss of a child and thank God daily for His mercy. I would very much like to share this poem with her on Facebook, but see it is copywritten. But I do believe she may benefit from the precious words you have penned from your heart. Please email me your permission. For now I will post your website. Thank you. May you all find comfort in God's grace. As much as you want your son with you, know that God gave His son for us and that through Him we may receive God's gift of His great resurrection and be reunited again. Only God can carry your burden of grief. Praying for each of you.
by Stefanie Walfield, Alabama
On April 11, 2001, I lost my first born, Dante Lansing, to meningitis. A truly horrid disease. He was two weeks shy of his third birthday. He loved vanilla bean ice cream, Scooby Doo and Toy Story I and II and me. I miss his sweet smile, wonderful laugh and hugs and kisses. There is not a day that goes by that he is not on my mind. What hurts the most , is the pain never goes away, never goes away. I know God doesn't put more on you than you can handle, but sometimes I wonder, how strong He truly believes me to be. It's been eleven years, and it seems like yesterday that he left. I'm still so sad, some times more than others, but I mask it very well with the help of grief counseling. But the truth is, I'm still really pissed off, I want to punch someone or something and scream until the pain goes away, but it never goes away, never goes away.
by Charlene Mason
On April 10, 1987, God gave us a son, a grandson, a brother a nephew, a friend and his name was Jonathan Mason-Davis. Not only was he a blessing to us, he was a blessing to everyone who knew him. He never gave our family a moment of trouble. Simply put, Jonathan was a good boy who grew up to be a loving, honest, trustworthy, goal-oriented young man. Yet, twenty years later, when he was a sophomore at Ohio University Chillicothe, God re-claimed his child on February 4, 2008 while doing what he loved. He was at basketball practice and had just gone down the court to make a lay up and when he turned to run back he collapsed to his knees. He was a victim of hypertrophic cardiomyopathy; some people call this an enlarged heart or athlete's heart. Jonathan suffered a sudden cardiac arrest while playing basketball. He was transported to a local hospital where he was pronounced dead on arrival. This poem reminds me of how much I love and miss him today!
by Jim Meinert
On April 4th , 7 years ago I lost my oldest son in a car accident. His younger brother was in the car also unhurt. I will never forget that day. My son Eric had a baby boy 3 years ago and named him after his big brother and now my grandson who will be 3 this month looks so much like his uncle that he won't ever meet. Although he's gone he won't be forgotten. I don't always understand everything but I try to believe that it was for some good reason that god called him home so early. Always loved and missed each day!
by Debbie, Alberta
My son Jonathan died as a result of an ATV accident on August 1st, 2010. My father had just passed away from a heart attack two days prior. My fiancé and I were to be married August 7, 2010, and our entire family was to celebrate my grandmother's 100th birthday the next day.
As it was, I buried my father August 4th, Jonathan's funeral was August 5th, we carried on with the wedding on Saturday, August 7th and still managed to host my grandma's 100th birthday on August 8th.
We do not know what life has in store for us, and I am trying to live my life to honor both my father and my son.
Today would have been my son's 27th birthday.
Thank you for your poem from the heart. I find great comfort in knowing that I am not alone in my grief.
I call these saddest of days my HEALING days, as I take the time to remember my precious son and all the joy he brought to me and our family.
God Bless You All
by Gill Chapman, Northern Ireland
The words in your Poem really touched my heart. My first child, a boy died at 5 months, we waited 7 years for Darren to come along, we cherished him so much after losing Paul, but only a few weeks ago in January 2012 Darren committed Suicide, our lives have changed forever, both our children gone now, I'm 61 years old, I'm too old to have another child, our hearts are broken, how on earth can we live without our children, How? Darren was only 36 years old.
by Riverhead New York
Let me start by saying I'm sorry to hear about all your losses. My son Albert was my oldest son he took his life in 2004. The day he was born was one of the best days of my life. The day I got that phone call it was like this can't be happening to me not my sweet Albert. I have to go on every day and live and not see him I still wait for this nightmare to be over I starting to realize that a lot of time has passed and I keep saying were was I. It's like you're in daze a lot of times I feel like I'm drowning and I can't get air or when I wake up everyday upset because my Albert's not here to kiss me on my forehead anymore and seeing him laugh when he said mommy I love you more then peanut and jelly and I always would give him this look I said YOU KNOW I DON'T LIKE P&J boy he would laugh and laugh and I cry everyday for Albert I'm trying to come back its just really sad that he is gone I will never forget my sweet ALBERT love & miss you mommy in my heart and soul and mind ooooooxxxxxx
by Tammy Heck, Middlesboro
I loved your poem. I lost my one and only son Jonathan Lane. It will be 5 years March 27th 2012. It wasn't even investigated they automatically said it was suicide, But I know better. My son was a happy kid, having trouble with a girl friend but still happy, He loved life to much to hurt himself. He was only sixteen. Someday the truth will come out.
by Debbie, Brisbane
My son went missing on 27th October, 2003. He was missing for 5 years and 8 months before his remains were found. Your poem has put into words the way I feel. It will be nine years this October since I saw my beautiful boy. I have many many photos but the one thing I crave most is new photos of him - something I can never have. I love to hear people talk about him, sadly most people think they are doing the right thing by not mentioning his name, in case it upsets me. Truth is all I want is to hear him spoken about, it makes me feel like he is still here. I miss him with all my heart. Tomorrow is his birthday, he would be 28 and I find myself wondering if he would have a wife, children and what it would be like to have my whole family, complete with my only son. I would love to tell you that the pain eases, sorry I can't, because it doesn't. I do believe however as long as he is spoken about he is with me in some small way. Miss you Luke and Happy Birthday my darling boy.
by Karen, Connecticut
My son, age 27, took his own life on April 25, 2011. He committed suicide. My life is forever changed. People call me a survivor of suicide...no I am collateral damage... I am not surviving his suicide...I am forever changed by it.
by Kat, Nevada
I enjoyed your poem, and read all these sad and inspiring stories, I lost my beloved brother Leon on December 23, 2011. He died of a heart condition none of us were aware of, suddenly and unexpectedly, I can understand your pain, I still don't understand and never will, I found him passed away in the morning, it was the hardest thing I had to see and deal with, I tried so hard to save him, but it was too late. I miss him so much it will be two months tomorrow and the pain is unbearable; the hole in my heart is void; and my soul aches, I know me and my family will never get over this and I know by seeing your testimonies, I know you all say that we'll be with them someday, but selfishly I WANT HIM HERE WITH US < ME NOW ! I love you bro, you were my best friend and still are, you have my heart forever more.. <3 love for ever your sis
Please be happy and safe, please wait for me and make sure I find you when we meet again one sweet day <3 I LOVE YOU MORE THEN I CAN SCREAM ; RIP my angel
by Kilmberly
I lost my beautiful son on 11/19/12 and this poem spoke to me. It was a tragic accident and my heart will forever be broken!! I will always love him and miss him. Thank you for sharing your heart touching poem.
by Mary, Michigan
My 17 year old son, Thomas, collapsed and died on January 29, 2011. His death was from an enlarged heart that was not diagnosed. He was in the 12th grade in high school and had been accepted to every college he applied to. He wanted to be a physical therapist so he could help others. Thomas was an honor roll student, starter on the football team and took 3rd place for the state power lifting tournament. He loved God, his family and his friends. He is enjoying the glory that only our Father can give to him now. Thank you for sharing your poem.
by Violeta
Sorry To hear about you loss. I lost my son Enrik on 8th of April 2011 in car accident, he was a passenger in car, he was 19 years old. I just feel so lost without him, I don't know how I'm still here. But I don't understand why people say that everything happens for a reason. I don't know any reason why my precious son died, he was such a lovely young boy and loved by everyone. We miss you so much Enrik xxxxxxxxxxx. Thanks for your poem, it was beautiful.
by Jo Mckenzie, Garfield Hts
I lost my only son July 11, 2010. It was the worst day of my life. your poem touched my heart in places I never knew I had. Today is his birthday, he would have been 23 years old. He passed away from an accidental overdose. Wrong place wrong time. My son did not do drugs. I wish we could have saved him. We weres 15 minutes too late. If we would have known the reason he quit breathing from finding him, we would have saved him, but we did not know he was injected. I miss my son so much. It's so hard being with out him. There's day where I rather sleep all day, there's days where I can't move, all I do is cry. I do not have the energy to work anymore. I can't accept the fact he's gone, and to be honest I never will. Thanks for your poem, it was beautiful.
by Paul Pollard, London.
I lost my only child Chris on the 19.11.11. in a road accident. He was ran over and killed by a car driver on an unlit winding country road. Chris only knows why he was there and what really happened that night. I so wish I knew, it would ease the pain I am sure. It is hard to comprehend that I will never see him ever again. I try to console myself with the thoughts that as a single parent I spent so much time with him in his first 25 years that that will somehow make up for the loss of being with him the rest of my life, but somehow it doesn't seem to work in my head that way. I just feel so lost with him not here, more of my life has been lived as a parent than not, what do I do????
by Marina Rocha, San Jose CA
I lost my oldest son Martin Jr. age 24 years on 2-22-11 he was in a single car accident. They said he didn't suffer he died on impact. As if that made me feel better. At first I was able to count my blessing because three of my sons were in the car and one decided to walk home from the mall and my youngest son survived the accident with only a few scratches. I have pictures of Junior every where home, car, work I miss him sooo much...This poem was right on how I feel..were coming on one year since he left us, I know he's with the Lord because he was a good son, always willing to lend a helping hand and could light up a room with his beautiful smile, but I feel worse lately knowing that his one year anniversary is next month. I cant stop thinking of the accident and the days that followed the accident and I cry and cry...
STILL VERY HEART BROKEN!!!
by Sharon, SC
My son was called to be with the Lord 1/8/2012. It has been 16 days of the most unbearable pain. My son is 24 years old and has two (2) sons. My oldest grandson will be 6 in May. My son and grandson lived with me. He had custody of his son since he was an infant. His bio mom never really bonded with him. She has since remarried and the day after my sons death they went to the child support office and asked if they had to continue to pay CS. They are interested in purely what benefits are available to them. I have not been able to cope with my sons passing and now have to deal with possibly losing my grandson too. Pray with me and Thank you for the poem.
by Debbie Turner, Azle Texas
I lost my son on Sept. 11th 1989, He was 15, it seemed like a normal day but raining. He had asked if he could take his sister to junior high and then him onto senior high. I told him No, brakes aren't fixed, windshield wipers need replacement and few other things and said that's why your working at the Dairy Queen after school to have the money to make your car drivable. So both of you get on the bus like you're suppose to.
After work I walked into my house and heard my son's stereo just blasting as loud as it could get. Well like every other mother I bust into his room to get onto him about the loud noise. And then I found him where he had stuck a 410 shoot gun in his mouth and blew his head off. I ran out screaming and about a few minutes later my boyfriend drove up and I told him what I found and then I just collapsed to the ground. My son will would of been 39 this year and I miss him more then words or poems can say. God bless every one of you who have lost a child.
by Maria Monsibais
I lost my son Hector Gastinell JR. to a car terrible car accident. He was only 22 it's going to be four years this Feb. 26. He was my youngest of four children. My pain is still fresh like it just happened yesterday. Every year we get together to honor his life and I put a picture, flowers and a poem on the pole where the accident happened. I put flowers on Christmas day and someone took them down. Not only do I have to deal with my grief I have to deal with the Mother of the boy who hit my son. She told me that my son was no good and did not deserve me putting flowers on the pole and then told me to take my business across the street where the cemetery was at. What is worse is that she keeps taking the items off the pole. I don't want to be negative and blame anyone. But how can someone be so cruel? My son was a wonderful father he had a son with Down's syndrome and God does not give gifts like that to bad people. By the way her son lived.
by Mark, Ny
I lost my only son Nicholas on March 1st 2004, he was 21. Nicholas was born with Cooley's Anemia which eventually took his life...I loved your poem so much. I am always trying to put into words how I feel and although inside I know how I feel...it never comes out right when I begin to write....what you wrote was so perfect...I hope you don't mind me using pieces of it in a tribute page to my son for a charity event...thank you for such a beautiful poem
by Ann Dinanauth
My only son, Bishnu Dinanauth was killed in a car accident on the Southern State Parkway on 07/10/2011. He was driving when another car that lost control hit his car and sent him to a tree where he died. The other guy got away scot free with no injuries, just a damaged car. He lives a normal life while my son is dead and gone. My family and me are suffering beyond. My son was all our hope he was honest, sincere, kind, hard working and really good to everyone. Every word of this poem is true. Mothers feel this terrible pain forever.
by Theresa McCoy
I lost my only son 1-31-2009. His name was Joshua. I found him 6 hrs. after he died, so they say. I was at work and came home and found him. He died suddenly of a heart attack, he was 24 years old. I can relate to you. It's been almost 3 years and the pain never, ever goes away.
by Patti, MS
I lost my only son Jason, 10-31-2006. He is my best friend, I journal. I always said if anything ever happened to my baby you'd have to put me in a nuthouse. Well I did go for a week. I am so blessed as my son left me with so many gifts, a poem Jay wrote in Aug. for my birthday
"Mom when you wake up in the morning,
know that the sun is shining just for you,
and when you hear the birds singing know they're singing a song just for you mom.
and when you go to bed at night know that you have plenty, plenty, plenty to be thankful for.
We waited 5 years to have my precious son, and I never missed a moment with him. At Disney when he said look mom, I'm getting hair under my arms! to the envelope reading "open this when you feel down" my baby was to turn 30 on Dec. 15th, a bicentennial baby. Jason dealt with bipolar and a dad issue, I buy big red balloons and send them off to heaven as I know Jesus gave Jay the dad/Father he wanted. they said homicide, I put it in God's hands as I do my mental being, just thanking God for strength and Jason my BIGGEST blessing on earth. I tell people when they say, I lost my brother, parent etc. DO NOT EVER MAKE THAT STATEMENT TO A PARENT WHO HAS LOST THEIR CHILD, GOD FORBID YOU SHOULD HAVE TO EVER HAVE YOUR LIFE CHANGED LIKE YOU CANNOT EVEN IMAGINE. to all of US, just pray! Close your eyes and remember the hearty laughter, the tight squeezes, all the I Love You Mom's and thank God for loaning us our loved one. SIGN. WILL NEVER STOP MISSING MY LOVING BEAUTIFUL TALENTED SON.
by Wanda Sharp, Junction Texas
I can relate to this poem so much in 2006 I lost a son by drowning and the sure surprise has been an never ending nightmare and then in 2009 I lost another son to a fatal car crash and then again just beyond belief so I truly in my heart can hear her poem in every breath I take. Thanks for such a beautiful poem, and god bless
by Tina Mayfield, Manteca
My Son Michael died on 11/17/2011 he was only 22 yrs old, the day my heart died as well.....the pain and emptiness that I feel there are no words to describe.. I know they say that time will heal my heart, but how can that be so, to lose a child, I think of him day and night. I know that I have to pull myself together and I have to continue on for my youngest son Adam 15. Thank you for this poem this describes how I feel .We always assume that Parents will always go before there children...but we know this is not always so, and for those of you that have lost a child my HEART aches for you.. God Bless
by Rita Agee
My mom lost her son on March 18th 2008, in a fatal car accident, he was 29 yrs.old. I read the poem which was moving to my soul.
by Brad Kennett Sr
I lost my Grandson on 10/2/11 He was only 13 years old, He was born 10/31/97. He was playing hide and seek and got inside a bean-bag. My daughter found him. when she called to tell me and her Mother she was crying so mush I couldn't understand until she said Ian had died, My legs gave out. My grandson spent his summers with me on the lakes and mountains of Maine where we fished, hiked or just went down the lake for evening rides in the boat, I think about all the FIRSTs he'll never do like his first kiss, first car, first love,, He played the violin and the French horn, I hurt So bad, I hurt for my daughter she'll hurt for the rest of her life. If your reading this you may have lost a child I'm sorry for you and all the pain, He was my grandson and it's been almost 2 months now, he's the first thought I have when I wake up in the morning and my last thought before I go to sleep I'm missing my Ian so much..Bless you
by Pam, Spring Grove
I lost my son Eric, 24, on 11/28/2010, 3 months before he was to marry his fiance. He was killed by a drunk driver, who thankfully was arrested and will be facing trial soon. This past year has been the worst imaginable and the only reason I go on is for my daughter Sam, 20. Your poem captured so many of the feelings I have. I am sorry for your loss and everyone's here. I do have to comment on the poster Maddie, that said "she has experienced loss and remember your son is in a better place now". PLEASE do not ever say that to a grieving parent ever again! The only place a parent wants their child is with them.
by Festus Mo
I lost my middle son at age of 23, on June 25, 2008 to suicide. That morning I received the phone call will always haunt me for the rest of my life. There isn't a day go by that I don't recall that terrible call. Andrew lived away from home and I had no idea that he would have ever done this. I was aware of him having a hard time dealing with his brother, (my oldest son) returning home from the military and suffers from PTSD. Its a big struggle. Andrew was not only my son, but we were best friends. I was in IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) for 18 months and have finally come to terms that this is what Andrew wanted, no one made him do it. I miss him so very bad. I am always looking for poems for loss of a son, and this is one of the best I have read. Parents are always suppose to go before there children. I wish I had the chance to say goodbye...........
by Sherry, SC
I lost my only child (son) on June 20, 2009, in a car accident, he was only 22. I remember whenever I would read in the paper or see on the news about parents losing their child, I just felt such horrible sadness about what they must be going thru and thought to myself there is no way I could deal with losing my child. Then my worst fear came true and honestly I don't know how I'm still here. The only thing I think about is being with him. I don't know what my purpose is anymore. I feel empty...I feel myself going back in time almost as if I think I can change time so that my son's accident can be avoided and then he could be here with me again. This is just so wrong that our children die before us...it's just wrong.
by Suresh C, UAE
Your poem is heart throbbing, I lost my one and only beloved son Sampath in an accident on 12th July 2010, after we celebrated his 8th birthday on 2nd July. We are facing the worst time in our life. Your poem says everything that I feel. We are all facing the crucial situation in life, pray to god almighty to give strength and peace to pull through the days.
by Sherie Morgan, MI
My only son died on July 12, 1989 in a single car accident on a dirt road. He had just turned 17, he would be 39 yrs old today. As I read this heart wrenching poem, I remember oh so well how I would have gladly traded my life for his. Yet after all these years when I see a picture of my son or someone brings up a story about him, I am still racked with this deep pain that goes to the very core of my soul, a place inside you that you never knew existed, this place so deep that only a parent who lost a child knows about. Yes, time does ease the pain as life goes on. But you will never ever be the same. How could you be, when a part of you is no longer with you, that defies the circle of life. I no longer think of him a thousand times a day, maybe only a few times now, which kind of makes me sad. I feel I'm loosing an old companion, the constant called "thought and pain". What has helped me through this is that knowing that everything happens for a reason. Everyone's story here is dealing with fresh pain that my heart so aches for all of you, .... and mine.
by Jana Casborn, Fairfield CA
I lost my youngest son Benjamin S. Colvin on 10/10/10 he was only nineteen years young my heart aches. Thank you for sharing your poem..broken hearted.
by Jim & Roberta
Our only son JIMMY, passed away August 18th, 2005...He was 13....he died the day before his 14th birthday. He was diagnosed with Leukemia, when he was 11, Make-A-Wish granted him a wish, and he wanted to go to Disney World in Florida, and we did. He never complained, he was a brave boy, he asked me one day "Mom, what did I do to get this?" my heart just broke...and I hardly could answer him, his sister had her first baby and she named him after her brother..we are blessed in so many ways, that God chose us to have and hold one of his precious angels, I have a decal on my back window of my car, it reads...."I once held an ANGEL in my arms and Jimmy is his name."
by Ernestine Ross, Lackawaxen
As I write this note, my heart is breaking. I lost my 44 year old son on 10/23/2010.
I was communicating with him on Skype early in the morning of his death and he died in front of me. Your poem is so beautiful and expressed my feelings in a manner I was unable to. I will treasure it for the rest of my life.
by Paradise California
My oldest son died suddenly on April 11, 2011, he was 24 years old 10 months and 4 days old. He was found in his room by my Mom (his grandmother) and after months of waiting we still don't know why, it's listed as unknown. Your poem was wonderful and explains just how I feel. I get up each day and every night that I go to bed I wonder how I made it through the day. I miss him terribly and cannot believe that this is now the reality of my life. So thank you for sharing this, it helps to read what others are experiencing to know that I am not alone and somebody out there understands.
by Diane Anderson
I lost my son Billy, the oldest of three boys to a car accident on July 10. 2011. It was about 13 hours later before he was found by his best friend.
I have had the worst time dealing with his lost and your poem says everything that I feel. I and very tired of people telling me that it will get easier with time, I don't see how that will happen. Thank you very much for your worlds of comfort.
by Sandra Botsford
We lost our only son, Jay, and youngest at the age of 26 on September 8, 2010. He was apparently jogging and was found off of the path with dirt on both of his knees. They said it appeared as if he had just laid back. After 7 months, the coroners were unable to find any reason for his passing. We understand your pain. It would have been his 27th birthday in two days. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Only one who has lost a child can truly understand the constant pain of the loss but we await our glorious reunion one day in heaven.
by Lesley Whitcomb, England Uk
My son died on the 28th May 2011. He was in work. He was sitting having a rest break. Stood up, collapsed and died. So quick, So sudden. He couldn't be revived. He was my eldest of 2 sons. 31. He will be 32 on 25th August. Your story mirrors mine so much. Your words, if you had been asked if you would take his place. So many times I have said the same. I wish they had taken me instead of him. Reading your poem has given me comfort. Knowing someone else shares a similar pain. The UNBEARABLE PAIN of loosing a 'CHILD'.
by Denise Jackowski, Muskegon MI
I just lost my 22 year old son Justin who was living in Colorado very unexpectedly on June 28, 2011. He was my baby. I just want to let you know that your poem touched my heart that aches so much. It is so hard for me to go on each day. I know my life will never be the same. I am filled with so much grief.
by Connie Bausman, Jackson TN
Lost my oldest son Dan, 46 on 5/31/11 in a industrial accident and we can't sue. My heart is broken and I don't want to go on. I can't get past 5/31 how do you go on with life. I miss him so much, still so angry can't cope. Still cry all time pain never goes away.
by Gena Vallejo, OH
WOW This really got to me I lost my 25 year old son on 12-31-10 with a bullet to his head in front of my face and I still can't manage to get the images out of my head. I hurt so very much to wake up every day and not have my first born here but your poem has given me more strength to keep going. I have pictures of my son all over my house and I look and smile at him cause that's the only thing that comforts me. And I keep praying to God to comfort my pain and also comfort all the mothers that lost their child...
by Marietta Ripley, New Jersey
My Johnnie died suddenly on Nov. 18 2010, your poem explains my hurt. He was only 35, had a wife and daughter and living the American dream, he was my only son and oldest of three. The pain will never stop.
by Diane, Connecticut
My son Ziggy died suddenly and unexpectedly on June 30,2011. He was 31 years old and just starting his life and career as a RN. He was the eldest of my three sons. I found him hours later after he had died. Your poem touched my heart and soul. Sums up the emotions of all grieving Moms. May we find some comfort knowing there are others who know our pain. Peace and love to you all.
by Karina, Massachusetts
My son Derek passed away 12/29/2009. He would be 3 years old on July 7th and there is never, ever a day that goes by that I don't miss him, think of him or look at his pictures. Your poem is perfect. I am sorry for everyone on this page.
by Jennifer, Scottsdale
I lost my Middle son Joshua in a fatal car accident July 20th 2007, one month after his 18th birthday... My heart hurts every day, he just had a birthday June 20th and turned 22 this year... Not sure if my heart will ever heal... I want him back, It's not fair he had to die so young. Thank you for sharing this poem... and I'm so sorry for your loss..
by Anna, Luling
I lost my son Derian 6/6/2010 to cancer. Not having any control of your child leaving "home" is the worst feeling, he passed away with me by his side. I'm still healing. I felt his last heart beat and it is the most painful moment I've ever had in my life. He had just turned 8 years old on 4/26/2010. I miss him and love him very much everyday!
by Manchester
my son was found dead 7/5/2011, age 28 years, we have got no answers to how he died, just that it's suspicious, we have got to wait for an inquest. My heart is breaking, and your poem is just how I feel, it's beautiful,
by Mrs.Swaraj Yadav
MANU AS A INDIAN ARMY DOCTOR
It was tragic end of my son's life. His death is still an unsolved mystery for me. Though it was ruled as suicide by the police of Goa. Mystery in the sense, because I did not find any reason of committing suicide by my son till today. Though I am trying every hook and corner to convince me, but I failed.
by Mary Carney
I lost one of my two sons on Jan 13,2011. I miss him so much; some days are so unbearable--thanks for putting in to words some of the things I feel--and now our children are a part of our future not our past and we will see them again
by Maddie, Australia
Wow! This poem is beautiful no doubt, but still.. So sad. I must say your poem touched my heart. It must have been so hard losing your son, I know what it is like to lose someone so close to you and it really is terrible. Death is horrible no doubt, but your son is in a better place now and I'm sure he is looking down on you and sending you little signs to show he is still around, if not in flesh and blood then in spirit.
by Carol Dillon, Wintersville
I lost my son on 9/17/2008. He was 27 and he also died suddenly and I found him hours after he had died. Your poem touched my heart as I also miss my son so much. He was my only child, too.
by Natasha Il
My 5 yr old son passed away on June 10 2010. He would have been 6 on July 7th. it was the worst day of my life.. finding him gone in his bed giving him CPR hearing the gurgling in his throat..not being able to bring him back was the worst. I miss him so bad. It hurts more and more everyday beautiful poem thank you
by Donna Lantz .Florida
I lost my wonderful son on June 19 2010 in a terrible car accident I didn't get to see or touch him didn't get to really say goodbye. I still see awful images in my mind all the time one day I hope those go away. I know he is with God now but I still want him Back how do you keep going??? My son was US Army Sergeant stationed in FT Bliss doing all the right things in life and to go so young makes no sense to me...I keep praying
by Kris Barry
I lost my one and only son 6 days and 1 year after your beloved son died. You put into words exactly how I feel and I love you for it!
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