Miscarriage Poem

Poem About Thinking Of What Could Have Been

This is about the loss of a pregnancy. I - like so many women - have gone through a miscarriage. Two for me now.

This is about the loss, how you carry on and pick yourself up, while all the time thinking of what you could have had and still hoping it will happen to you one day.

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I lost my first child on Sunday by a miscarriage! I cry and cry but I don't seem to be getting anywhere. At first I was scared to tell my boyfriend but then I suddenly realized it wasn't just...

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All I Can Think Of

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Published: October 2013

Why when you can't have something, is it all you can think of?
The mothers to-be with bumps,
Babies in prams,
Toddlers with their smiles and tantrums,
Young children you can at last reason with,
Proud parents beaming at each other - look; we made that!

And me?
No bump.  Not anymore. 
Maybe never.  Hopefully someday.
The hint of one.  Twice now but never fulfilled.
Hopes and dreams stopped in their tracks;
No pram or crib buying for us,
No touching of a bump or the inquisitive questions;
When are you due?  How do you feel?  Boy or girl?

Empty. Lost. Alone. Sad.
Sympathetic friends and family.
No words can be found.
I understand.  I wouldn't have known either.
How can you grieve something that never was?
No breath.  No sound.  No presence.
I grieve the possibility.
The what could have been and what wasn't.
A son?  A daughter?  Who knows? 
My child.

Those smiling parents don't mean to hurt.
What have they gone through to get there?
I hope not much.
A physical pain wouldn't hurt as much as this.
So I smile at them, say the right things,
Coo over their newborns and laugh at their toddlers' antics.
I buy the baby gifts for the mum-to-be friends,
Ask all the questions I long to be asked.
They smile in return; 
But sadly.

Nothing anyone can say.
I and so many others carry the weight around with us.
Will it happen again?
The hope followed by the deep disappointment?
Will I ever be a mother?
I'd be a good mother.
Will I make my partner a father?
He'd be a good father.
All I want.
All I can think of.

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  • Courtney by Courtney
  • 5 years ago

I lost my first child on Sunday by a miscarriage! I cry and cry but I don't seem to be getting anywhere. At first I was scared to tell my boyfriend but then I suddenly realized it wasn't just my child it was his as well and that he had a right to know! So when I told him I didn't think he seemed bothered but he was heartbroken! I'm only 17 yeah people didn't agree with it because I'm young and I should be out partying but all that doesn't bother me, all I wanted was to be a mum! I know my time will come but I loved that child before I even saw it or feel it kick! It was my world and it still is. But in honesty Sunday my whole world came crashing down on me!

  • Sammi by Sammi, Michigan
  • 7 years ago

I was just graduated from high school and I felt my body feeling weird while friends were partying and celebrating I was drinking water. The next day found out I was having a baby. So excited I told my boyfriend we moved down state and started planning. After 3 months I went for my second ultrasound alone. No heart beat, no movement my heart dropped and my head was spinning all my plans gone. I went in total depressed mode my fiancé left me because I was always upset. My would of been due date is Feb. 14th and I feel more alone then ever.

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