I never knew you existed
I was told you would never be
I found out the hard way
that you were inside of me
I was bleeding and wouldn't stop
the doctor said you were gone
I cry inside every day for you
were you a boy
or were you a girl
I will always love you
even though I never held you
Mommy and Daddy love you still
you will always be my Casper
On Friday, December 2, 2016...I made the most difficult decision of my life! My two and a half month baby girl, still inside me....was growing in my tubes! I had a tubal ligation seven years...
The Baby I Lost
Published: May 2009
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On Friday, December 2, 2016...I made the most difficult decision of my life! My two and a half month baby girl, still inside me....was growing in my tubes! I had a tubal ligation seven years ago, and never thought this could ever happen! I heard her heart beating...until the nurse injected me with a needle, and I had to listen to my daughter's heart beat become weak....and then...it stopped! I am still broken from that day because I am not a murderer! I never wanted to kill my baby, but I would have died! How do you forgive yourself for something like this? Because I cannot forgive myself!