Experiencing A Breakdown

This poem is about breaking down after you hold onto pain for way too long and then it finally just escapes you.

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Another Breakdown

Published: April 17, 2018

It's hard when you're always lying,
Always hiding the way you feel.
Losing your sight on truthful words,
Forgetting what is real.

It's hard when you forget to laugh
And you're scared that someone might see.
Hoping no one saw your face,
As you struggle to remember how to breathe.

It's hard to pretend you're happy,
And you're terrified someone might ask.
It's becoming harder every day;
It's becoming quite a task.

You feel when your body shakes,
As it searches for something to hold.
Though the temperature feels hot,
Your heart and mind feel cold.

Your throat feels like it's closing,
And your legs feel like they're weak.
You try your hardest to grasp a breath,
But there's not even enough to speak.

Your hands remain unsteady,
And your heart pounds like a drum,
And even though you can barely walk,
You fight the urge to run.

You scream as the world starts spinning,
And your knees drop straight to the ground.
You realize in that moment
You're just having another breakdown.

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by Paul J. O'Brien
3 months ago

Oh my, you made me cry. My son was like this the last year before he died. The coroner said it was suicide. His mom and I are shattered and broken knowing that he can never be woken. Please be strong and talk to people. Don't be another statistic. Help is there, so just reach out. We'll all support you; just give us a shout.

by Shaydee A. Ault Poet
1 month ago

I am so sorry for your loss. And I will keep you in my prayers. I hope you and your wife keep your heads up. Everything is gonna be ok. You're strong and there are brighter days coming.

by Pat A. Fleming, Trenton, NJ
3 months ago

This is a wonderful poem that really provides such a descriptive insight into what a person suffering from mental illness endures. I love the rhythm and rhyme of your poems and the simplicity with which you express yourself. I had to read the rest of your poetry because I liked this one so much and you have a truly amazing talent. I love the form of your poems, and each one tells a different story in that simplistic but truly powerful way that clearly expresses that particular feeling. I look forward to reading your other work.

by Shaydee A. Ault Poet
3 months ago

Thank you so much. That really means a lot to me. I try to write my poetry in a way that the readers feel as if they're really feeling what the person in the poem feels, as if you can put yourself into their shoes and see things as they see and feel it in the poem. My poetry is always written as if it's through another person's eyes, and I like to read them and feel what they feel. It's like I'm their reflection in a mirror and I really feel and understand what they're doing and how they see everything. Almost like looking through a looking glass into someone else's emotions.