My Unborn Love

• by Amilia Velasquez
• 6 months ago

I don't regret my abortion. I was 18, 6 weeks when I found out. 8 weeks when I lost the baby.
I knew I couldn't have it and I did regret it before and after, but if I told myself to have the baby, I knew I would 't be able to let go because of my past. But I also knew I couldn't have the baby because of who I became. The loss felt more like a miscarriage. My body wasn't handling it well, I already had health problems I never got help for.
I know my baby will return to me, but I still feel the guilt from not being able to have my baby. I'm glad i could've done it safely, and the birds comforted me the morning after. I hope to get better to have my baby back.

• by Mary
• 2 years ago

I was 16 years when I found out I was pregnant but sadly my boyfriend couldn't stand it. He forced me to get an abortion. He made it clear to me that if I continued with the pregnancy he wasn't going to be there for my baby. At that time I scared of my dad and I had an abortion. Every day I just wish it wasn't true. I regret having an abortion, but I know I didn't have any other option. I just wish I could end the pain I'm feeling of losing my baby.

• by Asanda Kunene
• 3 years ago

I wanted to keep my baby. I really did. I'll always feel like I chose my family and my studies over my one true love. If only I could turn back the hands of time.

• by Johnny Deborah Nsekpong
• 4 years ago

I’m in the same situation. I’m 19 years old, and I was 2 months gone, and my boyfriend was aware of it. He begged me to keep the child. I wish I could. I was scared of my family. I can’t forgive myself for killing the innocent child, and I miss my baby so much. I’m regretting a lot of things right now. I get scared every minute, and my boyfriend is hurt because he really needed the child. Do you think my baby will forgive a wicked mother like me? Do I deserve to go unpunished? I probably get a therapist because I really need to be guided.

• by Sthokey
• 6 years ago

I was 22 when I found out I was pregnant, I couldn't do a thing and was facing my second year final exams. During the pregnancy I felt sick always. I couldn't eat and I was always crying all the time. The baby's father and I decided that I should have an abortion. Losing my baby still beats me up to this day. Not a day goes by that I don't think about my baby. What hurts most is that I can't tell anyone about how I wonder if I will have babies in the near future or if I will be punished and have none because of what I did. I pray my baby forgives me and to God not to punish me because of my act. I do regret having an abortion.

• by GL
• 7 years ago

On February 2015. I had an abortion after a of month breaking up with my ex. I felt alone and broken. I had no choice and ended up getting an abortion. I do regret having an abortion. I cry every night to sleep. It's like you're missing your other half. Every time I feel upset I text my ex and he doesn't make me feel any better. I'm stuck in the past when he already moved on with his life.

I know I am getting better but I have my days. I still feel broken inside and no one understand my pain.

I got a tattoo on my wrists to remind me I am strong . If I would of kept my baby he would of turn 1 year old on July .

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• by Mariah, AZ
• 7 years ago

I don't agree. You can always keep your child or at least find adoptive parents. I'm 18 almost 19. I got pregnant right after I graduated high school from my boyfriend of 2 years. When I told him, he tried to bully me into abortion. He even offered to pay if needed. I said no. I stood my ground and knew God gave me the ability to produce this beautiful life I was carrying... No matter how hard it will be I am determined to have my son and provide for him. His father is now supportive. Life is so amazing and precious. No one can force you to extinguish something so miraculous. It's ultimately up to you... Many women can't have babies- you could give them the most wonderful gift they could never achieve themselves. I will never agree or sympathize with abortion. You always have a choice. Please let God's plan run it's course- that baby is there for a reason. That's a human fetus that moves and feels pain. It has a heartbeat. Please if you're reading this, have a heart.

• by Erica, California
• 8 years ago

I feel horrible saying this but reading this poem made me feel a little better. It was one of the first times I realized I wasn't alone. My abortion was almost 3 years ago. My boyfriend left me the day I told him and said I could contact him only if I got an abortion. My sister found out I was pregnant and forced me to tell my parents before I was ready. When I did, my dad decided that what I did was no longer my decision. Since I was 17 that was true. He didn't care that I wanted to keep the baby or that I already had picked out a name for whether it was a girl or boy. He pressured me into abortion. I wish every day that I had stood up to him. I would do anything to have my baby in my life. I regret this and cry over my baby every day. I wish I could say it's gotten easier over time but I'm not sure that will ever happen. It still haunts me every day. I'm just learning to cope with the pain.

• by California
• 9 years ago

I was 20 turning 21, I had it done a couple weeks ago. I regret what I did. I cry every night because I knew I should have kept him. The job I have is okay and I had family support. My bf thought it would be best for both of us to go through with the abortion so I did. I was 9 weeks and I saw my baby, my family was soo happy and my father even ran into my room yelling that it was a life I had inside of me. I still don't understand exactly why I did it. I try and stay strong but its unbearable me and my bf aren't together anymore. He said I was too much. What do you expect with a girl who has just lost her baby. He never understood the bond I had with him and I will forever miss my baby and pray god is holding onto him in his arms. I've never had the chance to cry on anyone. I'm getting by this on my own and I'm showing my baby who's up above watching me that I'll be the best person I can be. I know what you're going through and hope you're doing okay surviving.

• by Baby Joshua Laurel
• 9 years ago

A year ago today I was forced into abortion, my dad recently died, my mom in a coma. My grandma and boyfriends dad and the rest of my family forced me into it. I've never been the same.
I never will be.

• by Amanda Saint John New Brunswick
• 10 years ago

I am 25 with 2 and 3 year old toddlers. I was in the same position, barely able to provide for the 2 I had. I let others influence my decision. I regret it, and always have. I still cry about it and it happened almost a year ago. If you think its the right thing to do then you should do it. But don't let anyone else force you, if you want your baby, keep it, it always works out.

• by Tammy
• 10 years ago

Your poem is so lovely and made me cry. I was 21, a woman, yet I still let my boyfriend bully me into an abortion. He said he couldn't do it and would leave me. I chose him instead of my baby and now I am suffering each and every day. I will never feel half as much pain as my baby went through that day of the abortion. It's hard and it does not get any easy. I will regret letting her go till I die. I miss her so much and writing my feelings down helps in the short run for me. In the long run, I don't know if there is one. Good luck to you all and hope you live a long and happy life.

• by Seychelles
• 11 years ago

So sorry for you guys. but if you have wanted it you should have kept it, yes there are some circumstances in life that lead you to no good decision, but it's your blood your creator you feel it inside you alive, even in the first few weeks. But I think sometimes parents also contribute towards abortion cause they think that you are not ready, too young to maintain a child ect..but sometimes they don't realized it cursed you for the rest of your life. I was pregnant 16...I was depressed at first but I got full support from my family and now my daughter is 21 years so beautiful and I am proud.

• by Rose, New Jersey
• 11 years ago

I know exactly how you feel. I had to have an abortion too, first because I'm 18, a senior in high school, and I live on my own with a roommate. My part time job isn't enough for even me. My parents are really strict and there was no way for me to tell them I was pregnant. I was practically alone. My baby's daddy also didn't want to have it. He told me it was best to have the abortion because we had nothing to provide this child with. He promised he would be there for me no matter what, and that WE would get through this. So I did it. I regret ever doing it, first because I'm here now suffering with all this pain alone. After my abortion, my baby's daddy talked to me for a week acting like he care, and after that week, he never spoke to me again. He never cared. There is not one day, hour, minute, or second that I don't think about my baby. I wish I could've had it. I was the happiest person during my pregnancy. But once I took that life away, I've never been the same.

• by Amanda Nicole
• 12 years ago

I am sorry Hun. I know exactly how you feel. When I was fourteen I got pregnant and I knew I couldn't take care of it and if I did have it there was a chance of me dying so I had to have an abortion too. I am so sorry.