To My Beautiful Angel

Hello baby, my precious love of mine.
I apologize for the thing we'll never have together: TIME.
Twenty-one when I found out about you.
Your father and I didn't know what to do.
We thought things way too quickly
And chose the easy way out.
Within a few days you were on a new route,
To heaven that is.

I'm sorry I chose my education over you.
Three years left,
And I didn't think I could handle you too.
But now I wish I would have given it all up for you.

I will never get to hold you in my arms or watch you grow.
My heart is broken, full of regret and sorrow.
I know now what it's like to be fully broken.
I know my heart will never fully repair,
Because all I can wish
Is to be able to run my fingers through your hair.

I talk to you every morning and every night,
Telling you how much I love you
And wish to hold you tight.
It is not enough,
But there's nothing else I can do.
I am sorry, my love, for what I put you through!

I do not ask for your forgiveness,
Because it's something I do not deserve.
I did something so intolerable and un-superb.
All I want you to know is that every day
I wish I could return and not have you diminished
And not have the doctor tell me that the job is finished.

I love you so much, and I'm sure your daddy does too.
You would have been so beautiful and perfect,
No bad genes or any type of defect.
I wish to dream of your full face complexion.
If I could choose anything now,
You'd win that election.

I wished so hard
That the procedure had miraculously failed.
That would have been only in a perfect tale.
I daydream of how it would be in my other life,
You know, having you and holding you tight,
Staring into your beautiful eyes,
And hearing your cry as the sun's about to rise.

But now I must accept what I have done
And face the fact that you are forever gone.
Although you are not on this earth,
You truly have so much worth,
So in my heart you'll remain eternally.
Always and forever, I love you so much, baby.