Hurting Poem by Teens

I wrote this poem because I feel like no one knows my pain. I write poetry to get away from my life in general and to express emotions to myself.. cause I can't share them any where else.

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I'm happy to know that Rebecca helped you stop. I don't cut myself, but my best friend has before and still does when times are the worst. Since I met her she has opened my eyes to the...

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Crimson Blood And Poison Tears

© more by Jessica

Published: November 2008

Rain, rain, go away,
Because of you the pain will stay.
Slit my throat, cut out my heart,
Leave me here, tear it apart.

Poison tears stream down my face,
My heart beats at a steady pace
As I try to stand again;
Alone and standing in the rain.

I don't need you anymore...
Is what I think while tears pour.
I hate you like I hate my life;
But love is what cuts like a knife.

Love is death and death is you;
Its pain stains like a black tattoo.
Those memories come back again
And bind me in the ropes of pain.

Crimson blood streams down my head
Like a long, silk ribbon, tied by a thread,
To a platinum bullet, a hole in my skull...

...Now just a memory that's faded and dull.



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  • Keara Casteel by Keara Casteel
  • 2 years ago

I am addicted to cutting, and I don't know if I can stop. My grandparents sent me to Highland to get help, but it did not help. I tell people it helped, but I lie.

  • D'yanira Hicks by D'yanira Hicks
  • 2 years ago

I have been a cutter for most of my life, and reading this poem brings out everything about me. I hate it and I want to change, but I don't know how.

  • Nolan Cox by Nolan Cox
  • 3 years ago

I've been around cutters my whole life. People I go to school with, family members. Even random people on the internet. It hurts me so much to know there are so many people hurting, and I can't do a darn thing about it. I want to help people with depression or people who cut, but I cant. It hurts so bad to see people that way.

  • Nolan Cox by Nolan Cox
  • 3 years ago

I used to cut as well. Until I met a very good friend named Rebecca. She helped me to stop cutting and hurting myself.

  • Alex Taylor by Alex Taylor, Huntsville, AL
  • 3 years ago

I'm happy to know that Rebecca helped you stop. I don't cut myself, but my best friend has before and still does when times are the worst. Since I met her she has opened my eyes to the horrible things of this treacherous earth, but I have also talked her down many times on the phone and in person when she felt the urge. I don't understand why, but I just wanted to help her so bad. She never let anyone close to her until she met me. I just wanted to let you know that people out there do exist that try to help take away the pain. I'm very happy for you to be able to stop because I have seen how hard it is to stop. I hope you live a wonderful life.

  • Alex Murdock by Alex Murdock
  • 4 years ago

I am fifteen and I know that pain is real. I know what it's like to be considered Emo or an outcast. Many people do not know that I think about suicide, and that I cut, but the ones who do know either don't care, or ignore it. Sometimes I feel like my pain is getting worse, but now I have my boyfriend. He makes me so happy, and he makes it so I want to survive, just to be happy with him, and not hurt him. Nobody knows that I think about this stuff, and I want everyone out there to be careful, and ask for help if they ever feel like that, because it isn't worth it.

  • Beck Grace by Beck Grace, Indiana
  • 4 years ago

I can't understand how people stop cutting once they've started because for me it is an addiction. I can barely help myself when I want to cut I just cut. It takes the pain away and makes me feel real.

  • Monica De Paz by Monica De Paz
  • 4 years ago

I am 11 years old I know that emo can be bad, but I think it's good because if you cut yourself and "die" you can harm those who harmed us.

  • Riley Stringer by Riley Stringer
  • 2 years ago

Monica, please listen to me. I know that you are now 13 years old. I am too. When I was 11, I felt the exact same, but just know that "dying" doesn't just hurt the one who hurt you; it hurts the ones who love you. He who has the darkest clothes has the most colorful mind.

  • Annalyce Gibson by Annalyce Gibson, North Carolina
  • 5 years ago

I love the pain of cutting, but I hate the pain of seeing people have pain. I really like how this poem helped me see that everyone has pain. I really like the fact that you can share your pain in poems. Writing helps me, so I write stories. I haven't tried writing poems, when I write next time I will try to write poems and see if that helps. Thank you for showing me that everyone has pain, some are greater than others, but it is still pain. I'm thankful for all the hope that you have given me that people that have pain can join together and help each other.

  • Damien by Damien
  • 5 years ago

The feeling that you put into it is astronomical. I deal with people taking advantage of me, in hopes that since these people are in high school, they have matured. I've had girls say they like me and want to hook up with me. I go to talk to them, and I get attacked by their boyfriends. I've given up on love, but I'm not giving up on people like you, who, while you don't know us, treat us as your closest friends.

  • Max by Max
  • 6 years ago

I love the pain of cutting, I hate the pain of love.
I cut every day and the answer is so simple to make me stop. It is for me to have a girlfriend. I love girls so much and the pain of not having is too unbearable therefore I cut. I'm not mean or too confident I am also quite popular it's just too painful. I'm 16 and I've never kissed a girl that's why I hate my life. Btw the poem was awesome I love it.

  • Yana Bona by Yana Bona
  • 6 years ago

I cut and think about killing myself every day but these poems some how help me figure out my problems. THANK YOU...... :)

  • Ashe by Ashe, Rogers
  • 6 years ago

I started cutting in 6th grade and I'm in tenth grade now. My friends are the only ones that get me. I will have to live with the scars the rest of my life but I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all. My whole body is covered like a messed up tattoo, it describes who I am what I've done and what's coming.

  • Sunshine by Sunshine
  • 7 years ago

You know what guys, everyone faces problems in there life. No one has got a perfect life. It doesn't mean you start cutting.
God, how can a person do that to himself.
That's unfair.
I hope you guys find happiness somewhere, anywhere..
Sand no I am not a cutter or a depressed person. I love my family, my life, my friends more then anything..

  • Alaysa May Marie by Alaysa May Marie
  • 7 years ago

This is a really good poem.. I am a current cutter and I have been since I was 5 and I stopped because people care.. I want you to know I really care about everyone including you

  • Nirali Zalavadia by Nirali Zalavadia
  • 7 years ago

I know what it's like I'm going through that right now. I tried telling my friends but they ignored me. I told my sister, she laughed, I told a very special person about this whom I believed would help me, but instead I was left alone. I cry myself to sleep every night. Sometimes, the flood in my heart gets so unbearable that the pain comes out in the form of tears at school, though no one still cares. So I put a mask on my face and go to school. The worst thing is that every time, I try to rise I fall from a much higher height. So now I never let my feelings out till now cause there are many who like me who can understand me, but still I'll wear my mask as soon as I'm done writing this.

  • Bria Davidson by Bria Davidson
  • 7 years ago

I started cutting in 7th grade. I'm in 9th now and still cutting. Lots of people wonder why I cut. It's hard to explain. Have you ever felt like no one cared, no one was there for you, no one loved you?? I feel this way all the time. Alone, scared, hurt, misunderstood, mistreated, invisible. I use to be one of the happiest little girls ever. Always smiling, helping people. A little angel. That all changed. At the age of 6 I was raped by my 13 year old best friend. I was so young, I didn't understand what it was. I was 7 when I was molested by a 14 year old middle school girl. Can you imagine a middle school-er tricking a 7 year old to lick her vagina? This images still flood my head, and I hate it. So much. My own mother gave me up for adoption, and lied to me about who my real father is. I've never met my dad, he's in prison. My grandfather, the one person who made me feel loved, cared about me, was there for me died. And I didn't get to say goodbye. The last words I heard him say were "I love you, but I'm dying." I don't even know if they were to me or my step-grandma. I cry over this all the time. I have nobody else to turn to. No one. My step-grandma acts like its my fault he died. Everyone is, even my own mother and little brother!!! I've been bullied for the past 9 years, going on 10. I can't handle it anymore. This is half of the reason why I cut. But it explains a lot. Anyways I'm probably never going to quit cutting. I know it's bad but, I can't stop... I'm addicted. I love pain

  • Joelleen by Joelleen, MA
  • 7 years ago

Hey I'm sorry you go through this. At 11 I started cuz it seemed like 6th grade was like hell. Yes yes I know people have it worse but that's what makes me hate myself. I cut and cry and complain but people have it worse. Now I'm in 7th grade and hey it didn't get better. I decided I was fat so I started starving and kids at school ask me why I have scars or why I didn't eat so I puked and puked until I found sharper knifes and I have about 10 cuts on my arm and 9 on each of my hips cuz of a boy I really like and love is a pain. I love your poem and be strong. I know stopping is hard... I can't seem to, so just be strong I know you feel stuck and sad.

  • Jacob by Jacob
  • 7 years ago

I'm thirteen. I've had a cutting problem since I was ten. Everyday, it's been a living Hell. My parents act like they don't want me. My peers hate me. I only have one friend. She's my only salvation. She is the only one in which I do care dearly for. Every night, I sneak out of my room, and take my dad's razors. I feel like I want to die. Why do I exist? I learned never to give in. It's hard, I put myself back into a tower. Just to get torn down. Your poem has touched me.

  • Sally Smith by Sally Smith
  • 2 years ago

You're 17 now. Do you still feel like this? What has changed in your life?

  • Desiree by Desiree
  • 7 years ago

I'm part EMO and all my friends hate me and when we get in fights they say bye shoe slitty and it makes me mad and I need to make friend in Duluth I just moved here and no one likes me once I tell them I'm EMO

  • Lena by Lena
  • 7 years ago

This is a beautiful poem. I'd like to ask of your permission to use it in a video I'm making with a couple of my friends. It's sort of a movie, really. It's going to have all my dark aspects and much more. So will you please consider?

  • Sammi by Sammi, Pennsylvannia
  • 8 years ago

I was sent to a mental hospital for cutting, depression, and suicidal actions. I feel like I have no point in life, and I do have no point in life. I'm only 12 and I want to die! I get called an emofag and I just take it all in. It hurts I have only my girlfriend to talk to and she lives in new York

This Poem is amazing and has a meaning that is deep

  • Grant by Grant
  • 8 years ago

Pain cuts a Hole deep in your chest I now the feeling all to well. This pain was born from pain like mine, but keep writing and never falter, use the gift of your pen to escape, always look ahead and don't turn back. All you can do is run ahead. Run. Run until you left that pain far behind

  • Amber by Amber
  • 8 years ago

I write poetry to share my feelings as well... It's so dear to me. I've never posted here, but reading this poem makes me reconsider. I love this poem. It's absolutely amazing. It brought tears to my eyes, because I understand completely... I feel this every day.

  • Jeremy Jupina by Jeremy Jupina
  • 8 years ago

I love this poem. I'm a song a song writer and I want to know if I can borrow your ideas to make it into a song?

  • Lisa Munilal by Lisa Munilal
  • 8 years ago

As I read this poem, it touch me like a hand. I also enjoy writing dark poems because sometimes I feel hurt and pain. Life is so cruel sometimes. Anyway thank you for sharing and I connect with your poem. I wish one day that our pain will vanish!! God bless you./:

  • Chantelle by Chantelle
  • 8 years ago

I just get so confused how people say this has helped me and thank you when the end is sad? Don't get me wrong I LOVE the poem and it expresses a lot of my feelings but how can people say... this helped me a lot?!! I'm not being mean, I'm just confused |: But I LOVE YOUR POEM :)

  • Jessica by Jessica
  • 8 years ago

I feel the same way. Surrounded by people but, you can't really talk to them about the real you. For I too am a writer, although I'm only 13, but have no one to share my poems with.

  • Kali by Kali, Oceanside California
  • 8 years ago

My mom a cutter and dad a drunkie got divorced when I was two. Then one night when I was three and at my aunt's my mom cut herself to death and my dad told me. I cried myself to sleep every night until I was eight years old then I turned to cutting and once I started I couldn't stop. I was ten and I had been cutting for two years now when my dad got arrested for hitting someone while he was Drinking And Driving (that's what D.A.D stands for). So I had to live with aunt for at least 1 1/2 to about 2 years. Every night I was there I would go into the kitchen grab a knife and cut myself every scar stood for a different struggle. Somehow all the scars delivered me from my pain and my sorrows. There was only one person who understood me and is my best friend the one that makes me feel like I mattered to the world whose name was Julian. My name is Kali and I'm fifteen now and I've been cutting for eight years now. I've tried to stop it but nothing around me seems to change. One day at school there was a note from Julian that said "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain" it helped me a lot and I want to thank you Julian. ^.^ -.- ~.~ :) :( :P

  • Hannah by Hannah
  • 8 years ago

Oh please don't cut anymore! I was there, I was a cutter, and not a day goes by that I don't regret what I did!! It hurts, I get that! God can and will help you. He helped me. Don't give in to the lie that people impose on you! God loves you, even when no one else does!

  • Rachel by Rachel, Colorado
  • 8 years ago

This kind of describes me right now :/ I struggle with what I think is depression and I feel a lot better knowing I'm not the only one who cuts themselves.. I don't dress emo, but I am. I feel like I hide behind a mask.. I'm tired of pretending, I want the world to know...

  • Audrey by Audrey, Illinios
  • 8 years ago

Most of my friends call themselves 'emo's' because they like the look and I'm the only one that cuts and they make fun of me for it but they talk crap about the people that make fun of our whole group. I'm just glad that there is somebody that I can relate to

  • Andrew Neilsen by Andrew Neilsen
  • 9 years ago

I read this poem and tears rolled down my face. I haven't ever seen poetry so deep but so well put together at the same time. If you could see me right now, I'm clapping for you.

  • Alyssa Dawn by Alyssa Dawn, Philippines
  • 9 years ago

I'm so sick of hiding myself under a facade, trying to be cool, pretending I'm happy, having friends who can't understand me. Writing poems are one of the way I express my feelings.

why cant I be just myself??.
I'm so sick of everyone around :(

  • Esme by Esme, Sandiego Ca
  • 9 years ago

At school there's no one like me . I act different & pretend to be someone I'm not . I'm really tired of it . I'm emo and I don't wanna be a fake .

  • Sakiram by Sakiram, Opelika
  • 9 years ago

Love hurts like a poison dagger. Just bear through it, and maybe something good will come out of it.

  • Damali by Damali, Pennsylvania
  • 9 years ago

I think this poem was great. I am an emo, and I have never heard or read such lovely poems. This poem expresses deep down about your love and how you feel about it. I feel the same way!

  • Kaitlin by Kaitlin
  • 9 years ago

I went through a very hard time with cutting and I can definitely relate to poems like this and I write poems like this. In a way it is good to see how other people feel the same way I do, but I feel bad for people like this because I know it is not a good feeling

  • Jadaduncan by Jadaduncan, Newark New Jersey
  • 9 years ago

I feel that this poem is about me because this is the way I feel everyday of my life. I've been through a lot and I'm happy when people write poems that have meanings to me.

  • Kimi by Kimi, Sacramento CA
  • 9 years ago

this is a touching poem....I'm going through a stage like this right now and trying to, you know, stop. it makes me realize that I'm not at all alone and that if these people, like you, go through it too that maybe there is still hope for me to get out of this vicious cycle. thx.

  • Samantha by Samantha, Lewiston MN
  • 9 years ago

sometimes poetry is so strong and I normally don't ever cry like not kidding but I cried for this one. some people have a gift like this.

  • Nguyen by Nguyen, Hcmc
  • 9 years ago

With love, everyone can be a poet. It represents a life of balance.
With sadness, everyone can be a poet, but it reflects a life of hardness.

Have confidence in your life, make it your oyster. No one can say that invisibility is prominent. Yet, no one ever know your future unless you grasp it, you might be rewarded because you have experienced the hardness of life, for life outside the hands of luxury are much harsh. Hereby, you know it and just cooperation with it will lift your future up.

  • Nguyen by Nguyen, Hcmc
  • 9 years ago

One reason perhaps why you would see the world denying your ideas, could perhaps be yourself?

It is a matter of philosophy and time only my friend. Although it is narrow still in the way it conjures ideas in my thoughts. Your poetry is truly fascinating of course, but have you ever wonder why they misunderstood you?

Question yourself of your past, but do not always look at the past. If it is your parents who misunderstand, take your time, since obviously, no one could have shown much thank you to their parents. I would dare say so, for what they do is more than what a teenager, or even an adult can ever conceive of. For teenagers especially, their acknowledgement of their parents are limited. If it is a friend or some other, it is time that is the matter.

Look more broadly, with sincerity, what is your true interest in life? I would think try to pursue your selected interest and curiosity for awhile, and think broadly of the world. Perhaps then you would understand more of it.

  • Fimus by Fimus, Nusquam
  • 9 years ago

I thought I was alone. I thought it was me versus the world. I hate myself for the cliché, but knowing someone out there feels the same way, somehow, it helps.

  • Meg by Meg
  • 9 years ago

Thank you.
Thank you so much.
This poem really makes you think about what people are actually going through and how they have no one to help them.
Be on the lookout for a friend that makes you feel safe and who you know you can trust. Until then use poetry and other writing to express how your feelings. Tell the paper everything.
Make it your friend :)

  • Catherine Jones by Catherine Jones
  • 10 years ago

hey girl you got some talent have done a really GREAT job with this poem there are some stanzas that have a great power to it. keep writing it helps a lot... I go through he same thing you go through but just keep your head up and everything will get better. Also remember we may have it hard but there are others out there who has it the hardest. it take courage and strength to write this poem keep up the great work

  • Tivo by Tivo
  • 10 years ago

Ahhh..this poem is great..I feel like you and me are alike. I'm a cutter too. I've been to therapy countless times..your poem helped me.

  • Kate by Kate
  • 10 years ago

Wow. I feel your pain now Jessica. I'm really sorry about how everyone turns away from you when you try to talk to them. I'm here for you. Please, please, PLEASE don't do anything stupid with your life because you can make it a better one. And no I am not a "parent/teacher/advisor" that's trying to make you feel better. I'm a teen in the same situation as you and I know what you have been through ok? I've gotten out of the dark life and I feel great now! Good job for writing poems to express your thoughts and feelings. Don't worry, everything is gonna be OK! (wow that's a damn good poem!!!)

  • Richard by Richard
  • 10 years ago

This poem is really good...and remember you're never alone when it comes to pain cause everyone has their own.

  • Chris Todd by Chris Todd, Wrightsville
  • 10 years ago

Damn your poem has really touched me... its funny how people who are going through tough times like this all seem to have the same way of expressing themselves but using different words... I feel your pain cuz I'm dealing with the same problem... I don't like people knowing my business but when I want some to talk to, everyone turns their back...

  • Mary by Mary, North Carolina
  • 10 years ago

damn! that poem was totally sick! I loved it! I'm gonna have to write my own poems! totally awesome!

  • Osama by Osama
  • 10 years ago

Really just love it
I think you should go professional with this

and if you don't have anyone who you could
listen make your pen your friend
and talk your heart out )

  • Mickx by Mickx
  • 10 years ago

Your poem really is amazing...I'm in a situation that relates to this in so many ways. Great work... keep the writing up, you've definitely got soul for it.

  • M by M
  • 10 years ago

I love this poem, it is really touching. it almost made me cry, because I am a cutter. Well I'm trying to stop all the bleeding I've caused. no one really understands what I've been through, and I feel as though I can relate to this poem in a great deal.
thank you so much!

  • nikk by nikk
  • 10 years ago

the poem is great but its sad that you feel that way about your life. I pity the fact that you have no one around you to listen to your pain.

  • Randie by Randie
  • 10 years ago

wow.....this is really touching. the words are really deep and I love it. great job.

  • Haley by Haley
  • 11 years ago

That is an amazing piece of poetry! Keep up the good work. And remember no suicide!!

  • ashana by ashana
  • 11 years ago

dude that's good I love it... I'm going to go write my own poems again but yours is good!

  • Elicia by Elicia
  • 11 years ago

This poem is really good I spotted it because I write poems like this but not because I feel like that but because these kind of poems could help people get out there feelings! Well good work

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