I felt so alone inside my head,
A constant wish that I was dead.
Empty and broken, I was alone,
The reasons behind this? Unknown.
Then I let you on my life, deep into my heart,
I believed that nothing would ever keep us apart.
My whole world had fallen into place,
When my darkest feelings you began to erase.
This perfect dream began to crack and shatter,
Now I am left with nothing except the tatters.
It turns out you were only breaking me more,
Now I am deceased, deep to the core.
My eyes are now empty- not an ounce of light,
I am once again lost in endless night.
When I close my eyes and begin to sleep,
Dark dreams and nightmares begin to creep.
I awake with screaming in my ears,
This is followed by my streaming tears.
In this raw moment, I ache for you,
This only rips my pain anew.
This crippling pain leads me to the knife,
My friend that will surely end my life.
When your father is controlled by substances out of your world, you scream and yell at the top of your lungs to make it stop. But you're frozen, watching him slowly fade away into nothing.
Fatal Consequences
Published: August 2012
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Little one, please don't be so sad! Life is so amazing dear!! Today's pain will make you strong again. And "Kill that part of yours which believes that you cannot survive without somebody else!" Just think that whatever hurt you or whoever left you is your past. All you have to do is "Love yourself". Yes I mean "Love yourself so much that you can create your own happiness." Do every small & little things that makes you happy. And please remember "DON'T EVER PUT YOUR HAPPINESS IN SOMEONE ELSE'S HANDS. THEY WILL DROP IT. THEY WILL DROP IT EVERY TIME."
Life's good!!
Just enjoy!