Husband Death Poem

Letter To Dead Husband

For my darling husband, Mike, who lost the battle fighting cancer.

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I was engaged in my early 20s. It was a deep love that just couldn't be. Life happened, and I married a different wonderful man, who just happened to have been childhood friends with my ex....

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I Am Not That Strong


Published by Family Friend Poems August 2008 with permission of the Author.

My Dearest Darling,

I am not as strong as I thought I was.
Since you have been gone,
I sit and cry all night long
From dusk to dawn.

Another day comes, and once again
I have to pretend that I am strong.
As soon as the day is over
I can go home and quit pretending that
I am strong.

I sit and cry all night long,
My Dearest Darling, because
You are gone, and now that I am home,
I don't have to pretend to be strong!


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  • Melissa by Melissa
  • 2 years ago

Does it get any easier? I married my husband on July 23, 2010, and he passed away unexpectedly on February 7, 2022. We have 5 boys, 3 girls, and before his passing, I found out I was pregnant. I break down all day long. I keep asking myself how am I gonna go on. To this day I have nightmares of waking up to him not breathing.

  • Stacy Rocha by Stacy Rocha
  • 2 years ago

I was engaged in my early 20s. It was a deep love that just couldn't be. Life happened, and I married a different wonderful man, who just happened to have been childhood friends with my ex. My husband and I had a boy together. We're together 16 years. He was only 40 when he died of cancer. Our son was 14, trying to be strong as I screamed with his urn in bed every day for a year.

I recalled during one of his many hospital stays that last year him telling me if/when he passed, to find my ex. He knew he'd take care of me and our son. I ended up getting in touch with my ex almost 2 years after my husband died. My 1st love. We mourned my husband, he loved our son. We got back together with everyone’s blessing. My ex never married. I was it for him. That was 7 years ago. We were going to have a small wedding after Covid, but 2 weeks ago HE passed at 50. My son lost his dad and stepdad. I don’t know how we’re going through this again. Why bless me with 2 great loves for both to be cruelly snatched from me? Endless pain…

  • AKANLE Gbemisola by AKANLE Gbemisola
  • 3 years ago

For me, I was with my husband for seven years, got married in April 2017, had my beautiful daughter in September and lost him on 14 Oct. 2017. Same year, same time. I ask myself why me but then I tell myself God allowed it to happen to me because I am a strong woman....God be with us all.

  • Lerato Sangweni by Lerato Sangweni
  • 4 years ago

I lost my husband a month ago from Covid 19. We celebrated our 10-year anniversary in December 2019 and we were looking forward to many more years to come, but God had a different plan. I miss him every second. He left me with three beautiful children and lots of sweet memories. I try to be strong, but it's difficult not to shed a tear. Every day I cry and look at all the posts. I feel encouraged knowing I'm not the only one who has lost a life partner and soul mate. I find my comfort and strength from the Holy scriptures and remembering how he loved and respected me.

  • Williams by Williams
  • 4 years ago

Sorry to all who have lost their husbands. I have stopped to read every story. I found I am not alone or the only one affected by the pain of grief to losing your better half. I have been with the man of my life for 7 years. He was everything I prayed for. We got married on July 21, 2018, on my birthday - the best day of my life. On January 6, 2019, he passed away. I felt lost, emotionally drained, and empty inside. A part of me died with him, but with prayer I know I will be all right. We are strong women. Every one of us can tell our own story about the love of our life. Thanks for telling your stories. It helps encourage me to tell mine. My husband would always tell me I'm a winner because someone may never find that true love, so to you all, you are winners because you told your stories. Stay strong and encourage. Let's pray for all who are grieving the loss of a husband.

  • Grace Lekalakala by Grace Lekalakala
  • 3 years ago

I lost my husband 20 years ago on February 13, 2001, but it still feels like yesterday. He left me with two boys, 4 years and 3 months old then. The memories we shared can't fade away. I wish he were here to share the joy of our boys growing into responsible young men.

  • SBP by SBP
  • 5 years ago

I lost my husband 3 months ago in an accident. We were married for 16 months. He was not even 40 years old. He was a very good person. Actually, I had never seen such a good-hearted person. He was very giving, very caring, and very loving. Now I always keep on thinking...why did it happen? Is it my fault? Many times I think...did it happen to punish me? There is so much sadness in me. It's true nobody can understand. I also used to think I was a strong person. But now I realize I am not strong at all. Now I am just pushing through each day. Every morning I think...why did a new day start? Hope things will get better...hope I will be stronger one day.

  • Osas Omon by Osas Omon
  • 4 years ago

I lost my husband to an accident. He was such a giver and caring. God knew how he was. We had been married 13 months. On that day, I had actually prayed against untimely death. It’s been 4 months now since his death. I pray God in his infinite mercies help all those who’ve lost their better half.

  • WDB by WDB
  • 4 years ago

I just lost my husband suddenly and most unexpectedly one month ago. It was also the date of our anniversary, which we were to celebrate 11 loving years together. Your sentiments echo exactly what I feel every day since his passing. Thank you for saying what I am feeling. Thinking of you with shared heartfelt sympathy.

  • Maryellen Williams by Maryellen Williams
  • 5 years ago

I lost my husband, soulmate, BFF on July 19, 2015 to lung cancer. It was a 7-year battle. We were married at 16 and have 2 sons and 4 grandchildren. We were married 45 years. he was 61 when he passed. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. I cry every day and miss him beyond words. I hate all holidays and wish I could skip them all. Time does not heal me. I miss him more as time goes on. I miss you, Randy!

  • Susan Berry by Susan Berry
  • 5 years ago

My dear, sweet husband of 37 years lost his courageous nine month battle to AML on May 16, 2018. The loss of my best friend is still unbelievable and unbearable at times. One of the last things he said to me was, "I will just have a different address for a while." The stages of grief are unique for everyone. At first I was handling things OK because I had so much to do and had the immediate support of friends and family. But now, after a couple months, it seems to be getting harder. I find every reason to get out of the house, because there are so many memories at home. I am a Christian and know we will see each other again in Heaven, but I miss him so. Sleep does not come easily, as I often wake up in the middle of the night crying. All I do is bawl! I get comfort from listening to Christian music, but then that special song comes on that tugs at your heart and there go the floodwaters! I often ask God "why," but then answer my own question. Who am I to question God?

  • Liza by Liza
  • 2 years ago

I lost my husband of 37 years to AML just few days ago. It was a short battle. Diagnosed in Nov, went into remission for about 3 weeks but relapsed soon after. Back to hospital on 3 Jan 2022 with all hope and trust he'd get better again. He had improved after a few days. We started planning for rehabilitation. But he went downhill again and never recovered.

Few days ago, he was pleading with me wanting to come home, but the doctor said it's too risky under his condition. That's my guilt. Would he still be alive today if he came home when he asked me to? Would I have less guilt if he just passed away at home? He asked me to come home. If I only knew he gonna pass away anyway, I could have agreed to his plea, but I didn't know. I hang on to that hope of recovery. The wound is still fresh. I just want to wake up from this nightmare. I don't know how am gonna cope.

  • Mo Hughes by Mo Hughes
  • 5 years ago

So sorry for your loss. I lost my husband/best friend/soul mate a year ago. I cannot grasp my loss. I miss him so much. I break into floods of tears several times a day. I have a dog who is 2. We got her so we would have reason to walk more when we were told my husband’s cancer had returned. My dog helps me go out. I love walking her, but my health not good. When I get home again the loneliness sets in. I have friends, but the promises of visits didn't last. They have no idea what life is like when you lose someone dear. One of my best friends has hardly been to see me for months! She lives a few miles away. I went to see her a few times, and she was very hospitable, but she doesn’t understand that I need visitors in MY home too! Especially now! My children have their own lives. They are for me, but they don’t live nearby. One is in Australia. I hope you find your peace.

  • Patricia McGaughey by Patricia McGaughey
  • 5 years ago

I can identify with her pain. I lost my husband to lung and bone cancer on April 12, 2018. We had just had our 28th wedding anniversary. We didn't know he had cancer, so the diagnosis was a shock. He passed away 6 weeks after being told he had stage 4 cancer. It wasn't treatable. He was the love of my life, and I miss him more every day. We were together a total of 30 years. I wish it could have been more. He was so smart and loving. I know we will see each other again in Heaven. I can't wait for that day to come. He was 72 and in pretty good health, we thought. I guess God needed him in Heaven, but oh how I wish He had given us more time together.

  • Lisa C Larson by Lisa C Larson
  • 5 years ago

I am very sorry for your loss, Patricia. I just lost my soulmate, the love of my life, and best friend on May 25, 2018. He was diagnosed with stage 4 melanoma throughout his body on May 10th. He passed away 2 weeks and 2 days later. We didn't know it either, just like you. We would have been together 6 years in September. We were engaged with no date set. He was 51. I am 53. My heart, just like yours, is shattered into a million, gazillion pieces. So is my world. Patricia, you are the only one I have reached out to publicly. Thank you for sharing and I wish the very best for you. May God bless you always. Lisa

  • Gladness Nthoroane by Gladness Nthoroane
  • 6 years ago

Hi, I lost my husband to colon cancer on March 12, 2018. We were married for ten years. I wish we could have been married for more than 30 years like others. Living without him is like living inside a coffin while still alive. It is so painful. Every day I wish for this pain to go away, but it's just getting stronger. He left me and our two beautiful kids. Every time I look at them the pain gets deeper. I don't know how I am going to survive this.

  • Natalia Rollins by Natalia Rollins
  • 5 years ago

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband on December 29, 2018, to colon cancer too. We were married 17 years. I feel horrible pain every day, and it is hard to fall asleep. I have two kids as well. Having kids is actually helping me, because I'm trying to be strong around them. I'm just thinking that is not fair for them to lose their father and end up with very sad mother. But reality is that pain is unbearable because I will never see him again. I take one day at a time. I talk to God and to my husband every day. I only hope I will feel better.

  • Amy by Amy
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband 3 weeks again. The pain just goes over me again and again. The moments are terrible. I try to be a strong mom, but it's very hard, and part of my heart has been ripped off. Gosh, all the feelings make me sadder. I feel he is still here with me. I miss him so much. Hopefully he can guide me through this. Love you so much. Please wait for me in heaven.

  • Mary Kobani. by Mary Kobani.
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband last year on November 17th. He went to work and I was home waiting for my beloved husband to come back like he always does, but he did not. I cry almost every day of my life, and as it is I still wish he would come back to me. Life without my baby I must say is hell. He would call me MY JOY. My husband loved me so much and I knew he did. I miss him so much and the beautiful things he used to say to me. The things we did together, I miss all of those. I can never forget the beautiful times we shared together. I know he called out my name before he gave up, but I wish I had the chance to hear it from him and to hear what he had to say for the last time, but he left without saying goodbye. I love you, baby, and I miss you so much.

  • Wendy Young by Wendy Young
  • 6 years ago

It is so hard not to hear the last words or to have that final conversation to say I will see you again. I lost my husband almost 3 years ago, and I am stuck in a rut. I miss him and all the things we did. I don't know if it will ever get easier. I feel I have not grieved at all as of yet!

  • Donna Marie Pethel Beem by Donna Marie Pethel Beem
  • 6 years ago

My dear husband passed away August 4, 2015. I was with my mother and father also when they passed away. It was so painful, and I still have many days that I cry off and on and miss their loving presence. It's one of the most difficult things in life to go through when you're separated from your loved ones.

It's a heartache that always stays, but my faith that some say I will be with them again gives me hope when we meet at heaven's gates. I know it's so hard, especially, on holidays and birthdays and anniversaries. I feel so very lonely and like I'm half of a whole...missing my loved one who completed me. I only know that prayer to the Lord and talking to Him helps me through a lot of my sorrow, and He's my strength and hope. God bless all the folks going through these sad times and hope you find comfort from Jesus.

  • Debbie Smith by Debbie Smith
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband of 47 wonderful years on May 11 of this year. He was my rock, my soulmate, my everything. I am so heartbroken, and every morning I open my eyes I pray it's a bad dream. He was the world's best husband, dad, and papa. Every day it seems the loneliness and grieving gets harder, and I just don't know how to cope and carry on. I have good family and friend support, but the hurt and heartache are always here. He was very sick with cancer, and my last words to him were, "I love you and I will be strong." Twenty minutes later he passed away. The promise of being strong is so hard to fulfill. I just pray to God every day to give me strength. My thoughts and prayers to all of you going through this painful, lasting experience.

  • Angela Magee by Angela Magee
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband on July 18, 2017. After an 8 week battle with cancer his body couldn't handle it anymore. We were married for 10 years. Now I am left to raise 2 children: one is 7 and the other is 2. I really hope the hurt gets easier to deal with as time passes.

  • Pam McEwen by Pam McEwen
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband of 3.5 years on 7/17/2017. We were together for 37 years. My worst times are when I first wake up and don't remember he is gone. It only takes a few seconds for it to hit me. I hope that ends soon. I get through that and seem like I'm doing alright except for some surprise moments that catch me with my guard down. And having my guard up all the time is exhausting. I tell myself I am a strong woman. But in the back of my mind I wonder if I'm just postponing the inevitable.

Some of you saw a change in your partner's attitude toward you. That was an indication that they felt safe and loved by you. Because you were the only one they could relax with and not have to pretend to be fine when they weren't. That's why it seemed they could be their old self with everyone but you. They knew you wouldn't leave. Accept it as a sign of just how strong your relationship was. Your anger was not directed at your partner but toward the illness that brought you both to that point.

  • Stephanie Giammatteo by Stephanie Giammatteo
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband of 44 years to AML leukemia on December 16, 2015. From the time he was diagnosed to the day he died was only 2 months. He was and still is the love of my life. There isn't a day that passes that I am not thinking about him. On December 16th, a part of me died with him. My second year of grieving for him has been simply awful. The thought of never holding him, kissing him, talking to him and loving him has ripped my heart apart. For all intents and purposes, on the outside I look as if I am carrying on as usual. However, on the inside I am dying. I am 68 years old and we had so many years left to enjoy our life. I only look forward to the time when I will see him once again.. The agony is unbearable!

  • Sylvia by Sylvia
  • 6 years ago

Stephanie, I lost my husband of 47 years to small strokes that gave him dementia. He didn't show any signs of strokes. The only way we found out was because he fell down going to the restroom and hit his head. We took him to ER. The doctor said he was fine, but the neurologist wanted to see him. That's when I wanted to run and scream! All his brain was almost covered where his little strokes would attack. At that time he was 58 years old. He got worse as time when by. I took care of him here at our home 24/7 for 5 years. Our grown children would come and help me. He passed away July 8, 2016. I miss him so much every day, and it's so hard at night. He's not here with me in bed so we can hug each other. I still tell myself it's just a dream I'm going to wake up from and he will be here with me. Just now I was crying so badly for him. I want him back! I know he's happy with Jesus, and I will be with him when I die, but I miss him. It's such a terrible life without him. God bless you.

  • Joanie Adams by Joanie Adams
  • 6 years ago

Hi, I am at four years and feel the same way. I don't know how any woman does this who has lost the love of her life. I would prefer to be dead than be without him. No one compares. The pain and loneliness are agonizing. This is a life without purpose. Nothing appeals to me. The joy has gone out of life. Holidays--gone. He was like Christmas every day. So I know exactly what you are going through. There are close friends and relative who can't believe I am as bad as if he died yesterday. Well, every day to wake up without him to this miserable life is as if he dies all over again.

  • Kam by Kam
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband 03/21/2017. His health had started to decline rapidly the last year. His final hospital visit I thought was routine. He'll go in for a week or two then back home. But it was not God's will. I never thought I'd be so lost without him. I always thought I was a strong, independent woman. What I realize now....we were co-dependent. He was my best friend and confident. He always put me and our family first. We were together 38 years, married 34. Like others on here, I've felt guilt that I didn't do more, take charge at the hospital, see his illness for what it was. I got caught up in the daily care and forgot the man I married. I wish I would have slowed down and been in the moment. Emotions change by the moment, just as soon as I think I got this, bam a memory, a longing for what we had. I miss his strength. He had my back. Thank God for family/friends, but I still feel very lost, but I'm trying to figure it out. Three and a half months in is better than one month in, or is it?

  • Barbara M by Barbara M
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband to a vicious bowel cancer on April 23, 2017. We had 26 wonderful years, and I am hollow without him. My heart feels like it has been ripped out, stamped on, and pushed back inside me. The sense of loss and loneliness is all-consuming. I seem to have hit a wall in my grief, unable to get over the wall or around it. I want to be with him. I would give everything I have to spend one good day with him before the vile illness that cruelly took him and then go with him. Life is meaningless without him in it. I just miss him every minute of every day. Grief is totally exhausting. I hope I can find peace. It is just all-consuming at the moment.

  • Nancy  Chappell by Nancy Chappell
  • 6 years ago

I lost my David on November 7, 2016, after 57 years of marriage. We were high school sweethearts, and he was my best friend, my soul mate, the love of my life. I felt safe with him since the day we met, and now I feel so lost and alone without him. Our children and grandchildren have been so supporting, but my heart aches from missing him and our life together. I wish I could tell you it gets easier with time, but the tears just seem unending for me. I pray God will give you strength as you go through this journey of grief we are on. Hold fast to your memories and the love you shared.

  • Laura by Laura
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband to pneumonia in April of 2016. I never knew you could hurt so bad and keep on breathing. I wish I had something to tell you to help, but as of yet I have not found anything. I cry every day and feel like I don't have a life without him. We were married 32 years. I'm so sorry for all of us going through this awful pain. God bless us all.

  • Amanda Cardona by Amanda Cardona
  • 6 years ago

Hi! I lost my husband suddenly on June 10, 2017. Still waiting for the coroner's report to explain why. I just miss him so much. You feel really empty and sad beyond words. People say you'll get over it in time. They don't know how it feels. This is something I'll never get over. Telling our six children their dad's not coming home rips my heart out. Sending my love from my family to yours.

  • Bhel by Bhel
  • 6 years ago

Hi Barbara! Life is so short. I've lost my partner in life April 2, 2017, due to esophageal cancer. Emptiness filled my heart. I've pray every day to Him to guide me and accept the truth. It's so painful.

  • Donna Bertholf by Donna Bertholf
  • 6 years ago

I lost my husband on March 24. I miss him more than I can say. He was everything to me. We had no children and we were both only kids, so I have no one. My mind is starting to trick me by thinking he didn't really love me and I start thinking of any problems we had. What causes this? He must have told me a dozen times a day he loved me. I cry all the time, and the guilt of thinking these bad things is eating me up.

  • Jamie Dilbeck by Jamie Dilbeck
  • 7 years ago

My husband passed away after four weeks in the ICU from Ards and acute leukemia. We didn't even know he was sick; it all happened so fast. He was my rock, my best friend, and a wonderful father to our three girls 16, 10, 7. They didn't get to say goodbye, which hurts them. We were together for 23 years, married for 16. He was my soul mate. Now I feel lost and like I'm just existing. At my husband's wake we played Richard Marx's "I'll Be Right Here Waiting for You" and Allison Krauss' "When You Say Nothing At All. The day after the funeral myself and my girls were on the way to the park to get their minds off what happened, and I started crying because I felt guilty for going to the park, so I turn on the radio and "I'll Be Right Here Waiting For You" came on right at that moment. We all started crying. It was him letting me know he was ok. He has sent many signs since then. I was getting girls on the bus last week and a cardinal bird landed right in front of us and looked at us. We love you and miss you boo...

  • Jessica by Jessica
  • 5 years ago

My darling husband was shot and killed during a hijacking while trying to park the car in the garage in August 2017. I thought by now I wouldn't be feeling so much pain, but the truth is, it's worse than the past few months. He has left me our two beautiful boys, 11 and 5. He was an amazing husband, father and lover. I think a month after his death I went into our bedroom and asked God to give me a sign for me to know he's okay, and God did right that moment. On the radio our song played. You are my love, you are my everything. That's when I knew that he's fine. But I'm so lonely. I miss him so much. He and I have been together since our high school years. He was my heart, and now that he's gone I feel like I don't have a heart. He was only 39 years old when they killed him.

  • Awo Ukasanya by Awo Ukasanya
  • 7 years ago

I lost my husband of 7 years 2 years ago. I don't even know how I feel right now. Life just doesn't make sense. When I look at our son, I feel so sorry for him and wonder what's going on in his head. How can he lose a daddy so loving and so dear? I think life has lost its meaning. I stay in bed all day, not wanting to do anything. The pain is unimaginable. I miss you Philip, I really do.

  • Karin by Karin
  • 6 years ago

Hi Awo,
Just wanted to say I share your pain. Nobody can imagine what it feels like to lose the love of your life. My beautiful man passed away on 30 June. I feel just like you do. Words cannot describe the pain. Hugs and love. Karin

  • Gee by Gee
  • 7 years ago

I feel your pain. I was with my husband 36 years, married 27. I'm 58. He passed 5 years ago, and I miss him dearly. I have two daughters, 23 and 28, whom he cherished. I recently retired. I wish he were here to share it with me. It's so lonely. My message to you is you have to live your life. Don't let it pass you by. I know it's hard, but your husband would want you to be happy...

  • Maria Anyanzwa by Maria Anyanzwa
  • 7 years ago

I lost my soulmate on December 10, 2016 to a road accident. This poem describes exactly how I feel. I'm tired of pretending. I see my 14 month old baby and wonder what she is thinking. I wonder if I will ever feel better. This pain changed the person I used to be. I feel dead inside. I miss the little games we had. You were my all. This is just too much for me.

  • Sandy Hix by Sandy Hix
  • 7 years ago

In December of 2015, my hubby thought he had had a mild stroke. We went to the doctor 2 days later. Tests were run, and everything looked great. Doctor suggested an MRI due to continuing mild headaches. A plum sized tumor was discovered. Surgery Feb. 4 where 95% of tumor was extracted, but it was malignant. Radiation and chemo ensued, but due to missed radiation, tumor returned. Next surgery Aug. 30. Not so successful. We celebrated 41 years of marriage on Sept. 6 and he retired after .40 years at Foundry on Oct. 1 but did not make celebration due to hospital stay. Brought him home on Oct. 3 and he passed Oct. 5. He was my precious Oklahoma cowboy, and I miss him so much I hurt constantly. He had an ugly attitude for a while, and I tell myself it was the tumor and meds. I love you so much, Gayle. Please watch over me and help me heal.

  • Karin by Karin
  • 6 years ago

Hi Sandy and Cathy,
Just want to share that I'm going the same devastation and pain that you are after losing my beautiful partner. I loved him so much. I don't know how to go on without him. In the last few months he also became very annoyed with me and he had an ugly attitude to me over everything. It breaks my heart that I didn't see what was wrong and just fought with him. I just want him back. I am so sad. Hugs go out to all those feeling the way we do. Take care

  • Cathy Davis by Cathy Davis
  • 6 years ago

Sandy, your letter has helped me, and maybe this will help you. My husband went fishing in Nov 2015, got a severe headache, and died December 8, 2015. He had at least 18 brain infections. We didn't even know he was sick. The part you have helped me with...he, too, had an ugly attitude in the end. He seemed to hate me, no one else, just me. I have struggled to understand why he seemed angry with me. Was it the infection that was taking my old cowboy from me that changed who he was? After reading your post, I think I have the answer. Thank you. I wish I could tell you this pain gets better. It doesn't, but somehow, we just make room for it.

  • Linda by Linda
  • 7 years ago

I lost my husband two weeks ago. He was complaining of a sore back, which we thought happened at work. X-rays revealed nothing, and an appointment was made for an MRI. That weekend he came home from work, which I thought was strange as he only came home at month end. He said he was tired and in pain, so I got him comfortable and told him to rest. He got up during the night and fell, that was the last time he walked. He died 5 weeks later of cancer. It attacked his body so fast there was nothing anyone could do. It was such a shock, and I still don't believe it. I miss him so much and still wait for his calls at night, but they never come. He was my best friend, my soul mate, and now he is not here. I can't live without him.

  • Florence Banasihan by Florence Banasihan
  • 7 years ago

I exactly know the pain you all carry. My husband was taken away from us by bad souls 4 years ago. Since then, the unbearable pain still remains. Every day is a struggle. It was so devastating for the whole family. If there is such a perfect family man, I can say he was one of those, The best partner, my best friend, my soulmate, and the best father to our 2 boys (10 and 8 years old now). I miss everything about him every single moment. I still can't help but cry almost every day. Even our children vividly remember him until now and missing him a lot. We love him so much. Every day we're looking forward to seeing him again.

  • Rosy Sondhi by Rosy Sondhi
  • 7 years ago

I lost my 50 year old husband on August 30, 2015. He died of sepsis and ARDS. Everything has changed. I miss him very much. I don’t want to move on in my life. I cry all the time. It is very hard for me to live. I have two children. They also miss their papa very much, but they do not show it. I know they are dying inside. I am very helpless. I am very weak. I only want my reunion with my husband. My life is a mess. Though a year has passed, it seems that every day is the same.

  • Sherry Rollison by Sherry Rollison
  • 7 years ago

I lost my 46 year old husband two years ago today. We had been married for 20 years. He died suddenly and unexpectedly from a heart problem. That morning my son woke me up and said hurry, it's dad. When we found him he had been gone for hours. There was nothing we could do. I also have two kids that keep it in and don't like to talk about it. Every morning I wake up it feels like my heart is breaking all over again and that I'm just existing, not living. I just wish I could hear his voice, feel his arms around me, and hear him say I love you one more time. When the coroner gave me his wedding band I slipped it on my finger and wear it always. I consider myself still married. We just can't be together right now, and I know the moment I take my last breath he will be there waiting to take me home. I look forward to that day.

  • Sharron Gardner by Sharron Gardner
  • 7 years ago

I lost my soulmate of 33 years on December 3, 2016. We have 4 children and 20 grandchildren. I'm a mess. I can't eat or think. Everything is so cloudy. I miss his touch, his smell of his cologne. What am I supposed to do without you? I love you so much.

  • Monica MacKellan by Monica MacKellan
  • 7 years ago

I hear you, I feel your pain. I lost my fiancé on May 15, 2016. We were to be married yesterday, in secret ( we met and fell in love in our 60's, 4 years ago). We were a match made perfect in every sense of the word. His depth of love for me, unlike any I have ever experienced. We did more, lived more than in my 2 previous marriages in 33 years. He was a male version of me and I a female version of him. Like twins. Inseparable, always holding hands, stealing kisses, regardless of who was watching, virtually reliving our teenage years, well beyond.
I hospitalized him on April 25th and on his last day, I removed his oxygen mask, kissed his lips and said, "it's okay Honey, you can let go now". With his very last breath, he did. So I know he heard me and knew I was with him, he was not alone...he was loved and cherished to then and beyond.
To those who are mourning and grieving, I know your struggle for breathe as you weep, the depth of loss indescribable. Blessings to you all.

  • Karin by Karin
  • 6 years ago

Hi Monica,
I wonder how you are. Your love with your partner resonated with me. I, too, met my partner 4 years ago. He was without question the love of my life. In the 53 years I had been on this planet I had never experienced a love like we shared before. I miss him constantly. He was my beautiful, beautiful man. I think about him every second of the day. I am really battling to carry on living. How are you doing?

  • Kristi Lankford by Kristi Lankford
  • 7 years ago

My husband died in an automobile accident on July 1, 2016. I'm still processing everything...I'm sad, angry, scared, lost, exhausted, and overwhelmed, but wanted to thank all of you for sharing your stories. I found his "Count My Blessings" list a few days ago, and it humbled me and lifted me, just like your words have done. I don't feel so alone anymore...thank you.

  • Elizabeth by Elizabeth
  • 7 years ago

There's no words to describe the pain we go through when you lose your partner. My husband just made a year on 8/13/2016 and it seems like it was yesterday.

  • Elizabeth by Elizabeth
  • 7 years ago

I know the pain you are going through, I lost my husband 11 months ago and it seems like it was yesterday. Take all the time to mourn him because I do.

  • Debbie Du-gal by Debbie Du-gal
  • 8 years ago

Married the love of my life, 4th September '15, 23 days later, he was diagnosed with cancer. 4 weeks after getting married, he was unable to wear his ring, due to weight loss, he wore it on a chain instead. A week before his death, despite the weight loss, he wanted to wear it again, the ring never came off, until the 16th November '15. As he lay in bed, and I held his hand, stroked his hair and face, his ring slipped into my hand, I placed it back on his finger, where it rightfully belonged, I kissed him, told him I loved him, placed his hand on his chest, as he passed away. We were married for 10 weeks and 3 days, he was 45, Monday 28th March is his birthday. I do what needs to be done each day, but there's many a time, I wish I was with him, than live with this pain, I miss him so so much

  • Sarah Welch by Sarah Welch
  • 7 years ago

It is a hard pain to bare. I lost the love of my life to cancer on July 4th of 2016. He passed away at home in my arms surrounded by family. He was my everything, we were married 19 years. It was a hard pain to watch him lose all his weight and his ability to walk. His cancer was a fast one, we found out he had cancer in February 2016 and then he passed July 4th 2016. I still pray that God would give him back to me. I made my husband a promise and that keeps me going. I promised that I would be strong and live our dreams. Trust me you're not alone. But remember your husband is always with you no matter where you go or what you do. May God be with you.

  • Rhonda by Rhonda
  • 8 years ago

My husband passed going on 5 years this year. Tomorrow would have been his birthday. The pain of a loss is deep and if it were physical you could fix it. I want others who have a spouse who has died to know that the pain does subside and happy memories will evolve more and more of your loved one. The first year is most difficult, second year some happy memories start mixed with missing or yearning for your loved one. You learn to live with the loss but never a day goes by you don't think of them. You lose your identity and everything you thought that you were but a new identity will arise, you will learn some things are just out of our control. Rest assured, that it was their time as difficult as it seems. It was their set time to go back home, where we all come from our true home. Loved ones are more able to guide and help us from that spiritual place. Sending lots of love to those who have lost their precious soul mate.

  • Bronwyn by Bronwyn
  • 8 years ago

Thanks Rhonda, your words have shed some light on how I may see myself in the years ahead. I lost my husband of 47 years just ten months ago and miss him so much. I keep very busy with work and other interests but the pain of my home without him leaves such an emptiness in my life. I have good family and friends so I am not alone in the world. I tell myself that there's nothing I can do to bring him back but then try to imagine how I can push on and whether I will ever truly be happy again. Its almost as though I am playing a part pretending to be happy and getting on with life but living as a liar, as I know better. Hopefully as your advice shows, I too can follow the same path as you heal with time. Thank you.

  • Anne by Anne, Melbourne
  • 9 years ago

I lost my darling husband 6 months ago and life will never ever be the same. We had been together for 48 years, 43 years married. He never enjoyed good health and the last few years I was a carer but we had a splendid life, always travelling. My heart is broken without him and I don't feel like me anymore. I will love him forever.

  • Steve Uk by Steve Uk
  • 8 years ago

I lost my lovely wife, my best friend, my soul mate, to cancer on June 7 2015.
She was 57.
Grief can destroy you or focus you. You can decide a relationship was all for nothing if it had to end in death, and leave you alone. Loss definitely changes you as a person and I found myself not only grieving for my wife but also grieving the old me.
You can close your eyes and pray that they will come back or you can open your eyes and see all they have left.
I saw this on Facebook it was shared for any person who have also recently lost their partners." Your heart can be empty because you can't see them or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember them that they have gone or you can cherish there memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back or you can do what they would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on".

  • Kim Frey Martinez Ca 94553 by Kim Frey Martinez Ca 94553
  • 9 years ago

I'm so alone. I don't know what to do with myself. I do not have strength to do anything. I'm lost. I do not know how to live. I don't even know who I am anymore. I was taking care of him while being in a bad physical condition myself. It's so lonely to be one, not having him at my side. Shopping for one, going to church by myself. Just getting out of bed can take all day. It's so hard. No one can help.
Dear God help me and bless his soul wherever he is right now.
It hurts so bad.

  • Sylvia by Sylvia
  • 6 years ago

Yes, it's so lonely to be one. I was a couple for 46 years. I lost my husband on 7/8/16. The first time I went to the store, I didn't know what to buy. Then I got mad because I saw men older than my husband with their wives, laughing and happy. I would tell God that's not right my husband was gone instead of with me. I would just leave the cart and go cry in the car. I still cry a lot. God bless you.

  • W. .J. Light by W. .J. Light
  • 7 years ago

Like you, I do not know who I am. My mind, the essence of my being, forever was stripped when my husband, my soulmate, of 34 years died of cancer eight months ago. A big part of me died with him. Your words, and those of replies below, echo the hollowness of my broken heart. But I have to go on! I have to be strong for our children and grandchildren! Ah, but it takes so much energy to pretend. It will be like this forever...until I am reunited with him in Heaven as I know is promised to Christ-followers. I steep myself in memories, and in our songs, and at our places, and with our people. But is this my new world? The resurrection of the past and the pain it brings is unsustainable and heart-breaking. So do I run from our world and start over? No, he wouldn't be a part of that. So you see, even though I know and love the Lord, I no longer know who I am. Except scared to live like this for very long.

  • Charlotte South Africa by Charlotte South Africa
  • 7 years ago

I am 31 years old and my husband of ten years passed away May 13, 2016. We have two daughters: 8 and 4 years old. I don't even know what to do or what to feel. At times I will try to be strong and sometimes I would be weak and cry myself to sleep.

The strange thing is instead of moving on with my life, I love him more and more each day and realize there's no one like him.

Baby, I don't want to move on, I don't want to forget you, I don't want to be happy. How can I? Living my life without you hurts. You were such an amazing husband and a good father. You were very strong and handsome; you didn't deserve to die.
Love, Charlotte

  • Rosa De Leon by Rosa De Leon
  • 7 years ago

Kim Frey Martinez - I can relate to your story. I just lost my sweet Rodrigo five months ago on January 27, 2016. It's 11:30 pm and I am crying and can't fall asleep. I feel empty inside and the pain of living without him is unbearable. I don't know how I'm going to live without him. My hope is that you are doing better and that God heard your plea. God is the only one that can ease our pain - so don't try to do it alone. Ask Him daily for guidance like I do. God bless you and guide you through what comes next in your life.

  • Gladys Rodriguez by Gladys Rodriguez, Connecticut
  • 8 years ago

I understand your pain. I lost my husband of 40 years to cancer on December 7, 2015. I miss the good and bad times. I miss his smile and easygoing ways. I know he's resting now in Jesus. I know he's not in pain anymore. I know we will be reunited at the second coming of Christ. Everyday is hard to function and do the things we did together, alone by myself. I hold on to all the good memories we had. God gives me strength to live one day at a time. I pray that He will give you strength as well.

  • Carrie by Carrie, Greenfield Indiana
  • 9 years ago

God bless you. I lost my husband two years ago to cancer. No one understood how hard it was...waking up everyday and nothing is the same. Everyone else can grieve, but their daily routines stay the same. Without your husband, even sleeping isn't the same. It gets better. Try joining a support group. The best advice that I was given was to keep busy. Keep going throughout the day until you are so exhausted that you have to sleep. One day you will come to realize that you aren't as broken as you once were. You will realize you can begin to consciously grieve. But for now, just concentrate on breathing...sometimes it hurts so badly that it's all you can do. Keep God close to your heart. Listen closely because he's still there. One day, when grief isn't so close, you will feel him again.

  • Bennysue by Bennysue
  • 9 years ago

I also have lost the love of my life. He was my rock and my soulmate. I am lost without him. We were married for 24 years. He is my life.

  • Marianne Sunter by Marianne Sunter
  • 8 years ago

I read a few of the submissions but this summed up how I feel exactly. My lovely husband Jim died on May 15th 2015 and even writing this now makes me cry. Coming up to the first anniversary is really tough but I am lucky to have wonderful family support.

  • Maureenbarton by Maureenbarton
  • 10 years ago

My husband John passed away on the 12 Nov. 2013 he had a heart transplant 23 years ago so I was lucky to have him all those extra years. I miss him so much it hurts at times. I shall always love you darling Maureen.

  • SYL by SYL
  • 7 years ago

My husband Bert passed away on August 12, 2016. He had a kidney transplant 30 years ago, therefore our daughter and I were very fortunate to have him with us all these years. He was my first love, soul mate, best friend and confidant. I miss him so much it hurts. I keep very busy with work and our grandsons, ages 12 and 6. Friends of mine who also lost their husbands tell me it gets easier and the first year is the worst. There are days I am overcome by grief. I have a good support of family and friends, which I thank God for every day. Miss and love you, my darling husband.

  • Michelle M. by Michelle M.
  • 10 years ago

It will be 10 years on January 26th that my husband, best friend and soulmate passed away 24 hours after finding out he had cancer. The entire family, friends, and his co-workers were in shock. This poem describes how I had to be strong for everyone including our 2 teenage children. When my husband died, a part of me died too. I think of him everyday, still long for him, and still cry when I am alone. I miss him dearly.

  • Betty Banks by Betty Banks, Charles City
  • 10 years ago

On July 27,2013 at 1:00 pm my husband of 39 years passed away at the hospital with his 5th bout of septic shock. I had quit my job to take complete care of him. I miss him so much that sometimes I feel as if I can't breath. I sit by his grave and cry for hours sometimes. Life just doesn't feel worth living without him. How can I feel any joy again. Randy, I will love you forever.

  • Anne Pickering by Anne Pickering, Chesterfield
  • 10 years ago

I lost my husband Richard to cancer on 9th Feb this year, after suffering 2 yrs, everyday is hard to bear without my hubby whom I had shared my life with for 42 yrs. He was my soul mate my best friend, He was a great dad to my daughter and 2 sons and our special grandson Alfie, He now has another grandson Jenson Richard who he has never seen. I put a brave face on every day when I go to work and everyone says how well I am doing good job they don't see me behind closed doors. It would have been our Ruby Wedding in 2 yrs July 2015 and we had so many plans to celebrate with a Caribbean Cruise. It was not to be and they say god only takes the best, my hubby was the best. I will always love you for ever and ever Honey xxxx

  • Elizabeth by Elizabeth
  • 10 years ago

My husband passed away 5 months ago. My hearts hurts like I never thought it was possible. I have to put a strong face during the day for people but once I encounter the darkness of night I find myself meeting the worst reality and pain ever. I ask God to help me and make this pain fade away only leaving the great memories together. Our children deserve for the only parent they are left with to live a happy and healthy life. I pray every night for a reunion once our kids are full grown. 10 years were not enough time together. May God cure our hearts and regard this sufferings with a marvelous reunion when time comes. Amen.

  • Deborah Paladino by Deborah Paladino
  • 6 years ago

Elizabeth, my husband, knowing him for close to ten years, passed away in May 2017. We didn't make it to our 7th Anniversary. Ten years were not enough time together, I agree. I wish I could have spent at least 15 or more years together, like most of the post I have read. I feel so cheated. The hardest part in losing my husband is that we didn't have the chance to have closure and say goodbye. I didn't have the chance to say I am sorry for the hard times and sorry we didn't catch the imminent stroke. I thought my kids and I were going to bring him home, even paralyzed, and he could spend the rest of our days together helping him get better. I would have given anything to bring my husband home in any shape, alive. The pain is so great, heavy, and choking. I pray constantly to my Lord God asking, why? The sadness is overwhelming. For me, the pain is too great to bear. I just can't stop saying how much I love him and miss him so much. He was such a kind, loving husband and father.

  • Grace Onkoba by Grace Onkoba, Nairobi Kenya
  • 11 years ago

It was the night of 15th October 2012 when I lost Erick through a massive heart attack, he was such a young man to die leaving me with a 4 year old son Reagan who can't stop asking "why did daddy have to die leaving me with no daddy" It pains a lot to think and know you will never be with us forever. As days goes by I realize am not the strong lady you knew but I try to wear a strong face for our son Reagan. There are those days I can't help tears flowing my eyes when I look at the photos the only image that was left for us. I miss him so much. Erick Mobisa R.I.P.

  • Heather by Heather
  • 11 years ago

I lost my soul mate Feb 23rd. I have had okay days and suicidal days. Like the rest of you I am completely lost. I have been a nurse for 27 years but its so much different when it's the love of your life. I'm so sorry we are all in this together. I want to see him in a dream but that hasn't happened yet. We were as one with a 3 year old. I'm dying of a broken heart. I just want to be with him. He loved me and I could do no wrong. I too wish I could see him one more day. Hold him once more. May God bless us all because this is a painful journey.

  • Erika by Erika, Salisbury Mills
  • 11 years ago

I lost my Elliot on August 17th 2012 exactly 5 months and 14 days ago, it was a Friday at 2:55 in the afternoon when he took his last breath. He was diagnosed with dreadful Melanoma on December 1st 2011 and 8 months and 17 days later he lost his fight. The grief and anger consume me, at 36 years old he should not have died, 4 days before our 9th wedding anniversary he should not have died. HE SHOULD NOT HAVE DIED. How can I go on when the days seem to be getting harder, the pain is stronger and I can't understand WHY? I miss him every second of every minute of every hour of every day. I love you More than words can say.

  • Sandra Nelson by Sandra Nelson, Blum
  • 11 years ago

I lost my Larry October 19, 2012 to a massive heart attack, we signed the papers on our first home 7 days before, we were married 9 years, together 11. The pain is so deafening Larry is my true love my soul mate, everyone tells me I'm the strongest person they know, this is killing my spirit, I miss you honey!!!!!!!

  • Lisa by Lisa, Uk
  • 11 years ago

My 59 yr old husband Tony my hero lost his battle with cancer. Worked until op end of March 2011 never the same after. He'd say was feeling ok until then.Passed away March 4 2012. Sometimes the pain was unbearable but so bravely smiled until the end, both protecting each other, we only talked about fighting it. Tones last words "I love you babe" I will always remember. Daughter, grandchildren we are lost without you love. Miss your caring ways, all those years hard working and always so reliable. You said If anything should happen you would be watching over us, I believe you are Tone. I can feel you around our home that you loved, unusual happenings must be you. No more pain our Lord decided to take you to paradise where you have earned your wings my wonderful Guardian Angel Anthony. Every day I miss you more and more.
Your Tania X

  • Marie by Marie, Nigeria
  • 11 years ago

I lost my husband 12th January 2005 when I was 23 year old, he was just sick for four days and he died. I miss everything we shared the time love and the time of misunderstanding. months later I lost my son too. Mark dear it has not been easy at all why do you have to leave like that. I miss your touch. You said just like the ring has no end, that is how your love is I miss everything. love you I am still alone. I wish you were here now. Love you

  • Alice by Alice, Lincolnton NC
  • 11 years ago

My husband passed away August 30th 2011 in hospice after 33 days. We were married for 38 1/2 years. It's the hardest thing that I have ever had to deal with. He was my first true love. I try to go on day after day. I've been told that time will heal the pain, but not for me. I miss kissing him and hugging him. and laughing with him, but his spirit is around. I have flashlights come on by themselves. The TV comes on and the computer will come on. and I have seen his spirit, but how I miss him.

  • Gina by Gina
  • 11 years ago

I lost my husband May 2nd 2012 from GB Brain Tumor. He fought hard for a long time. He was the love of my life. We did everything together. I don't know how to go on without him. It has been the hardest thing I have ever had to face in my life. I miss his so much and I will always love him dearly. I know one day I will see him again it's just getting through till that day that I don't know what I'm going to do.

  • Beth by Beth, St Paul MN
  • 11 years ago

When he died of cancer in June, we were less than 3 years as empty nesters, an epic love story of reblossoming and refocusing on ourselves, love and joy overflowing like teenage love, and so proud of our fine young adult children. I live for them now and try not to burden them everyday with my sorrow. I created a 4 foot long photo collage of him, us, our family, and it watches over me above our bed. Having been loved so much is greater than anything I can ever imagine. I wouldn't trade for any lesser love no matter how excruciating this sorrow has become.

  • Elizabeth K. Roper by Elizabeth K. Roper
  • 11 years ago

My husband died 6 years ago from Cancer. He was first diagnosed with Non Hodgkin's, but the day he died I was told he had bone cancer. He died February 8th just shy of his 48th birthday on the 17th. He was in and out of the hospital for many months. He just got out in Oct of 2005 after a month of being in. We got to enjoy Thanksgiving, and Christmas together with our adult children and Grandchildren. Then January 28th the day after our youngest daughter's birthday he was put back in the hospital never to come out. Feb. 8th he ate a red popsicle said he was going for a nap a "NAP"!! he never woke from. My Friend, My love, my husband of 34 yrs was taken away from me and his family forever. Stay Strong he made me promise him. I've tried in so many way's but I miss him so very much.

  • Paulette by Paulette, El Cajon
  • 12 years ago

I lost my best friend May 4, 2012 to cancer. We found out this past March. He was in Hospice at home. He told us he wanted to die around his family at home. I miss him so much. I know he was having a hard time in his life when he became fully blind 6 years ago. He knew his time was short. I was the one in denial. I never knew how you can miss your soul mate, until now. I prayed so much for him to come to me in spirit. My children, grandchildren and son-in-law all seen him. I finally, got my chance just this morning. I was awaken by his voice as he used to always say to me "Its time to get up and go to work". I miss my love of my life. I know I will see him again in Heaven, but the five senses want to feel and see him now. May God bless all those who are going through the same. Time will heal.

  • Diana Tucciarone by Diana Tucciarone, S.C.
  • 12 years ago

I lost my husband on Mothers Day 2012. He died of cancer. That day is supposed to be a happy day to all mothers but it will be a day of grieving for me and I do show that I am ok but deep inside there is so much pain it's not easy. We were together 23 years it happened too fast. I just want him back.

  • Gail by Gail, Tn
  • 12 years ago

I lost my husband on Oct. 23, 2007. He had diabetes and a bad heart. In May of that year, he went to the hospital because he couldn't walk. He had lost the feeling in his legs and was then confined to a bed. He then went to a nursing home and developed dementia. It will 5 years and I still hurt and cry for him.

  • Sharon Albritton by Sharon Albritton
  • 12 years ago

I lost my husband February 28th 2008 from cancer and it has not been the same without him. My kids keep telling me I need to go on with my life but I don't have a life without my husband. We were married 43 years when he left me. I wish I could have him back but I know he's better off. I just miss him so much. Iwish I could see him just one last time .I love you so much baby and I miss you.

  • Eileen by Eileen, Ga
  • 12 years ago

Lost my husband of 29 years 6 months ago. He was my reason for waking each morning. This poem describes me. I can hardly wait each day to get home and close the door, close the world out so I can let go and fully grieve the loss of my true love.

  • Rachel Hudson by Rachel Hudson, Shropshire
  • 12 years ago

I married the love of my life Chris on the 10th March 2012, just a week later he lost his battle with cancer. Its now been nearly a month since he left me and I seem to be getting worse, not better - I miss him SO much, it physically hurts, I'm crying 24/7 and this ache just wont go away. I would give anything to see him again, to just have one more cuddle. I hope you are at peace baby, I love you so much xx

  • Rebecca by Rebecca, Huntington
  • 12 years ago

My husband passed away 2 months ago we have a 19 month old daughter we have been together for 6 years but married for less than a year this poem says it all. I have to be stronger for my daughter. I have to get up everyday like all is well. When she goes to bed I cry myself to sleep. I have a lot of loved ones that want to help but there is nothing they can do. I miss him so much he was my world I can slap a smile on an be the best mommy during the day but when the day is done and he is not there to hold me, talk, tell me he loves me, that good night kiss!! Omg I miss him so much!! What do I do???

  • Elizabeth Lucier by Elizabeth Lucier
  • 12 years ago

My husband passed away on November 11,2010. He had colon cancer, he had battled it since 2008, and then he fought it as long as he could and then his body could not take it no longer, but he fought it to the end. It was the hardest time of my life and our 17 year old son too. His father was the joy of his life. They did everything together. The sadness and the loneliness take over my life almost every night and day. I still wait for him to come through the front door every day. I put on a brave face everywhere I go so no one knows how much I still miss him. I hope that someday my son Adam and I will be happy again. But we know he looks down on us and keeps us safe everyday and night. We love and miss you honey all the time.

  • Jennifer Paillard by Jennifer Paillard, South Africa
  • 12 years ago

My husband, Pierre passed away on the 29th May last year. He had battled with cancer for 20 months and finally when his body was too exhausted to carry on, he slipped away from us. The lonely nights, the missing, the effort to live without him, the sadness just overtakes me completely. I know what it is like to put on a "brave face" for everyone else because you want to protect them from your despair. He filled our home with his passion for life. He was the life and soul of our existence. And now he is just not there anymore. How we miss him, and how we are so thankful to have known him.

  • Vivian Plank by Vivian Plank, Woodland
  • 12 years ago

To my dear husband Howard:

My husband passed way on Jan 5, 2012 after five months battling with Acute Leukemia. At first, I thought I would be fine and be strong. As days going on, my heart started to hurt more and more. I never thought I would miss him that much. He was such a fun guy to be around and he always was there when you needed him. We have been married for almost 19 years having two wonderful children. He did everything for us. We were a happy family. My kids and I were the luckiest persons on the earth with his presence. Now, the God took him away and also took all our happiness away. We know that he is in peace now. I hope he can see us from the heaven and give us strength. Not hearing his voice and not seeing his smile are so tough for us. Right now and forever, he lives in our memory. Someday, hope that many years after, our broken hearts will heal and will feel happy again.

  • Rita Purcell by Rita Purcell, Brule Ne
  • 12 years ago

Six years ago today I laid my husband to rest. He had went to join God on January 16, 2006 two months before his 47th birthday. We found out he had cancer on Dec. 20, 2005 so didn't get much time to even talk about what ifs because we didn't want to think about death trying to stay positive. He was my soulmate the Love Of My Life and I miss him more than anyone can imagine. Everyday is a struggle there isn't a day that doesn't go bye that I don't cry from missing him and wanting him to be here to hold and to kiss. I tell him all day long that I love him and hope he can hear me. I Miss you and Love You Honey!!!! If there was a stairway to heaven I would bring you back home to me and my family.

  • Linda by Linda, Lake Charles
  • 12 years ago

A year ago today was the memorial service for my husband, my best friend, my soulmate. He died December 18, 2010, after suffering for 14 months with cancer. At the end, when every breath was a struggle for him, I prayed for him to fly home to Jesus. But when it happened, it hit me that I would never feel his touch again. I was a zombie last Christmas and New Year's Day, but this holiday season I am totally aware and it's been tough. This poem reminds me that I'm still pretending to be strong.

  • Stephanie by Stephanie, Springdale
  • 12 years ago

This poem touched me because I just lost my husband on October 3rd 2011 to lung cancer. This is what I do every day. I pretend to be strong I have to because everyone tells me I am strong and can get through this.
Sometimes I wonder and think "I am not that strong".

  • Gabrielle by Gabrielle
  • 12 years ago

This poem has touched my heart. It Started 11-8-10 that was the day my baby had brain surgery and the day my husband came in. That was also our last 2 weeks with My husband and their father. He had come home on leave from Iraq. It was nice seeing his face and being next to him again. It had already been to long. He was 6 years younger then I but one couldn't tell. He was so smart and bright we were married for 6 years. God how I miss him after he went back. We all cried me a little more so then before. Something just didn't feel right my heart hurt. But I just thought it was me just worrying as always. On 3-21-11 just 15 days before he was due home at 1:05 in the morning my house flooded and it had been a rough week anyways. I had made one comment I shall never make again and that was {CAN THINGS GET ANY WORST} well later that morning at 7:00 it did .I got a that dreaded knock at the door. They had told me he was KIA at 1:05 that morning What are the odds of something like that {RIP WONDER-BOY} I <3 You

  • Jennifer by Jennifer, Redondo Beach
  • 12 years ago

My husband died 18 months ago from cancer. He died 9 days after being diagnosed. It was a shock to everyone. We were married for 38 years. We had met on a blind date. I miss him so much. We were always together. I am so lost without him. I will never marry again. I could never love anyone as much as I loved him. I will love you forever.

  • Linda I by Linda I
  • 12 years ago

I lost my husband last December to Cancer, after only One Month from diagnosis. We had been Married for 40 years, I was only 17 and he was 19 when we married, and everyone said we were to young and it wouldn't last. Its the best thing I ever did. Although we have a lovely family. Life just seems so empty without him, I thought I was copying but recently I can't stop crying

  • Springfield Il by Springfield Il
  • 12 years ago

I lost my husband five month ago...
the pain that is within me is sooooooo great, I need him, I need him, I need him, I cant live without him. Please help me lord, take this pain that I cannot bear.

  • Joy by Joy, Connecticut
  • 12 years ago

I lost my husband nine years ago, It still hurts like the first day I lost him. Something in me died with him. My heart is now cold I have turned hard and I think my heart has turned to stone. We were married forty two years and so very close. I feel I can never love again, I can't even cry anymore, the pain still lingers, I feel it always will.

  • Nette by Nette
  • 13 years ago

I lost my husband just two months ago. Pretending is what we do to get through the day - I have become the master of deception. I show people what they want to see, because if they saw how I really felt about losing my one true love, they would hurt even more for me, and I just couldn't deal with that too. I'm not strong, I'm just good at disguising my emotions and getting through the day until I get home and "crash".

God Bless us and get us through this time...AMEN

  • Debbi Gagne by Debbi Gagne
  • 14 years ago

This poem has touched my heart .My boyfriend died of cancer 11 months ago and I can relate so well . I guess I'm not that strong as the name of the poem says . Maybe someday I will be stronger , just not today.

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