Regret

I know
This day will soon happen.
I know
God will take you away.
Twelve years
Of living
Are too lucky
For any cancer victim.
But for you,
It's never been too lucky.

Early rainy morning
Drip,
       Drip,
              Drip.
Tiny water droplets
Fighting against my windows.
Clouds were cotton candy
Covering the blue sky
You laid there...
As still as a tree.
Your skin was as pale
As snow,
And your body was as cold
As ice.
Winds were howling,
Through the front door.
And
     Swept
               All
                  My
                      Tears
                          Away.

I smiled to my heart
And reminded it
To be strong.
But I was wrong.
My mind was flooded
With all my faults.

I regret when I shouted at you.
I regret when I was mad at you for pathetic reasons.
I regret when I refused to listen to your advice.
Why didn't I treat you better?
And I realized,
How dumb I was to upset you,
When all you ever wanted to do
Was help me achieve the best things.

But
       It's
           Too
                Late for me to
                                       Fix
                                          My
                                             Faults.