Abuse Poem by Teens

Letter To Father Who Sexually Abused Me

This poem is dedicated to my step father who sexually abused me since I was 7. But, now I'm twelve and live with my grandma because I had the strength to run away. But I didn't tell anyone why I left and I don't plan on it either

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Dear Step Daddy


Published by Family Friend Poems March 2011 with permission of the Author.

I was only 7
When I first met you
I thought that you would be great
But then one night I realized
You weren't great at all
You told me to take a shower
Then put on a dress and come down stairs
I didn't know what you wanted
But I did as you said
And when I came down stairs
You were laying on the floor with your blanket
You told me to lay beside you so, I did
Then you started touching me
In places that mommy said were only met for me
I told you then to stop
So you did for a while then again you started
I was really scared
I didn't know what to do
I didn't want to say anything
I was afraid of what you were going to do
Something horrible and scary happened that night
I really wish it hadn't
I was afraid to tell mommy
Because I didn't know what she was going to say
Now that I'm twelve I still think about what you have been doing to me for the past couple years
Now you have sexually abused me one to many times
I have lost my virginity at the age of 7
I really want you to stop now because I could get pregnant
Sometimes I wish I was dead
I still didn't tell anyone except for a couple of my friends
You told me not to tell
I wish you would have just left me alone
Is this because I wouldn't let you adopt me
Or is it because I'm really pretty
You don't do this to my little sister
All these thoughts won't leave my mind
I wish I was in heaven
But now I don't know if god will accept me
Why did you have to put me through this
Is this all a joke to you
Because in my mind and heart I'm really hurt
I really need to know :(

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  • Rachele MacPherson by Rachele MacPherson
  • 7 years ago

It's been 35 years. I never told anyone because my mom relies on him financially. She condones his terrible behavior to this day because he pays the bills for her. I live across the street from him. He treats me and my kids meanly. I hate him to the core. I want to tell to get him away from us. I don't tell because I know that my mom will be lost. Any advice?

  • Josie Johannsen by Josie Johannsen
  • 8 years ago

I can completely relate to this poem. Ever since I was a little girl about 5 years old and my step dad came into my life he has been molesting me. I am now 15 and I live with my biological dad, I never told anyone why I wanted to move which hurt my mom even more but that was better than letting myself constantly be hurt. The worst part is I have to see my mom every break, which is okay with me but he's still there and he hasn't changed. This is the first time I am coming out about this and I think all rape and abuse victims need to band together and let it out it feels so much better.

  • Angelina by Angelina, Florida
  • 9 years ago

I have friends who haven't told their moms or dads until its to late. You don't want to end up like them TELL SOMEONE BEFORE SOMETHING HAPPENS.

  • Alex by Alex, Texas
  • 10 years ago

I've been through the same pain you have all been through. My real dad, step dad and my big brother have molested me. I think it all started when I was 5 years old when my dad started touching me everywhere since I was small. I didn't know what to do but then it all stopped when my mom divorced him so we don't live together anymore, but then came my big brother who started going through puberty when their hormones change. I think I was 7 years old when my big brother started touching me. I told my mom and she gave him a big lecture so for a while it was good because I came to Texas and he stayed over there. But then my step dad came into my life and the same story kept on repeating. Now that I'm 15, I'm older and my body has changed. I lost my virginity to my big brother because he raped me and still does just like my step dad and I don't wanna tell my mother because I'm scared of her health and I don't want to tell a school counselor because they will take my mom away from me. Sometimes I just feel like dying, cutting myself but I'm really scared. I'm 15 and don't do anything my best solution is just to keep a secret until I die :( I hope this will never happen to anyone else. how can I escape this torture I'm scared unprotected and very mad at myself for not doing anything.

  • Rachel Forrester by Rachel Forrester
  • 6 years ago

I can relate. It defines my whole being and my life. My bio-father sexually abused me from before I was 3 years old. I can't remember any of it. Then the sexual abuse must've stopped at age...8. But he still continued to emotionally abuse me and just ruin my life and soul in general. But I wanted to comment on the comment Alex from Texas made. Your story is very sad, and I just hope that it being 4 years from your comment you are in a better place. I really hope that you can escape from that hell.

  • Manilize Adonis by Manilize Adonis, Eerste River
  • 11 years ago

My sister went thru the exact sane thing for 7 years by our uncle. When she turned 23 she hung herself in our bathroom. I know it's tough for you sweetie pie, but you got to end what he is doing before it drives you over the edge. Remember a mother knows her daughter your mommy will believe you and I'm praying for you ............tonight when I silently pray I will ask god to protect you and anyone else who is getting abused.

  • Alexander by Alexander, USA
  • 11 years ago

Please, honey, PLEASE, tell somebody, if not for yourself, for every other sweet, innocent person going through this! PLEASE! You are so much better than what he put you through, and you can make a difference.

  • Thomas Dowling by Thomas Dowling
  • 11 years ago

This is Thomas and I just want to say that you need to TELL SOMEBODY. You're a survivor and don't let nobody tell you different.

  • Angelica by Angelica, Houston Tx
  • 11 years ago

I really hope that one day you finally tell your mother. What this guy did to you was not right and he should be brought to justice. I know it's hard I've been there before but I told my mother and he was handled. Please be strong and tell your mother she needs to know.

  • Norma by Norma, Houston Tx.
  • 11 years ago

I am so very sorry for what happened to you please say something I know its hard and you're scared. I was to my uncle, my cousins, my step father also molested me at age 4 to 13. They told me if I said anything they will hurt me so I never did. Also when I was 12 I got raped and beat, when I was 14 got raped again when I turned 15 my cousin raped me lastly when I was 23 I got raped by two men after getting off of work. I had gotten pregnant by one of them men I kept my daughter it wasn't her fault that they raped me and she was conceived. I'm still hurt and cry cause my whole life is the same cycle over and over. It will be very hard but I don't want you suffering more than you have to please say something.

  • Dusk by Dusk, Texas
  • 12 years ago

Dear I'm 14 and it's happened to me. Go to cps. No your school counselor they will get him out of your life faster then you think. Trust me it happens and you will never see him again. I promise.

  • Amber by Amber, Minnesota
  • 12 years ago

I can relate too. I was abused from age 4 to age 17 verbally, physically, and emotionally. My ex step father always had an interest in me but I didn't know until I was 16 that it was a sexual interest. He tried to rape me when I was 17 and I not only kicked him where it counts I also called the police and I told my mom the next morning. She said "Oh he's your daddy he doesn't mean it that way." I took him to court and he backed out of the trial once he realized he would go to jail if he proceeded. TELL SOMEONE!! Anyone can help. If your mother doesn't help you then she isn't a real mom and you need to be with people who will love you and protect you. I'm turning 19 this year so none of this was too long ago. I have a restraining order against the bastard. Things will get better if you speak out but you need to fight for it. If you don't fight for yourself how can you expect anyone else too?

  • Hannah Arendt by Hannah Arendt
  • 12 years ago

I know how this feels and really if you tell it wouldn't be all bad. I went through this with my own father. The abuse started at 5 and ended at 10 and I finally told when I was 13 and now I'm 14. Everything isn't over for me yet and trust me it isn't over for you yet. You should act like the big sis that you are because if you do you know that your little sis will be out of danger and won't have to go through all the things that you did.

  • Amber by Amber
  • 12 years ago

I was sexually abused by my moms boyfriend. I was seven as well. I told my mom. She didn't care. By the time I told someone who cared I was 10... Now I live at my fathers. My moms boyfriend is not in jail, but soon should be. Because he touched my sister, who was smart enough to tell the cops.

  • Crystal by Crystal, Texas
  • 12 years ago

I can relate to you. I was 6 years old when my stepdad had sexually abused me... I went so many years keeping it a secret because I was so scared to tell my mom unsure if she would believe me.. when I was 14 I told my boyfriend what was happening. He forced me to tell my mom.. when I told her thankfully she believed me. I am now 16.. my stepdad is in jail and will be for 15 year.. I really do think you should tell your mom.. if not your grandma.. it will really help get things off your chest and be able to open up to someone..

  • Caleb Creasman by Caleb Creasman, California
  • 12 years ago

I'm probably the ONLY male who will leave something here. I'm studying to be a lawyer to put away monsters like your step dad..... and believe me or not there are actually good men in the world. (and a lot of really really bad ones) :( YOU HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE. Good people cannot help unless you do.

  • Andie Marie Stephens by Andie Marie Stephens
  • 12 years ago

BABE! I have to admit- I was never raped, or sexually abused as you have been but I have been abused. I know the feeling that your alone, and that no one will believe you. But this is the first step. Show this poem to your mom, your grandma, a friend SOMEONE! Let word get out that this nasty horrible person is doing this to you. Let him suffer the way he has made you suffer. He deserves punishment hunny, and doing this will make sure he does. I know it seems hard to do- but tell her. I promise- it'll get easier.

  • Just Colorado by Just Colorado
  • 12 years ago

I hope you say something because seriously this is not right at all please it will get better.

  • Silenced by Silenced, California
  • 12 years ago

I'm very sorry this has happened to you...I read your story and it's like you're telling my story...it also happened to me at the age of 7 and now I barely turned 13. I haven't told my mother anything because I'm afraid she'll deny me...I'll just keep it to my soul all my life...and hope one day it could all end :(

  • Rhonda by Rhonda, Louisiana
  • 13 years ago

I am so sorry you are going through this. I can relate to your story, its like me reading my own story. I only wished I would have done things differently and told my mom. but I waited until I was old enough to get married before I told her, and she called me a liar. That hurt more than anything, only if I had told her years before. So now is your time to SHINE BABY GIRL!! TAKE ALL HIS RIGHTS AWAY NOW. YOU HAVE SUFFERED LONG ENOUGH.

  • Veronica by Veronica, Lasvegas
  • 13 years ago

I really wish you would tell your mother. I can not tell you that it will make things better, but you have to try . What that coward does to you is disgusting . And it brakes my heart to know that you are going through this . You are too young . If there was any way I could help you I wouldn't hesitate . I'm so so unbelievably sorry. I'm even more sorry that this message is all I can give you .

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