For My Dad

I sit here and wait. I wait for your chest to rise; I wait for you to open your eyes. I lay in bed and wait to hear... to hear that door open and Mum calmly come out, because that means you didn't bow out. I watch you smile, to hell with the pain, your spirit lifts when you see us all together again.

I know you're in pain, it's a struggle every day, I know the goodbye that hangs in the air, but my heart isn't ready for the break that's waiting there. I try not to get stuck on what's to come, I don't want to grieve early, let's just have some rum. Let's laugh at the past, and live in the now, create new memories while time allows.

I'm getting married soon, how joyous that'll be, I really hope you'll be there to see.... To see the man that loves me fiercely, my new protector, God bless him really! He's made me his and will hold my hand just as you did when I was young. I'll be alright Dad; you can trust that truth. We will make you proud everyday through.

So, rest a while and help me plan. No matter what, you'll be right there when.... when I walk that isle, when I say I do... no matter what, my whole life I'll see you.
But when you go, wait for me there, I'll meet you at the gate, with soft sunlight dancing in your hair. We will sing and laugh and hug once more, and walk through heaven, at peace forevermore.