Suicide Silence

God forbid, I say the word suicide.  But that's the truth.  I couldn't keep you here, no matter how hard I tried.

Your heart and mind had so much heaviness that always weighed you down.  But you wouldn't share it with me. You never made a sound.

Now, I feel so lost without you, and the days seem so long. My world no longer makes any sense, and your brother is my only happiness, now that you're gone.

No, people don't want to hear the word suicide.  They don't want me to say, that's how I lost you.  But that's not for them to decide. 

Depression is real and they need to wake up and see. Just hoping it'll get better, could leave them grieving just like me.

One last thing that I need you to know, "I'll never forgive myself for not doing the things that I should've done.  But Zachary, I'll love you forever and you'll always be my baby boy.  You'll always be my son".