What Did I Do?

• by Jane Doe
• 6 years ago

My uncle is abusive. He hurts me and my grandma, and I currently have bruises, and he has made my grandma bleed. My grandma is his mom, so even though he hurts her, she never tells. I called the cops the times that it happened, but she has always denied it. Every time I call the cops she stops talking to me for weeks. My uncle still lives with me and is still abusive at times. This happened to me when I was younger by my mother's boyfriend, except when he did it, it was much worse. He would hurt me, my mom, and my two brothers. He even made me sleep under the stairs and threw me into walls. I haven't seen one of my brothers in over eight years. I am 12 years old.

• by Beyonce G., Fort Worth
• 11 years ago

Hi, when I was 4 I was touched sexually by my own cousin and he was only 15. When I was 6 I was touched by my own uncle and he was only 12. When I was 7 I was forced to play a new game that left my breath stinking bad ( I was forced to put my mouth on something that looked like a sausage ) by another cousin that was only 16. So you see now I'm 13 and know better now. I know how to fight. I never told cause I loved my family too much to tell, but I'm still innocent and thank GOD I haven't lost a thing down south. I don't get upset anymore cause their time is coming, at least that what GOD says. It's in God hands now and it's my cousins and uncle turn to confess the truth.

• by Lauren
• 11 years ago

Totally relate here :/ I am now 17 and was abused by my uncle and a cousin from a different side of the family till I turned 13 and told to save my two younger cousins (both girls). Went to court 14 months later in which he got no conviction. I am safe the two cousins are not. My aunt chose not to accept what had happened and has put her children in danger whilst I was pushed out the scene unable to do nothing to help them. I have not seen my cousins since I told and they probably won't remember me now.

• by Ruby, Brawley CA
• 12 years ago

I read your poem and it reminded me of my own past. I was sexually abused by my step father for 6 years. It started when I was 3 till I was 9 years old. I lived in so much fear that I learned to ignore my past. Until one day I could not take the pain any longer. But then I realized that my little sister went to live with my step father after the death of my mother. I knew that it was to late to speak and get justice for myself at the age of 16. I knew that I had to do it for my sister because she is in a wheel chair and depends a lot on other people for help with showering and getting dressed. I spoke up for her and it turns out she is scared like I once was and claims she does not remember. She hates me for taking her daddy away but I can only hope that when she gets older she will understand that what I did was in her best interest.

• by Charliann, Texas
• 13 years ago

when I was 6 or 7 my step dad raped me and I never told anyone I regret it. I'm now 13 and I've stared my period and I'm afraid he will do it again....

• by Victoria, NY
• 13 years ago

I read your poem and it reminded me of how I was to young to understand what was happening. My cousin finally stopped for a reason I forgot, he made it seem like it was just a secret. I was 6 then now I'm 14 and I just told my parents this year. He sadly will never go to jail. I wanted to thank you for showing me I'm not the only one who it took time to tell.

• by Chelsea
• 14 years ago

I was 10 years old and I went to church where I met friends, however at the age of 11 the church minister began touching me in places I didn't want him to and where he shouldn't. Many time I had told him no but he never listened to me and said that if I told he would kill my family. I was so scared by the time I was 16 year old I knew that this couldn't go on and so I told on him and he got arrested but was let off. I went through hell and back for 5 years of my life not knowing what to expect. As a young child I was petrified and to some extent I still am today I hate so many people in my life including myself and because I hate myself I self harm and have done for almost 6 years yet it seems to help ease my pain.

• by Danielle
• 14 years ago

I am 16 years old. I read your poem and it reminded me of what I went through as a young girl as well. I was about 9-10 and was molested by a family friend. by the age of 11 I was forced to tell by my mother because the same man was molesting my sister and tried to start on my cousin. so I finally told and it took about a year and a half to two years to get him put in jail for ten years two suspended. which means he only spent two years in jail and he now has to register as a sex offender every where he moves. that is what helped me out and the fact that I as well write poetry on it.