Grandpa I'm Missing You

Grandpa you were here just the other day
How could you just fade away
As tears raced down my face
I tried to picture us in a peaceful place
As they told me you were gone
I couldn't hold in any tears for long
If you could of just stayed for one more year
I would of been ready for all the tears
it seems like just yesterday
we were close together
I never even got to say goodbye
You were too far away
A couple days later I didn't even want to see you laying there
so cold and lifeless you weren't there
As I stood by your coffin with you in there
I stood there for hours with my family trying to be near me 
I couldn't help but push them away
my heart and soul broke when I saw you fading in the ground that day
you took them with you when you went up to heaven
right now its been month seven
As I stand by your grave
I think about all our memories I saved
your smile and laugh and the love that was for me
I was like your daughter your baby girl
you made me happy, lifted me up when I fell
Right now all I feel is pain, weak and helpless
I feel hated and depressed
I cry myself to sleep
hoping I could be with you
my eyes are bloodshot and red
I had a dream last night goodbye was all you said
I tried to hold on but you just slipped away
please don't leave me I still cry to this day
I never stopped loving you
I'll never stop missing you
I'm thinking about you Grandpa!