STOP Suicide Poem

A Poem on battling dark thoughts

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Please don't run and hide. It sounds like you are hurting inside. Please be strong and try to talk to someone about how you are feeling. You are worth it you are not useless or worthless. You...

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How I Feel


Published: June 2007

Sometimes I just wish, I could run away and hide.
No matter where I go though, these feelings stay inside.
How can I stay here and live each day a lie,
When all I want to do is close my eyes and die?
I see the pain I cause you, with every tear I shed.
I plead with you now mum, let me go instead?
I wish I could take you with me, to a happy place,
Whether it exists though, is time for me to face.
Can I ask for your forgiveness? For you to set me free,
It may seem ungrateful, but this life's not meant for me.
Thank you for all your love, for all the time we shared,
It means the world to me, to know that someone cared.



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  • Addison Anderson by Addison Anderson
  • 2 years ago

Sometimes I do too many things wrong. I've created lies to get attention. When I got the attention it was not the type I was interested in getting. I just want to run and hide from the fear and feeling that is stuck inside of me. I just let it go. I want to be free. Alone. Invisible. I feel like I have caused all of my issues. If I would disappear, people would not remember me. I have always been alone. Nobody knows who I really am. Not my mom, my dad, my sister, not even my closest friends. I don't even know myself. I want to just dissolve, hide, disappear.

  • Bill by Bill, Massachusetts
  • 5 years ago

What you've written, it's incredible. You have put how I often feel into words that I couldn't. Being able to read your poem is and will continue to be a source of strength when life seems to dark. Thank you.

  • Cristal by Cristal, Texas
  • 5 years ago

I would just like to tell you that your poem helped me a lot because I was thinking about committing suicide to myself and also I would like to tell you that I will be presenting your poem in My English class as my semester final, I hope you do not mind :)

  • Skyler Gardner by Skyler Gardner
  • 5 years ago

I have battled suicide for about 8 months now. Sometimes it feels like a losing fight. I cut a lot, I tried to overdose, I don't eat hardly anything. I hurt too many people to really want to try and live. I made my ex cry only 3 hours ago, in school. I'll try to make it until November 13, because then I go to California to see my older brother graduate out of boot camp. I want to see him before I vanish.
This poem basically describes my life. Great job.

  • Ashia S. by Ashia S.
  • 5 years ago

This poem really has a lot of meaning to me. I love it. Truly amazing thanks for writing it. It describes my life perfectly.

  • Monster by Monster
  • 5 years ago

Very beautiful poem. I can relate too, as now that I finally believe it is NOT crazy of me to feel suicidal. I used to harm myself every time I felt anger or depression or anything like that. My family never helped.. Instead, they helped in making things worse for me. It's like it was compulsory for me to smile everyday. It's hard to fake sometimes, it felt like I was bullied at my very own house that never felt like a home to me. Gladly, I am much stronger these days :) , and I believe in myself and choices and thoughts more than I used to before. And to anyone who's feeling suicidal atm, I'm right here <3

  • Aimee by Aimee
  • 1 year ago

I have periods of depression. Just this morning, I had missed half of my first hour from crying in the office. I have trust issues and a good reason for it. I used to self-harm, but my family found out and I promised them I wouldn't do it again. But I've been crying every night again, and I just want everything to stop. I can't seem to find a source of these feelings except for my social anxiety issues. I feel so alone. Like nobody cares. I'm afraid of myself. I'm afraid of what will happen when I can't take it anymore. I'm reaching out for help from people who might understand. I don't want to die. I'm not going to die. But I want these voices to go away. My "Happy Music" is a temporary solution for me.

  • Stephanie Oklahoma City by Stephanie Oklahoma City
  • 6 years ago

I tried committing suicide. Since I was 12 years old I told myself that if I kill myself no one would care or notice that I'm gone. I hate my life I feel worthless and useless. I feel nasty, I feel used, I feel that my life ended when I was raped by two men. After what those guys did that to me I wanted to kill myself because I said my life is over I give up and all this. I tried overdosing with different types of pills. I cut myself because I feel ugly and fat and useless. I feel that no one cares about me I really wish I was dead, but thanks to a friend I didn't kill myself. She showed me that I had one person that would hate to see me gone. Great poem keep it up you're a great poem writer. God Bless You.

  • Bernice   Arruda by Bernice Arruda
  • 2 years ago

Please don't run and hide. It sounds like you are hurting inside. Please be strong and try to talk to someone about how you are feeling. You are worth it you are not useless or worthless. You are somebody. There are people that do care. Talk to someone that you trust. You truly did not deserve the things that have happened to you. It is not your fault at all. Please, if you feel you are a danger to yourself, go to the emergency room and ask for help. You deserve to get the help that you need. You are very special in your own way. And please don't ever give up. I was raped by my brother and by my uncle as a child. And there were many times that I have tried to take my own life and very truly wanted to take my own life. There are some days that I don't know how I make it through. You are not alone, although sometimes it feels like you are. Please don't ever give up. Best of luck.

  • Rohit Pande by Rohit Pande
  • 3 years ago

Don't u worry you have a friend in India too....whom you never knew.... You are a brave woman .....I feel sorry for what you have been through..... But remember. ...though we do not know each other...I love you.....Keep Shining and Smiling always. Love N Light, God bless.

  • Valerie by Valerie, Texas
  • 6 years ago

This poem is how I feel to the "T". Yesterday I was planning to commit suicide but my father stopped me from going through with it. At least I know only one person in my family cares but that's hardly enough. My dad told my mom and all she did was just shrug her shoulder. It's hard to live in a house with someone who wouldn't even care if I died. I wonder if I died tomorrow will she be there crying for me wondering why she didn't help me. What gets to me is that my older sister tried to commit suicide and she was there for her but she won't be here for me so it make me wonder was me being born even worth it.

  • Omen by Omen
  • 6 years ago

Teresa, I don't think that's a good idea. This will encourage her to do it.

  • Teresa by Teresa
  • 6 years ago

Thank you, thank you SO much for writing this!! This is just so...beautiful ♥ You really touched me with this poem. I just can't explain how much I can relate to this...I need to show this to a friend, she has severe depression and tries to kill herself every morning. Thank you again for writing this beautiful, touching piece!!

  • Richard Wilson by Richard Wilson, Pittsburgh
  • 7 years ago

I have been battling depression since I was 17. I was totally depressed my junior year in high school. My father became ill at the time and I was bullied and teased through out high school. I was making a lot of attempts and God sent people to rescue me every time I tried to go through the heinous act. I am now 32 I still struggle, but medication and prayers helped me.
I am really glad that you did not go about with your plan. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.

  • Cassidy by Cassidy
  • 7 years ago

I'm not happy to be alive, Everybody in my family can see it it's hard to talk to my mom about how I'm feeling because if I say something she doesn't want to hear she tells me to leave or go away I don't know how to talk to her to tell her how I feel, So lately I have been telling my aunt that I want to commit suicide, I think one of my sisters got on my Facebook and read all my messages I sent to my aunt. I can't stand living with my mom she grounds me a lot for dumb reasons and it makes it impossible for me to go out and share my feelings with my friends that actually care about me! I'm sick and tired and listening to my mom nag at me for something I didn't do! I run in my room and cry and listen to music and stay in there all day, my mom tried talking to me but I can't stand listening everytime she yells I think of a new way do kill myself, I came close this one day. I almost overdosed, I don't know what to do? I'm never happy. And my mom knows it, but she doesn't try to help at all.

  • Lyn by Lyn Poet
  • 7 years ago

WOW Ana get help from a health care professional! You are clearly not alone, have a look at other peoples stories including the one about a mother who lost her son! If you can think of people who it would impact on then there are definitely people who care about you so do something about it - only you can change your life - don't leave it up to someone else!

  • Ana by Ana
  • 7 years ago

I'm afraid to say it out loud
But this
This is something that I think about a lot
and the scary part is that I can actually see myself doing it now.
I look out the window and imagine life without me in it passing by
and how it'll be
I think of all the people it would effect and push that aside
I think about how and when I'd actually do that
I want all this pain gone because I'm tired of feeling lost
I feel lost

  • San Diego CA by San Diego CA
  • 7 years ago

I've say the same words, and even if I've been so close on doing it that special love one always stops me. All this stories/poems really help me and make me know that suicide is not the option thanks a lot :-)

  • Theresa by Theresa, Ohio
  • 7 years ago

I am so glad you decided to stay. I lost my son Dylan on thanksgiving day. he was 19. there are no words to describe how I feel inside right now. I would give anything to have him back. I wish he would have stayed to. I loved him with all my heart and soul. I wish he would have come and talked to me or reached out to a friend. I am so lost with out him. As a mother of someone who has recently lost a son I would encourage anyone who feels like the want to take there own life to seek help somewhere, anywhere. Reach out and ask for help. There is nothing that is worth taking you own life. What ever he was feeling at that time he couldn't feel how much he was loved. I will miss them hugs, visits, kisses n calls. no grandchildren to love. if you are having these types of thoughts and feelings do not wait. Ask for help immediately. the things that seem so overwhelming can be worked through. I can tell you your moms and dads do love you very very much...

  • Jessylee Carey by Jessylee Carey
  • 7 years ago

Omg thank god you are still here today you made
Me open my eyes and think, but everyone
Knows that there is a place on this planet
For everyone even if they make mistakes

  • Jennifer by Jennifer
  • 8 years ago

I've been thinking of suicide for such a long time now, and I thought that I was the only person who's going through this. But after reading this, it's nice to know that I'm not the only one who goes through this. I never liked my life but the thought of how my friends would feel just reassures me for awhile and I'm so thankful for this poem.

  • Joey Migliorini by Joey Migliorini
  • 8 years ago

I don't think you understand how much this poem helped. Three friends of mine (one of them has been my friend since 1st grade) died in a drunk driving accident May 15, 2011. I constantly think of suicide just to be with her again but everytime I think about it, I think of my family and what they would go through. Thanks for writing this poem it helped a lot.

  • Unknown by Unknown
  • 8 years ago

This poem really touched. Reminds me of my cousin who committed suicide this past weekend. I miss her so dearly. :(

  • Here by Here
  • 8 years ago

I can't say that I'm glad that there is someone else out there who has felt the same one deserves to feel this way. no one. I'm going through this right now. My mother knows what I'm capable of and she knows that if the depression gets to be too much that I will follow through with my plan. I've tried to commit suicide SO many times. but I always end up waking up to find that I'm back into my own personal hell. I wake up to find that I'm back into a nightmare. I'm sorry you felt this way. I really am.....

  • Anthony by Anthony, IN
  • 8 years ago

This is a great poem. Very well written. I have had the same feelings myself still do time to time. I'm glad you didn't go through because the world would of been missing out on a great person.

  • Char by Char, Essex
  • 8 years ago

I had to let you know how very beautiful this poem is. Very sad, but beautifully written. Unfortunately, I can really relate to this piece of writing, and am having a very difficult time with things right now. Reading this poem, and the thought of how my parents would feel if I ever committed suicide, has completely reduced me to tears, and I honestly believe I could never go through with it. Your poem is very touching, and I'd like to say thank you.

  • Lisa by Lisa, Guyana
  • 8 years ago

I like this poem very much! It touches me like a hand and I felt the words. Very inspirational!
Yeah I do contemplate suicide a lot but can't go through with it. I must go on! Great write my friend! God bless!

  • Anuradha by Anuradha
  • 9 years ago

Whenever I get into problems.. I cry a lot and blame to god for all that, get so hyper and just think of committing suicide.. Many times I tried my best to do so but every time I failed... Don't know why I failed but I understand that the god doesn't want to me to do so.. And I've promised him that I'll never ever think of all that rubbish... Thanx for writing such a good poem. God bless you.

  • Lyn by Lyn Poet
  • 9 years ago

There is so much help out there now regarding mental health, you need to find what works for you - be that medication, psychiatry, psychology, etc. There is nothing in this life you cannot overcome! It is a hard struggle but I for one refuse to play the victim and I will not put my friends/family through the heartache of me taking my own life. Go to your doctor. This is YOUR life, you are important, you deserve to experience all life has to offer, no good will come from ending it. Good luck.

  • Jake by Jake
  • 9 years ago

How did you overcome this feeling? I have been feeling like this for quite some time and recently held a gun to my head but couldn't pull the trigger despite how badly I wanted to. Any advice on how to get past this feeling would be great. Great poem by the way.

  • Zoe by Zoe, UK
  • 9 years ago

Wow incredible poem. Wish I could write like that.
I know how you have felt because I have that all the time. I haven't attempted suicide but I have seriously considered it and I have slit my wrists and other places. If it wasn't for a friend at school I wouldn't be here any more.
Beautiful poem, thank god you didn't go through with it you have a good future ahead of you. You could publish poems at that standard, honestly.

  • Hannah Cooper by Hannah Cooper
  • 9 years ago

Wow. yes this poem is... amazing. I actually want to cry because I want to know that someone actually cares for ME. Not the "pretty" mask that people see. But the person on the inside that's always wanting to cry out for help.

  • Charlie by Charlie
  • 9 years ago

I'm also using this poem (no plagiarizing either) for an English project, but it's really nice to hear about other people not taking their lives. I recently went through very tough times with depression and occasional thoughts of suicide and social anxiety, but I am currently feeling so much better. We are put on Earth for a reason, so it's good that we are able to pull through tough times.

  • Amazing by Amazing
  • 9 years ago

I'm using this for my English project (NOT PLAGIARIZED, I JUST HAVE TO COMPARE A POEM) but this is so great, I'm so glad you didn't hurt yourself and could share this great poem with me.

  • Taylah Morgan by Taylah Morgan
  • 9 years ago

This is actually how I feel right now...
I wanted to print this poem out and give it to my mom, but I'm scared that she will freak out and go insane. So I'm not going tooo...
But, like Emma said, "I am scared I wouldn't be able to do it" that's my point to..
So thank you. You're an amazing writer.!!

  • Keisha by Keisha
  • 10 years ago

It's beautiful. I've been to that point too. But I'm so glad now that I didn't go through with it. Life is beautiful and so worth it, even though I learned that the hard way. Keep it up, you're an amazing writer.

  • Sam by Sam
  • 10 years ago

Wow this is touching.. it explains what I feel like now

  • Jill Knight by Jill Knight
  • 10 years ago

This really touched me.. I have been to that point. I have been to the point of wanting to commit suicide and it is a scary place. I tried to write a letter like this once but I shredded it. To this day I think that the only reason I didn't go through with it was because I was scared I would fail and I would have to face everyone again. I was scared I would not even be able to succeed at suicide. I am glad I didn't though and I have given that part of my life to God. I have found joy in him and I am so happy I am still alive today and did not end my life. I am so glad that you did not go through with it and that you are moving on and putting this behind you. thanks for posting this it touched my heart

  • Larenda by Larenda
  • 10 years ago

I know people probably say this a lot but I know how you feel. Suicide is something I often think about. No one in my life really cared about me. I'm the outcast of my whole family. But as they saw how close to death I was they showed me. People do care if you let them into your life and tell them whatever is on your mind.
Thank you for sharing.

  • Gigi by Gigi
  • 10 years ago

I know how you feel. I've felt this way before. This was an incredible poem! Incredible, truly!
Thank you for sharing and God bless you.

  • Adrienne by Adrienne
  • 10 years ago

Wow, this is amazing!! I mean it. it really opened my eyes to what people are going through everyday. sometimes I feel the same way...I know to watch out for everyone to see if everything is OK. I'm glad you didn't go through with hurting yourself and all the people that REALLY DO CARE:)

  • Marissa by Marissa
  • 10 years ago

omg so so sad!
I've felt this way before...always attempt but never can do

  • Lula by Lula
  • 10 years ago

I'm actually crying.....

  • lalala by lalala
  • 10 years ago

Well at the moment I'm thanking god you didn't go through with it because you are an extremely promising writer! That was amazing. Well done.

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