What Ifs

Two faint lines,
A few days late.
Excitement is an understatement,
Couldn't wait to save the date.

A new little life
Growing inside of me.
The mind began to wonder
With all possibilities.

A true gift from God,
A blessing from above.
Mummy and Daddy smiled.
You'd be safe with all our love.

My tummy kept on growing,
I was convinced there was maybe two,
But either way, I didn't mind;
I just couldn't wait to meet you.

So we booked an early scan
To see out little bean,
But you were smaller than expected.
No heartbeat could be seen.

We cried and rang the doctors,
Who booked another scan.
They confirmed that there were two of you,
But things weren't going according to plan.

Twin babies in the womb,
One bigger than the other.
Still no heartbeats seen on the screen,
Devastated, lost and lonely mother.

We were told to wait a week
To see if you both progressed,
So patiently we waited,
Truly putting faith to the test.

Of course we prayed to God
To breathe these babies life.
A full week went past in hope.
The next scan revealed more strife.

Both sleeping in the same sac,
Unfortunately neither of you had grown.
But Mummy's body showed no signs.
She never would have known.

A missed miscarriage they say,
An abortion of the womb,
But nothing takes away what's happened,
Our babies gone too soon.

So I cry and weep in sorrow,
Think about what could have been.
So blessed to carry both of you,
Problems couldn't have been foreseen.

For now I grieve in silence.
At night I cry with pain.
You're gone but not forgotten.
My heart will never be the same.

Thank you for choosing us.
We loved your presence within me,
You'll always be our favourite "what ifs."
Love always, Mummy and Daddy.