Sad But True

Can you tuck me into bed, Mama?
Don't forget to kiss me goodnight.
Can you tell me a story, Mama,
Before you turn out the lights?

Can you kiss my forehead, Mama,
Like you used to do before?
Can you at least tell me you love me, Mama,
Before you close the bedroom door?

Why don't you wanna talk to me, Mama?
I miss the sound of your voice.
Mama, can you please say somethin'?
I guess if you don't, it's your choice.

But Mama, I have to tell you somethin'...

Even though you're quiet, Mama,
I know what you're goin' through.
I understand why you cry now, Mama,
'Cause I'm hurtin' too.

Why'd you have to leave us, Daddy?
I still had some growin' up to do.
Did we somehow make you mad, Daddy?
Or were we not good enough for you?

Do you know that Mama cries at night, Daddy?
I think it's 'cause she sleeps alone.
Daddy, can you please call the house tonight,
'Cause Mama is waitin' by the phone.

You know Mama still loves you, Daddy?
But I hate you for what you've done.
You put tears in Mama's eyes, Daddy.
And in the eyes of YOUR son.

I thought you said you'd never leave, Daddy?
You said we'd be pals, you and me.
But you broke your promise, Daddy,
Like you broke this family.

It feels so right, what an evil treat.
Hunger pains gnaw yet you cannot eat.
You'll never defeat this hell you've created.
Is it everything you anticipated?
Your happiness faded, your world now black.
Running endeavor forever, you can never go back.

The devil has you and will devour you whole.
Lifeless and pathetic, you've sold your soul.
You can't get out, you can't escape.
Just one hit is all it takes.
Sketching, crashing, uncontrollable shakes.
Delusions, confusion, your heart now breaks.

The sweet taste you'll always crave.
The addiction you'll fight until your grave.
Random rage you can't explain.
Guilt and sadness, forever pain.

Awake for days without sleep.
Inhale the smoke, smooth and deep.
Inhuman pleasure as you release your breath.
That will soon decease and turn to death.
Your tongue goes numb, such a rush.
Tingling touch, your cheeks feel flushed.

Never enough, you need much more.
Panic paranoia, shut and lock the door.
Absorbed to the core and lost in thought.
Laying on the floor waiting to rot.
Sought for help but nobody cares.
Cold and scared, disgusted stares.

You're beginning to look like the rest of them.
Frantically searching for your friend.
Under the couch? Under the table?
Another statistic, another label.

You greedily need
Another hit.
One after another, you cannot quit.
A bottomless pit of sorrows and lies.
Consuming your mind, you won't be fine.
Blinded by the crackling rock.
Trapped in a room with an unbreakable lock.

You'll depend on it for happiness.
But the bliss you feel doesn't really exist.

Haunting you in your nightmare dreams.
Open your mouth to release silent screams.
Help me please, take it all away.
Pull me back when I go astray.

I sit alone here every day,
Thinking of the child you took away.
She was my heart, she was my soul.
She was the thing that made me whole.

I have no hope, I have no faith, I have no energy,
She was the only pride and joy that rose inside of me,
And now there's just an empty space where laughter used to dwell.
My heart has got no purpose now, it's just an empty shell.

As I look at children play, in parks and on the beach,
I think about my biggest loss, the child I cannot reach.
Sometimes I wonder what she thinks when her mind remembers me.
Does she think about the dad she lost, the dad she never sees.

My days are filled with anger, my nights with painful grief.
How I face each day without her is way beyond belief.
Her toys are strewn about the floor, her bed is empty now.
Abandoned like the autumn leaves shaken from the bough.

There's nothing left for me to have but distant memories,
Of the times we had when she was young and full of energy.
I hear her voice inside my head calling out to me.
And when I close my eyes to sleep, her face is all I see.

But deep within the darkness that lives inside of me,
There is a tiny glimmer, a spark that's hard to see.
That spark is just a remnant of the love that is inside
The love which cannot disappear, the love I cannot hide.

I lay here and think of how pretty you are
Daddy's little angel shines like a star
I'm sorry this happened to your little heart
That Mommy and Daddy had to split apart

One day I just hope you will see
All I ever wanted was my family
But your Mommy and Daddy
Were never meant to be

I just pray this doesn't affect your life
'Cause it kills me inside to not have my wife
We had our up and downs
Now all I get is a small, simple frown

It's hard to write this for you
'Cause a family's love is all that you knew
Don't cry baby girl
'Cause your Daddy loves you.

Broken dreams
Turning into silent screams.
Listening to the loud noise.
Oh boy, how it destroys
The way things used to be.
A family now starting to flee,
Broken into pieces.
Now my heart screeches.
Deep inside my heart
Everything's falling apart.

If you look into my eyes
You'll then start to realize
The things I say are lies.
Can't you hear my cries?

I wanna go back to the start
Before I got a broken heart.
I miss my family as a whole,
But life decided to take a toll.
If I reach inside of me,
Maybe, just maybe, I'll be free.

What started it? What really went wrong?
Was our family's love not as strong?
It's hard to believe my mother's the one who's gone
Every night I cry and think about what went wrong
I ask, why is she gone, why'd she leave, why's she not here?
Like a waterfall, my eyes fill up, pouring tear after tear
Sometimes I wish my life were different, in a much better way
Hoping that God would give me just one good day
I think to myself and ask God, why? Why isn't my life so great?
I guess he says back to me that it's just my eternal fate
Maybe someone out there will hear my cry
Praying for me, helping me get by
Mom, I still love you, even though you left me
But I still need you, I need you, Mom