My Suicidal Past Truama

Published: September 18, 2022

because everyone goes through something bad in there life the reason I became so suicidal is when the kids at school acted like they were so perfect. but in reality no body in the world is perfect every human being makes mistakes at some point in there lives they just don't like showing that they have made a mistake in the past. don't get me wrong I love everyone but I hate how the girls in school act like they are so freaking perfect but honestly no one is perfect at all in the whole wide world

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1. Scars

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- By Laura R
- Published: October 2015
Poem About Winning The Battle Over Self-Harm

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Here on my arm lies a mark that I made.
When I was so low, I cut with a blade
To punish my body for being a mess,
Though here is my testament, I must confess...

Here on my arm lies a mark that I made.
When I was so low, I cut with a blade
To punish my body for being a mess,
Though here is my testament, I must confess...

That seeing these scars left on my arms, legs, and chest
Makes me realize I was in a place of no rest;
I feel guilty inside for leaving this token.
Now I will see and remember that I was so broken.

But seeing these scars helps me see
That I survived so much trauma and now I am free.
So I ask you now to stand with me and fight,
To show all these demons what they're doing is not right.

You won the battle of good versus bad.
You are still alive and are no longer sad.
Here on my arm lies a mark of survival.
I got through my hate and beat my self-rival.
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2. The Darkness

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- By Dallas E. Krystof
- Published: July 2018
Loved Ones Not Understanding Your Depression

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You would never know it,
The constant pain I feel,
Because in the light of day
It almost isn't real.

You would never know it,
The constant pain I feel,
Because in the light of day
It almost isn't real.

Sure, I'll play, I'll laugh,
I'll sing some songs,
But that pain is always lurking
Because it's been here all along.

And when the darkness comes
With its all-consuming power,
It slowly takes my soul
Hour by dreadful hour.

But they tell me that I'm strong enough.
They swear that it gets better.
They say, "If you can just hold out
and bear this stormy weather."

They tell me, "You will be happy one day.
All you need do is fight."
But what they seem to forget
Is after each day comes the night.

And so I act along.
I play my part
While this crushing darkness
Slowly breaks my heart.
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3. Mirror
- By Matthew Young
- Published: May 2015
Poem About Two Sides To Everything

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You see a girl
Who is crying for help.
She thinks she's alone.
She hurts herself.

You see a girl
Who is crying for help.
She thinks she's alone.
She hurts herself.

You see someone
Who feels unloved,
Thinks all she does
Is never enough.

You see a woman
Whose body is scarred,
Trying to escape
This life that's hard.

Now look again
And see what I do.
Look through my eyes
To see what I think's true.

I see a girl
Consumed by strife
Who has many friends
To help her through life.

I see someone.
For her, many yearn.
Doing so much
For little return.

I see a woman
Who is true beauty,
Trying to forget
A past that was ugly.

The same mirror,
Yet different eyes.
Which set is truth
And which is lies?
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4. Life May Be Hard
- By JC CR
- Published: December 2016
Poem Encouraging To Keep Going In Life

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Don't stop and scream at the pebble that made you fall.
If you can't get up, at least crawl.
You gotta move forward
And never be cornered

Don't stop and scream at the pebble that made you fall.
If you can't get up, at least crawl.
You gotta move forward
And never be cornered
By the thoughts that created an invisible border.

Life is hard.
Life may leave some scars,
But never be afraid
Of what lies ahead.
You can get through.
You just need some faith
And the belief that everything works out for the best.

When life gets you down, you gotta bounce back up.
No matter how hard, you have to get up.
Life may be hard,
But it can also be fun.
Explore different paths
And hold up your flag.
The flag is the symbol that you've made it far.
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5. Wanting To Feel Something
- By Joyce Alcantara
- Published: February 2008
Poem About Holding In Pain

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Have you ever held in pain to the point where it seemed like you didn't care?
You could've sworn you were crying,
But when you went to wipe tears away there was nothing there?
Going through life empty,

Have you ever held in pain to the point where it seemed like you didn't care?
You could've sworn you were crying,
But when you went to wipe tears away there was nothing there?
Going through life empty,
Just letting the world pass you by.
Numb to any feelings,
Just wishing you could die.
I feel like this daily.
So lost I don't know what to feel.
When in fact I do feel pain, I can't believe that it's real.
So as I lay my head down tonight,
I close my eyes and pray.
I pray that God will give me guidance and to maybe feel someday.
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6. The Unknown Murder
- By Samantha Jay
- Published: October 2018
Poem About How Abuse Feels On The Inside

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There once was a murder,
But this one has a twist.
The victim was my innocence,
Stolen through his fist.

There once was a murder,
But this one has a twist.
The victim was my innocence,
Stolen through his fist.

It wasn't a normal crime scene,
There was no blood or gore.
Because this one was my body,
While I layed down on the floor.

The only evidence left,
Were his fingerprints on my soul.
I tried to scrub them off,
But he ruined me as a whole.

There were no witnesses,
Besides my two very own eyes.
But they never really saw that well,
They couldn't even see through his lies.

Just like most murders,
There were many tears shed.
Though they weren't from my family,
But from me instead.

He didn't leave any clues,
There was not a single trace.
Except for the memories inside me,
Which I can never erase.

The police never found my body,
Because it's still around.
I'm a prisoner in my own skin,
I'm lost and can't be found.

There was only one weapon,
It was an extension of him.
And as he attacked me with it,
My heart became so grim.

This wasn't a normal murder,
Oh, why can't they see?
The girl inside my body,
Is no longer me.

There never was a funeral,
Because no one knew I died.
I guess that's just what happens,
When you keep it all inside.
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7. Trying To Live
- By Yvette
- Published: November 2008
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I am a poet writing about my pain.
I am person recovering and trying to gain.
I am your daughter who is trying to learn.
I am your sister who is starting to turn.

I am a poet writing about my pain.
I am person recovering and trying to gain.
I am your daughter who is trying to learn.
I am your sister who is starting to turn.
I am your friend acting like I am fine.
I am a wisher wishing you weren't mine.
I am a girl who thinks about suicide.
I am a teenager who pushes her feelings aside.
I am a student who knows nothing.
I am the one asking you to care.
I am your best friend hoping you will be there.
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8. Surviving You
- By Rebecca
- Published: October 2009
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Tell me what I did to make you treat me so cheaply,
What did I do to make you so angry and make you beat me,
You could see I was broken up inside and you just threw me around,
You left me lying dazed on the ground,

Tell me what I did to make you treat me so cheaply,
What did I do to make you so angry and make you beat me,
You could see I was broken up inside and you just threw me around,
You left me lying dazed on the ground,
I did not dare to meet your eyes but prayed you would see what you had done,
You picked me up and told me we'd have some fun,
A lump lodged uneasily in my throat my eyes glistening with tears,
My tiny body exhausted yet knowing the worst was near,
I wanted to scream and fight you and run for the door,
You broke me you wore me down but still wanted more,
Same routine making me incapable of movement that part done hastily,
Bit by bit ripping my dignity,
You left me on the bed shaking and broken,
I'd prayed someone would come please let someone have woken,
I would lay and go to a place where when I gave a cry for help someone would come,
And where people don't hurt people who love them for fun,
I'd talk to my friends who'd come and rescue me from the pain,
Who'd put their arm around me and take me to places where I have smiles that I do not feign,
In my dreams they would hold me when I cried,
They would be there to take me to a place where the angels sang lullabies ,
They'd take me to a place little girls didn't feel fear,
Where I would never have to cry or even shed a tear,
I was sad because I could never stay,
They promised I'd be with them there one day,
My friends have always been apart of me and always will,
They gave me hope that I can climb this painful everlasting hill,
My friends were my imagination I know that now,
And how they helped me survive I don't know how,
You killed my spirit you damaged my soul,
My foundations my very childhood you trampled on and stole,
I wanted to mean something and but I know I'm not worth much,
I wanted a loving role model not your painful touch,
Everything that happened and seeing your face all the time
I can pretend I can get over and that I don't care,
But surviving all this is just the beginning of a long and endless nightmare...
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9. Burning Sensation
- By Eboni Allisha Uneik Church
- Published: February 2008
Letting Feelings Out Poem

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This emotion runs deep,
Deeper than words can speak.
A burning sensation held deep inside her heart.
She knew she had to feel it some day from the start.

This emotion runs deep,
Deeper than words can speak.
A burning sensation held deep inside her heart.
She knew she had to feel it some day from the start.
But now that she felt it, she thinks it will never let go.
Held deep inside her, you never see it; it will never show.
These feelings she held for so long.
Trapping herself in the dark, forgetting right or wrong.
Her heart cries when she thinks of this emotion.
Trying to tell this depression, yet she starts choking.
She's not joking, words unspoken, still...
No emotion...showing.
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10. I Am Depression
- By Laycee Stiles
- Published: September 2008
Life Is My Enemy

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I am depression.
You know me for destroying people's lives.
My mother is the drugs you take to ease your pain.
My father is the pain you feel every day.

I am depression.
You know me for destroying people's lives.
My mother is the drugs you take to ease your pain.
My father is the pain you feel every day.
I was born in your thought, that can't be erased.
I live in your memories that last forever.
My best friend is death.
Because we work as one, we live to make you grieve.
My enemy is life
Because I long to bring you pain.
I fear for the worst
Because it is not the terms I wish for.
I love to make you sad
Because that is how I am.
I dream to make you miserable.

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11. My Mask
- By Erika McDonough
- Published: May 2009
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She is happy, I'm sad.
She has friends, I don't.
People understand her;
No one understands me.

She is happy, I'm sad.
She has friends, I don't.
People understand her;
No one understands me.
She feels happiness and love.
I feel pain and sadness.
She doesn't cry;
I cry all the time.
She will have someone to love.
I never will
She is pretty in pink,
I'm dark and black
She is warm inside.
I'm always cold.
She doesn't bleed tears.
I do every day.
Her heart is red.
Mine is black.
She doesn't have emotions.
I have emotion.
Her emotions don't run her life.
Mine do.
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My Suicidal Past Truama

Monsters In My Eyes

1. Scars

2. The Darkness

3. Mirror

4. Life May Be Hard

5. Wanting To Feel Something

6. The Unknown Murder

7. Trying To Live

8. Surviving You

9. Burning Sensation

10. I Am Depression

11. My Mask